Wow my God ---

and I don't even believe in God all that much yet that is how I have to express my complete and utter confusion as to why life has been so busy, so hectic, that this place has become very low key. MIA would be an understatment!

So yeah, life has been very very very, and very busy for me, which it always is, but it's so busy this time that there isn't a minutes rest for me to find space for tv.com. I'm thankful the majority of you guys have either Twitter or Facebook so I can catch up with you there! Anyhow, yeah, my fifth year in school and it's getting tougher and tougher! There is so much more to learn and so much more responsibility to learn, there's less time for me to a) socialise, b) write, c) read. Those three letters pretty much summarise my life. My friends and writing are very important to me and within the jumbled mess of educating books, I'm too lax to involve myself in reading or writing of another kind as often, which is a shame! These days, I live for the weekend. I live for X-Factor, I live for sleeping that bit more, and I live for going places with my friends -- the weekdays are full of school! So ... to draw away from the boring rant about how life has somehow changed ....

Even in it's change, life is good, if that makes sense. There's been so much snow here in Ireland, and school was cancelled for like a week. Ireland doesn't deal with things like that too well, and we get very lazy and take days off school and work when there isn't a great excuse behind it! I'm pretty sure they like giving us snow days! I love graveyards in the snow, and there's this abandoned graveyard hidden away which we go to in the summer to hang around (as depressing as sounds) but it's nice. Tv is pretty awesome at the moment, most of all Vampire Diaries and Dexter and THE WALKING DEAD -- yes how awesome is that new show! Supernatural? I'm always a lover, but seriously, I have no comment, and I haven't even bothered to check the fan reaction it's been getting because I'm to afraid to!

It's really odd that 2010 is ending. It seems like it both started yesterday, and also started a million years ago. Everything is oddly in a blur, which I cant completely describe. Since I last blogged, lots has happened. I may explain in pictures.

I have discovered a twin that lives in the same town as me. Apparently, everyone thinks we are the spitting image of each other. I see it sometimes, then I don't. We had the same glasses at one stage, we both have our eyebrow piereced, we both wear Converse and skinny jeans and listen to the same music, and have the same style. Then! One day he walked into school WITH DIED BLACK HAIR! My twin and me, notice the resemblance? The signs: we went on a rampage and stole them. Drunken times, I tell you. Drunken times.

Halloween was pretty fun as we did it the old fashioned way with a good old dress up! This was before I cut off all my long hair and traded it for a short quiff which I have yet to get a picture of! I think I was supposed to be a zombie person thing :P

There was also plently of partying, sleeping outside, and more partying, which is always good!

There has also been ... PARAMORE! Guys, I nearly forgot to jump and squee. I MET HAYLEY WILLIAMS, of Paramore and the rest of the band! There was a meet and greet before their show and I qued from 5am till 10am to ensure I got a ticket! And I did and I met her and she told me I had "cute glasses." I told her I loved her, naturally! And then I high fived each of the guys. One of the most amazing days of my life! I was utterly pis$ed that we weren't allowed photos or get more than one item signed!

And I got a new Android phone, where I can do everything Shane-Like eg, used as a computer lol, isn't it awesome and preeeety? :P

Well to be honest, my eyes are getting drowsy and I have a lot to do in the morning! It was nice to come back and just ... write about life ... I hope you guys are all doing well, I miss keeping up with all, Jon, Clare, Amanda and all the others that I can't catch on FB or Twitter!

See you guys soon

Shane.

Hey guys :)

Yeah, that's it. No more anticipating my results, they came on Wednesday and are all over. They came online at 11.am, and me? I'm quite happy :)

I did ten honours out of eleven subjects and got nine honours, which is great and perfect :)

ENGLISH - A

MATHS - B

SCIENCE- C

HISTORY - B

RELIGION - A

GEOGRAPHY - C

FRENCH - C

CIVICS - B

IRISH - C

ENGINEERING - B

BUSINESS - D (shhhh)

Everything was kind of expected, and in some cases some were expected and nothing could've been improved (Business) But I'm fine with everything and all I wanted to do was party that night. And I did exactly that. I had organised a big gaf party in my house for the night, and Junior night is typical ofeveryonecoming together in some place to drink and dance and sing the night away lol. So I just invited everyone over for a big party. Open invitations bring all surprises, especially when you realise you got 72 people in your house at one point! But everything went down good, only a few broken glasses and a helluva lot of cleaning the next day!

Me and Kimmy a few hours before the parTAAAAAAY :)

The party was great, made a load of new friends who I didn't actually know upon entering my house and school was like "Great party, thanks!" and my Facebook was booming too. I was really glad that everyone had a good time :) It's exactly what I wanted the night to be :)

I hope everyone over here is doing OK, sorry haven't been around much. Senior year is hectic, more than I thought. There's pressure with the amount of books and learning and even more with the bad teachers I got which I clash with every moment I walk into and out of cla$$.

This week was really great. The best part was:

I've anticipated this book for a bout a year now, by one of my favourite authors. She's really great. I'drecommenderto any twilight lover or any crazed fan of that supernatural genre. It's better than anything out there at the moment. This is set in the 1800's in England so it's alot different but I've never read a prequel series before so it's exciting! Clare wrote the Mortal Instruments Trilogy too which is quite spectacular and highly recommended:

Now, enough of my bookworm rantings. . . .

This week again should be exciting. Parents are coming home from France, then my Dad's birthday party and then a party up the street and then ... OMG ... SUPERNATURAL RETURNS!

Vampire Dairies this season already = AMAZING

And that is all. I can leave on no other better line than the above.

Goodnight and goodluck,

Shane.

Hey guys :)

It's been a veeeeeeery long time. I've been back for a couple days but haven't been doing much, not even tweeting (and that's a big deal). Being in Spain, (away from computers and the like, was like a detox for me lol) 

I had a really great time. I was out eating in fancy places with my aunts and uncles, drinking a considerable amount, experiencing Spanish culture, reading, swimming, and writing. And I had a ball, but it was enough, more than a week is enough for me to be away from family and friends. I missed all my friends, and most importantly my family. So glad to be back! 

I wonder if the joy will continue, Monday morning when I enter my SENIOR YEAR! I know :O. I actually can't believe I've only two years left in school -- kinda ridiculous to see time pass so quick! I got my navy jumper (which immediately gets me respect from all teachers, since it tells them straight up that I'm a senior) and I'm awaiting my claSses, see what teachers I have, and which of my friends are in  it. 

Funny how when I'm back from Spain, my mam and dad decided to go over for a while. That means Shane is left in charge to cook and clean for his two older brothers-- fun! And the tendency to have teensy weensy parties. Only one though :) And it's more of a get-together than a part :P. 

My results are out on the 15th of Sept, so that's a tad daunting but excited to see what I get. Definetely be back to post on that! 

I went on a whim one day and decided to get my eyebrow pierced, and actually DID get it done! Yeah, I don't think my parents like it but they said it's not their face and I can do what I want with mine, once I don't intrude upon anyone else's. And I thought that was pretty fair to say! It's kinda sore, but I don't think it'll go into infection -- so that's good :D

Some bad news with the good -- my dad has cancer. I don't think it's the deepest form of it, and I think it seems to be OK'ish. They haven't told me much, but for some reason, I know everything's gonna be fine. It hasn't really hit me yet because he sounds/looks/talks/tells the same, so what's the difference for me to get upset over? Nothing. Maybe it might hit me realistically if it gets worse and I see him hooked up to wires in a hospital bed-- please God that'll never happen, but yeah, I'm not hugely fussed. I'm worried a bit, but it hasn't bothered me as much because he has a brave face and so does the family, and it most defintely feels like he'll overcome it. 

Some television, since it's been a while: 

I've been re-watching CSI. One of the crime shows that I've loved, but then the show seemed to crumble. For one; Sarah left, then Warrick died, then Grissom retired and the CSI team shifted and the whole ensemble didn't feel the way it USED to feel. So I finished with it in the eight season, but recently, I've missed some characters and the story. So I watched the ninth season, thought it was average, and now I've moved onto the tenth (Where Jorja Fox is back) which makes it a small bit better. I think the writers actually dressed the chemistry of the characters and rearranged it after the ninth. Glad they caught up on that!

I'm so glad that I invested my time into watching this show, upon first presumptions thinking it was very chicky, but it has proved itself to be suspenseful, intense, gripping, emotional and on so many other levels FANTASTIC. I watched it to see Holly Marie Combs back on screen, since I love her. Ultimately the best actress I've seen on TV, so glad that she's appearing more and more in this show. The season half-finale had me left wanting to run people over MYSELF, because I do not think I can wait till January to see the final 12 episodes. If you haven't watched -- DO :). 

Season three of True Blood has been a whirlwind of a season, like completely intense and freaky that I don't know what the next episode will bring. I was looking forward to this season because I read the book before, but I can tell you the book means NOTHING when watching the show. The show is ten times better. I love everything this season has done with itself, crazily iffy about Sookie being a (don't highlight if you don't know what she is yet) ... fairy ... though. It is an iffy position for such an adult show to bring that into the mythology, but this season, I was so glad that the mythology has deepened into something more and brought the characters into a more pull than ever. Love really gets its theme in this season more than ever and violence doubly does, so all in all very happy with how this season has shaped out!

I don't really know how or why I started watching this show this summer-- I thought it was maybe the next best thing, but not too sure. I'm only.y seven episodes in, and I've found this show to be very slow and ... different... it's definitely intriguing to see what take they have on a supernatural world, but their writing SUCKS sometimes. They jump from one thing to another, don't explain things, still haven't told us what's up with the vamps and wolves and haven't greatly developed the idea of witches and succubus. I'm waiting till mid season but if nothing happens, I'm afraid I'll be closing The Gates -- pun horribly intended :P. Anyone else have an idea about this show?

My Fall line-up: 

Seriously don't know where I'll have all this time to watch all this television, but here's hoping. Here's what I have in mind to watch, tell me what you think and let me know what you're watching :) These are just the news shows I'll be watching. Glee, CSI, Dexter, Desperate Housewives, Supernatural, and Vampire Diaries will be among them also :)

The Event:

The Event follows Sean Walker (Jason Ritter), a man who, while investigating the mysterious disappearance of his fiancée, ends up unraveling the biggest cover-up in U.S. history; a coverup which shapes the very core of mankind as a whole, whose implications are life changing.

No Ordinary Family:

The show centers on the Powell family, a typical American family, whose members gain special abilities after their plane crash lands into the Amazon River.

Hellcats:

Hellcats revolves around Marti, a pre-law college student from the wrong side of the tracks. When budget cutbacks and her mother's constant carelessness cause her to lose her scholarship, she joins the Hellcats, the college's competitive cheerleading team

Lost Girl:

Lost Girl focuses on the gorgeous and charismatic Bo, a supernatural being called a succubus who feeds on the energy of humans, sometimes with fatal results. Refusing to embrace her supernatural clan and its rigid hierarchy, Bo is a renegade who takes up the fight for the underdog while searching for the truth about her own mysterious origins.

So that's an update on whats going on at the moment :)

Hopefully, I'll be back after Monday :)

Shane

Well hello :)

I feel awkward right now since I've not been around but it is the story of many tv.com folk -- mainly me. I should blog normally with life-update during the week, before I go to Spain! But now to distract you from my stupid-absent-ness, here's a chapter quiz/survey. Please do it too :) The title is paramore lyrics ... 

Chapter 1:
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1. Middle name:
Martin (shivers with embarrassment)
 

2. Nickname(s):
ShaneyBabes, ShaneyBabey. Dev.
 

3. Current location:
My sunroom
 

4. Eye color:
Blue
 

5.Hair Colour 
Black. 
 

6. Recent Favourite Singer
Andrew Garcia. 

Chapter 2:
===============

1. Do you live with your parent(s):

 Yes.

2. Any pets

Nope. But soon to get a dog. 

3. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?

Married
 

4. Do you have any Siblings?:

Three brothers. 

Chapter 3: Favourites
===============
1. Ice Cream:

Chocolate.

2. Season:

Winter.

3. Shampoo/conditioner:

Anything that my mother buys :P 

Chapter 4: Do You..
===============

1. Do you write on your hand? 

No, I perfer MicrosoftWord 
 

2. Call people back?

No, because I have a tendency to not buy credit. 
 

3.  Been in love?

Once or twice, yes. 

4. Any bad habits?

Keeping ticket stubs. 

5. Any mental health issues:

Nope, all clear and healthy!


Chapter 5: Have You..
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1. Broken a bone

My pinky. 

2. Sprained stuff:

Arm, I guess. 
 

3. Had physical therapy:

No. 
 

4. Gotten stitches

No

5. Taken painkillers:

Yes
 

6. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling:

No

7. Been stung by a bee:

Countless of times

8. Thrown up at the dentist:

Nope. 
 

9. Sworn in front of your parents?

Guilty. 
 

10. Had detention:

Countless of times for petty stuff though! 

Chapter 6: Who/What was the last
===============

1. Movie(s):

Walk The Line

2. Text You received: 

"Am on now :) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx" 

3. Person you upset?

I don't upset people, I encourage happiness :)
 

4. Person you hugged:
My mammy :)
 

5. Person you tackled?

Ben. 

6. Person you talked to on IM?
Allanah 

7. Thing you touched?

My mouse before the keyboard. 

8. Thing you ate?

An apple. 
 

9. Thing you drank:

Coke

10. Thing you said:

Turn this movie off, I've seen it so many times. 

___________________________

That was an inch of fun? :P 

And for some pictures to add a bit of colour:

PS: IF YOU'RE NOT A FAN OF PARAMORE ... THEY WONT INTEREST YOU :D But you should be a fan of Paramore. Roll on November 6th. 

One girl, I'll never get bored of:

Don't they just radiate fun?

SHOUT FOR PARAMORE: 

Best picture I've ever come across of Hayley:

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On a normal basis, I'd be distracted by the lollypop, but Paramore distracts me from the lolly:

I'm going to push to get these two merchandise tees:

The green is a tad vile though ... maybe an alternate color. 

Anyway, that is all my musings can offer at 4am in the morning. Summer is a happening of insomnia for me, which isn't surprising.

I hope everyones doing good and well, and enjoyed my completely pointless and random blog! Till next week!

Shane.

HEY GUYS

I haven't seen anyone around in a while, I hope everyones doing OK!

Life has been treating me fine since I last blogged! Summer looks a lot less like summer when I look out the window, which is a rainy site!

We watched My Sisters Keeper the other day because it was misty and boring outside! The movie was quite sad, and really problematic to be honest. Nothing like that would EVER happen in real life, I don't think lol. But my heart went out to the girl with cancer, she really wanted to live a fuller life and simply couldn't have it. Apparently it's a complete shame to the book, although I haven't read it, and after seeing the movie, I dont think I want to.

My brother's back from America, since employment is zero or next to none over there. He went over with ten friends for the summer, in hope of travelling through New York, and getting a job there-- although there was none. None at all. So he had to come home once the two or three thousand dollars he had, ran out. I'm sorta happy he's home, funny because he'd be the brother I'd be less likely to get on with, but with him gone and my other brother living away from home, the house is very quiet, and I'm not used to that at all!

I went shopping with Kimmy today, randomly out of nowhere--those type of things always work out better, the unplanned ones! I got shorts, some tees and a new pair of jeans for Spain. Hopefully be getting my runners next week (Irish people call "sneakers" or "trainers", runners,for the record hah)

Went to the library the other day and picked up ... Jane Eyre, by Charlotte Bronte. Don't laugh just yet! I don't know, it's a ****c piece of literature, right? So why not read it, and better improve my writing? A lot of writers read different types of books that basically tweak their writing, since they've explored different eras, different aspects of life, and ancient in comparison with new writing.

I've been reading Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows for the seventh time, this week. I seriously love this book -- and was hyped up so much by the trailer of the new movie, that I was sucked into reading the books and re-watching the movies, for countless of times! I believe a lot of the world is having the same effect, and I love it. I love how after so long, this saga can relight peoples love for these epic pieces of articular grandeur. I have to say, I have never read a book that really deserves all the glamor, the hype, the phenomenal reception and fanatics. Because JK truly outdid herself in every way in this series, and everything she achieved is well-deserved-- and I look to her as one of mypredominantinspirations and would love to meet her one day in my life. Her battle in life, in retrospect to her family and rapidly unexpected fame, is something that she inverts into her books and uses reality in a fictional world to better and make the whole idea of wizards and witches and wands to be unbelievably truth. The way she can induce themes like love and death and pain into such a far-fetched world shows her professionalism and true compassion for a world she lived in for seventeen-years and shared with the world."I've never felt such a mixture of extreme emotions in my life, never dreamed I could feel simultaneously heartbroken and euphoric." She said this with the finale of the book, upon her finishing of it and I think it really speaks to us about her character as a writer.

PS. ***I think we can deduce that, Emma Watson is a babe from the above picture!***

This blog was sorta ... random ... I just wanted to speak my mind about the whole worldwide phenomenon and show my love for this series which fortunately got me into writing and reading even more and betteredeverythingI potentially had. I promise to do some Potter-esque blog sometime!

And some time ... maybe a billion years from now, hopefully less than that, I will visit The Wizarding World Of Harry Potter. I still won't have grown up out of that world which really isn't specifically for kids. Until then ... I can only imagine. But that's what JK did and look at her now!

Funnily enough, my own writing has been coming along nicely. I've been in other worlds, book-wise, and I think you can truly differentiate your own writing ****when in other authors. So with reading different books, I think I'm understand my own world a little more. Just to update, I've been enthusiastically hacking away with book2 and have introduced a new family, which I have fallen in simple love with! They're Italian-American and I had so much fun, but confusion choosing their names. I present to you, The Valentino's:

Father: Alessandro

Mother: Allegra

Son#1: Gasparo

Son#2: Lisandro

Son#3: Luca

Daughter: Liliana

Son#4: Elmo

I dont know what it is, but I just LOVE Italian names, they hold such power or something. Yeah, just thought I'd give you a heads up on the names I've so happily chosen. I think names are very special, and cant just be thrown at characters.

I NEVER TOLD YOU GUYS!

I'm going to Paramore--for the second time--in November! I completely forgot! I ordered my ticket a while ago and was delighted that my parents bought one for me, so grateful too! I never get much gifts or random presents from my parents, because essentially I'm afraid to ask and know I can't always depend on them for things, but this was something I really wanted. And they play November 6th, Saturday. Which is three days before my 16th birthday. So it's kind of a birthday present. I'm sure I'll get something nice again in November, though. We still don't know who the support acts are, so that'll be a nice surprise.

RANDOM PICTURES:

Ok so that may be all from me :)

Catch you guys soon!

Shane

Hey, guys!

I hope Summer is treating you all well, it's looking up, I have to say. For me anyway :). My friends and I have been doing a lot of things we usually wouldn't. For example, we ALL stayed over one night together and just chilled, girls included. It's funny because we're extremely close. So close we realise when each other have bought new clothes (even the guys) or when we're sad or happy or hyper and all the little things. We've trekked out to the little waterfall, found a forest like Alice in Wonderland, with all these winding paths and scary interludes--like the big castle from hundreds of years ago, which is now private property! We've snuck into the cinema, had a big birthday bash, watched tons of movies, had a considerable amount of alcohol in the sun, and still have the beach planned and camping.

So it's all good, I guess you could say. Much more abound, I must say.

What can I talk about ... oh yeah, this blog was to purposefuly adress 1) what's been happening with me lately, 2) how I felt about Eclipse and 3) how I felt about Toy Story 3.

So ...

1)

Life

All of it is above, I guess. But what HAS been happening to me lately? Well, I'm thinking about getting my eyebrow pierced. I'm happy to once I get the money, and trek into town, but then I was thinking with my long fringe and glasses, will it be worth it and visible? I dunno, but I've wanted it done since I was like 11. Yeah, I was a strange, mature 11 year old.

I've been cracking on with the second book which I've decided to call, Hallowed instead of the previous title, Immortal. I don't know, Hallowed sounds a little more unique and mysterious. Anyway, I've been writing away at it till 3 and 4 am in the morning, because I think it's the best time I write. I love summer writing for that reason. I'm trying to write, at least a chapter every two days, but then again I don't wanna rush myself. I've been getting a little down at the product of my writing, to be specific. The storyline has been thought out for a while now and I'm happy with that, but I feel my writing is lacking or not up to scratch. I know I can do better, let's say. But that is why we re-write, to understand the mistakes and perfect what couldn't be perfected at the time. I believe, as you write deeper into a book, you're writing progresses no matter what anyway, so I'm waiting for that little bound miracle to strike. STRIKE ALREADY :P.

I think I'm going shopping next week for some stuff for Spain. Before I go into a shop, I know what I already want. And the prime object of my wants is:

and these ...

They're the lower part of the body, lots of higher in mind too. Thing for tees, so I do.

Oh yeah, CHARMED NEWS FOR CHARMED FANS, if you don't already know. Well I hope I'm the one bringing you this news :L. So Charmed ended, and we were all left with this magical brilliant ending that has been ever-infused in our brains. But what if there was more coming, not in a tv-show format, but in another? Well there is. THERE WILL BE A CHARMED SEASON NINE. Just not on our beloved television. Here's all the news on it:

Zenescope Entertainment has officially announced they have obtained the comic book and graphic novel publishing rights to the television property CHARMED (1998-2006) created by Constance M. Burge from Spelling Entertainment, under license from CBS Consumer Products. The comic book publisher, known for beautiful, sultry and strong female characters, has now added three more to the mix. The ultra-popular CHARMED television series aired for eight seasons on The WB network and averaged more than 4 million viewers throughout its run. Zenescope's comic book series will feature a brand new storyline which picks up where the television series left off. The story follows the Halliwell sisters, a beautiful trio descended from a line of powerful but good witches, as they battle against evil beings in modern day San Francisco. Attached to write the new comic book series is author Paul Ruditis, who has written several Charmed novels such as Leo Rising (with Constance M. Burge) and As Puck Would Have It. Co-writing with Ruditis will be Raven Gregory, writer of the acclaimed Wonderland trilogy published by Zenescope. Renowned artist Dave Hoover (Captain America, The Wanderers) will be providing interior illustrations for the series. "The key to this series success is to strike a nice balance in creating a brand new, intriguing storyline for fans of the television show while also not alienating Zenescope and comic book readers who haven't really followed it before but might want to now that it's a comic," said Zenescope Editor-in-Chief Ralph Tedesco. "The great thing is that Paul and Raven have done just that with this story arc. Anybody will be able to pick up this series and follow it whether or not they ever watched the show before. Moreover, fans of the show are going to be thrilled when they see where this story goes." Issue #0 is scheduled for a June release with issue #1 to debut at Comic Con International in San Diego this July.

Here's what the Charmed Ones will look like:

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So what do you think of that, if you already haven't heard about it?

IMHO, I'm pleased. Now, I've never in my life bought a comic book, but I'm fascinated to see where this goes. Literally, it's being picked up where the show was left off -- that can be exciting. Any ideas over it, guys?

Now to think of it, this could be where the future of Heroes cancelled storyline could possibly be.

Yeah ... I think that was all the obvious news in my life so far. Now for numero two ..

2)

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse

You guys are really going to hate me, because I was very sneaky and naughty, because I cough* cough* viewed, The Twilight Saga: Eclipse, online. Yeah, I dunno. It was there in view and very tempting, and it saved me the visit into town and the money too. Spoilers ahead.

So, this was my favourite book out of the lot of them, except the disastrous last one, which served as nothing but a 700 and something paged book, which may as well had no writing in it at all, just blank pages and the acknowledgements saying: MUSE MUSE MUSE, I LOVE MUSE, THEY ARE MY INSPIRATION.

Enough ranting about the fourth book and back to the movie ... yeah I really liked it :) Reading the book so many times, had me feeling deja-vu like. For some reason, I was hoping for a billion more Jessica scenes, because she's hot and funny and stupid :L The movie moved progressively fast, and swapped and switched scenes very jumpily which annoyed me a little. I began to hate Edward a little in this, he just didn't seem as full there as he did in the last two, and hisdialoguewas lackluster in parts--although his makeup was very well done, best in all the movies, I believe. Yeah, to mention the makeup and costumes, that department did very well and provided a nice clean shade of neutral colours that blended in well with the actors. I could've shot whoever decided to let Nikki Reed keep those eyebrows though, they distracted me from her story -- which I loved. I think they did very well, with the time constraints.

The flashblacks were nicely done, and pertained well to that era in history, what with the clothing and speaking. Jackson Rathborne reminded me of Shylock in Shakespeares play; he's there in very little scenes, but he leaves this huge impression on the movie as a whole. He has a such a strong presence, that it feels like he's in way more scenes than he really is. Props to Rathborne though, his composure and acting was top notch with what he was dealing with in his characters space.

The fighting scenes were amazing in this movie, and really fed my masculine needs in the Twilight Saga, satisfyingly :P, with all that drowning romance! Slade really knows how to capture the basic instincts of the Vampire and the Werewolf and collide those twosuccessfully, combining to make scenes virtually tactful and breath catching, leaving you restless and open-mouthed. All the speedy, jumpy, sliding, action had me on the edge of my seat. I was iffy whether Slade could deal with romance and action. I though he'd stay on the action more, and leave the romance dying and dull, but he gave them equal attention, and balanced them perfectly.

Just a few points altogether:

-- The best performance was Lautner, because he switched from angry, sad, to witty perfectly, creating an evident and realistic teenage boy, struggling with everything but remaining on top. He conveyed his heart and soul when speaking to Bella in touchy moments.

-- Bella Swan has came out of that little hole, that made her smileawkwardly. Her insecurity is shown less in this movie, and she has come out on top. Her character has grown progressively well in this movie, what with the end and how she has moved into belonging in Edward's world as she wanted, and happily. I believe she has come out grown in this film, able to make good decisions and understanding of others.

-- The tent scene had me in stitches with the laughter, "Face it, I'm hotter than you, Cullen." Or something to that effect.

-- Alice deserved more attention, and I hated the way Jasper never said, "My little spider-monkey."

--Every timeI saw Victoria, I cringed. She was a definite favourite of mine in the movie saga, and I hated the fact that she was re-cast. Bryce didn't deliver too good, she couldn't deliver well at all with the act that was Lefevre in her wake. Her wig wasatrociousand she didn't possess that menace that the Victoria before her did, soentrancinglybeautifuly.

-- Charlie remained funny in this movie, which was good. I like how he induces much more father-likelihood in the movies, and long may it continue.

That's really all that I thought about the movie, Rosenberg adapted the books into an obvious screenplay, that just screams how she loves pleasing the fans with the scenes that made the novel -- I love her work, and howsuccessfuland apparent it is. She confidently cares about the characters and the plot, and because of that, she brings the movies to be more alike the books than we can imagine. I give the movie, 4 out of 5 stars, for it's good writing, good character portrayals and good pacing. One would lost because of how disappointing Edward was, and how he didn't obtain his usualdemeanor in this movie.

3)

Toy Story 3

This franchise has been in my heart since I was a kid, debuting when I was one year old! I think I saw it when I was around the age of two or three, and I literally grew up with it,more soon the second film because I was old enough to play with the merchandise. I had Woodie and Buzz and pretty sure I had Slinky too. What I'm trying to say is, that this movie was my thing in my generation and reminds me deeply and happily of my childhood, and for this movie I'm greatful.

I almost fell off my chair with laughter and reminiscence when I read theFacebookgroup that said, I'VE BEEN WAITING 11 YEARS FOR TOY STORY 3, SO GET TO BACK OF THE LINE, KIDS. I've been counting down the days for this movie and it's finally here, and I can finally relieve a little part of my childhood! I saw it last night, before Eclipse. Spoilers most likely ahead.

Where to begin?

This movie, besides being amazing in all aspects, truly connects to those who grew up with Toy Story one and two. Andy's going to college, and all of us who were once little kids like Andy can relate to how difficult it is to grow up. I'm not leaving yet, but I'm stuck in the anxiety that comes with preparing for adulthood-- like all teens who grew up, with Toy Story as their number one favourite movie. Even now, I'm writing myself about a kid who's stuck with growing up and facing those difficulties and watching TS3, made me cognizant to the facts of how growing up can kill us, and yet make us stronger.

When watching this film, all I could do was reminisce about the days where I once played with my toys and use my imagination to create an abstract, unrealistic but fun world. I even once had a Woody and a Buzz-- like I said. For some reason, I feel like watching this movie has embedded further into my head the fact that I will soon be an adult, and soon have to leave my young and protected years behind.

The film nearly brought me to tears, you know how the water just forms in your eyes but can't and is reluctant to fall down your cheeks? That kinda nearly. Because, you really understand that you're growing up when you've achieved the state of mind that brings you to the conclusion that you have to say goodbye to things. In Andy's case, his beloved toys.

Barbie and Ken, were ultimately the funniest part of the stories. How everyone blames Ken for being a girls toy! Had me in stitches. "You're just a purse with legs," Mr. Potatohead said, and that reduced me to roaring laughter! I love Mr. and Mrs. Potatohead-- like an old couple, they are an old couple actually.

The ending was the icing on the cake, and how, even thought we have to say goodbye, we can do it in such a way that excites or pleases someone else, in Andy's case donating his toys to the grateful little girl-- who made me smile with her wild imagination, reminded me of me when I was a kid. I loved how Andy picked each of his toys out, and gave a worthwhile narration that we, as kids back then and teens now, could connect with. The ending is great, really. How Andy takes a moment to fall back into his childhood, and play and relate to his toys just one more time.

I think the time lapse between the second and third movie was fitting for this trilogy. It allowed us a bit of time to grow up and out of our childhood. It allowed us to now relate even more to the film and be emotionally and personally moved by it. I think for me, it has stressed the importance of cherishing the moment. I wish I didn't grow up so fast, and now I don't want to let time slip away from me again. That's where my title is at, because really at this age we are tender, and the worst is yet to come with the responsibility being posted in our own name. Toy Story 3 was a great installment, which reminded the kids of the stories generation, that time is of the essence, and that growing up is completely different than a grown up. Grown ups have their own life, while growing up is a mix of contempt and fury and decisions. A truly touching movie, for children and adults.

Wow, I never realised how babbling I was in all this blog, and looking at t the time, I've been here for a constant good hour and half -- although it was a time well spent :)

And to leave you ... I can give you a picture of a my new room. Curtains need to be hung but this is my place now, for myself to read and write and watch and listen without any disturbances, I love it.

Angle One

Angle Two

Angle Three

Pardon, the mess :P.

That'll be all, friends.

Talk soon,

Shane.

*EDIT*

THE CHARMED PICTURE WASN'T THE REAL ONE, I THINK. SO I UPDATED WITH THE REAL ONE, AND OTHERS.

Hello x100

It took a hundred blogs, to look this awesome :)

A century of this all, indeed.

Now everyone put on a hat, grab some chocolate cake and see what I've been up to, as we have a virtual party :)

Yeah, and to believe ninety-nine blogs ago, I said this: "Ive finally finished reviewing Charmed ... I've done all 178 episodes and it was great while it lasted but now what am I going to review !!!" and "This is my First ever blog so from now on im going to make a blog every night !!!" Funny how that's what I thought blogging was considered as back then, and to think, the amount of friends I've met on this site, how many blogs have documented my life like a little virtual diary -- and how much I've enjoyed being here most of the time, seeing everyone else's lives, commenting, staying in touch and being here for whatever need be! Thanks for being here with me too, dont think my online life would be as exciting as it is, without everyone here, because realistically, nowadays my FB and Twitter feed are blocked up with friends that have stemmed from tv.com -- WHICH I LOVE Long live more friends

Apologies for not being around. Quick update on life: I've been getting up at 8.30am everyday and studying till 12, so that's where my study life lies, my social life lies from 12-8pm and me-time lies from then till 10pm. Not much for online time! School is over, and as are my exams! So the big big big exams have taken up my time, and now they're done and flew by and I think I did pretty OK in them!

IRISH: As well as expected.

ENGLISH: Kinda vague questions. You never know with English, really. Definetly over a C ... I hope.

MATHS: Dropped to Ordinary Level, and did pretty well

GEOGRAPHY: Not continuing next year for senior level, so didn't bother with it. I studied some and did quite well. It's kinda common sense.

HISTORY: Amazingly well. So glad to that all the stuff I learned came up. I was able to write two three and a half paged essays (standard is one and a half) and also talk about world relations in the 20th century and the renaissance. I was aiming to do my best in this, and I think it worked.

FRENCH: Ugghh, hate this language, but on the actual paper I did quite good.

SCIENCE: Made a few stupid mistakes, but did well on Bio section and Chem section.

RELIGION: Yeah, did pretty well to get an honour. You basically have to have some good literary skills for this, and some emotions and you do good.

ENGINEERING: My uncle is a metlawork teacher, so I went to him the night before and did some tutoring. Everything he said came up and I was so happy, me and my mom are pretty sure he sets the papers.

BUSINESS: No, didn't do good. Fd up in paper two and that held a lot of marks, I should've gotten.

All in all, the exams went very well. And flew by too. The results dont come till September, so you just gotta forget about them and wait till Sept. I'll sure inform you on how I did and what I got.

The day I did the first exam, was the day one of my brothers left for NYC for 3 months. I hate him for it! More news, my OTHER brother moved out and up the street, so that means I have my own room The comfort of someone not coming in and saying "turn the light off, I'm going to bed." while you're reading -- is the most ecstatic feeling ever My house is so quiet, four down to two brothers! Funny how life is changing nowadays. watched the whole of season one of Dollhouse and REALLY LOVED IT! I have only watched the first two episodes of season two but not too connected with it because I've not had time to watch it.

Lately, I've been taking to the show Pretty Little Liars--honestly I don't know why. Maybe because it's summer and a dead one for tv viewers, because there's nothing on! It's sorta good, but I see myself tuning out maybe.

I love love love True Blood It's third season in and it has werewolves, ok so it fits with the genre of film and tv at the moment! But hey ... it's still our True Blood which we know and love. I laugh so hard at Jason's stupidness, and even harder when Sookie imitated Bill with his "Sookie," voice.

It's 100 blogs down the line and I have nothing great or inexplicable to produce, I have done everything in the book! Well actually, I completed all the cover for my three books in the Nick Knights Trilogy. Funny how I have the front of two more books done but not the actual material IN THEM! Although, visionary produce hints at my inspiration, and it has helpled me come up with scenes and characters. So for the 100th blog, you can take a look at the final three books, which I've tried to fit in to look like a series. I'll just direct you to my twitpic uploads of them!

Book One

Book Two

Book Three

Tell me what you think, guys :)

This summer is going to be sorta crappy! Everyones not going to be here, going on holidays at different times. I'm looking forward to going to Spain but I'll miss my friends -- we're all really close. It sucks! And summer 2010 sounds awesome, but it may just not be. We're going to organised a day where we can all be here, and have sufficient money, to go down the coast of Ireland on a train or get a plane, and spend the day and night at the beach. Keep your fingers crossed!

This was really short for a 100th blog but I'm still busy believe it or not, decorating my room and just hopping on here while the paint dries! My creative intuition has deserted me on this blog but not my room I'm decorating it solely of Shane-ness and cannot wait to reveal it to you all

I'll try catch up on your blogs later tonight!

Have a good one

Shane.

Well hello!

It's been a long, long, long time!

I wouldapologizefor my longabsencehere, but really, it's expectedprobablyby now since I'm a study-dude and lots going on lately, at home and with friends and generally with studying for subjects. The time I have spare, I'm with friends and the little time I have left, I'm on trying my best to check blogs and invisibly float around while not blogging myself! Sorry I've only gotten to a select few!

I have and WILL NEVER neglect the time in watching tv lol -- so I HAVE been checking out a show. There's a director/prouducer/tv man person in tv land, who has been appraised by many a friends on this site, and supposedly everywhere. He's been branded a genius, but I've never gotten to experience his genius. That was until I watched the pilot for Dollhouse. Now, I know Joss Whedon did Buffy and something else, but Buffy seems too old to watch online for me, so I decided to go with his newer and more modern show, so I did. And I am loving it--hence that very repetitive title lol. There's something about him, he just injects this realism into his characters, and his stories and plots are just overwhelming, how everything just fits tightly in and well done. I'm only half-way through season one of Dollhouse and really liking it. Topher= the bombdiggity and Eliza Dush(something or other) is just a fantastic actress, who switches in each episode into something completey different! Amazing! Looking forward to where it all goes.

I feel this blog is going to be a big one, but there's lots to catch up on.

SUPERNATURAL. OMG. and another one for emphasis: OMG. What the hell? So many words to just simmer down my feelings on the finale, but really I'm at a loss at what to deeply think about it, I'm still overwhelmed. Ok well I can say, it was very evident that this was planned to be the end of the series, we can see that with the narrative to it but they really did well in tying in the "stories just dont end here." part. Chuck introduces a narrative to us, that is actually touching in parts and develops and deepens into what we've always believed this show to be, which is family. We're shown what we love about this show as a whole; Sam and Dean. Two brothers on the road, accompanied by their home, the Impala. I love how they had the littlefeature of the Impala since, well in SPN Fandom anyway, it's another character. The parts of the boys being kids just fills in gaps for us, just the little things, which are mostdefinitelythe most fullfilling. Because even in the five years, we've never had huge backstory on them as kids just being kids, I know there wasn't much time as kid kids but there was as brothers being kids, and Chuckbeautifully weaves a tale of them together, and in the end the memories of the good, natural and family times are those in which that save Sam, help him control the devil. I love how Kripke speaks directly to us audience, and so obviously so. I had to laugh at the part of the b!tchy fans about endings", it brought a smile to my face even though the episode was hanging at the ending. It was sad, because I saw this as the final episode EVER. It was obvious that that's where they wanted it, they wanted it exactly done so but then they "sorta" ruined it with Sam returning, but I'm OK with that because its means more SPN. It's not that ruining, just lessfulfilling.The idea that Chuck is God is kinda warming and a little irritating, we'e always known him as the insecure boy basically, who didnt know the ability of his powers until the brothers showed up, and now seeing him as God is a little strange, in a different light. But then again, it's kinda cool because he was the writer of the brothers destines, and so is Eric Kripke, it felt like he was God more to the fact because Eric Kripke was the God in creating it all, and being with them, accompanying them in their lives. You know what I'm getting at?

And my favorite quote of the episode was:

"So what's it all add up to? It's hard to say. But me, I'd say this was a test... for Sam and Dean. And I think they did all right. Up against, Good, Evil, angels, devils, Destiny, and God himself, they made their own choice. They chose family. And, well... isn't that kinda the whole point? No doubt--endings are hard. But then again... nothing ever really ends, does it?"

The underlined part got me the best, I really loved it. Chuck doing that all the way throughout the episode was the most worthwhile thing ever, and his ending was perfectly heart-wreching, you know the type with a pit in your stomach? That.

Best season finale I've ever seen in my life. And that's not just because SPN has me under this spell of "you HAVE to love everything this show does."

For wtf Sam is back for? My idea might just stay with me until the premier of season six, too. I dunno, seems better that way :)

SPN rant over then ...

I've been having a good week with friends, a carnival is in town and we went to that a couple times. I'm not a person mad for rides, neither am I too big on them or heights but I went on this huge one that literally turned my stomach and myself upside down. I believe I was an adrenaline junkie for a day! So that happened for a while.

I had to re-pick my subjects for senior year, because really, I wasnt happy. Like all my brothers did Engineering but I'm the most klutsy person you will ever meet and it didnt go down too well with that subject for the last three years. But I picked it because they did, but then I regretted it, and saw things in my own way. So I went to the guidance counsellor, talked to her about changing subjects and where she can fit me in and she helped me a lot. This is what I'm taking next year:

English (compulsory)

Irish (compulsory)

Maths (compulsory)

History

French

Biology

Business

I dont want to do French but to get into college in Ireland, you must have a language really, so it's kinda needed. I'm happy with swapping Engineering forBiology, though. Its so much more interesting!

Last night I stayed up until like five am with Ben watching SPN. He hadnt watched the last seven episodes, so we did a complete SPN Maraton, watching a wopping seven episodes in a row! It was fun, but I'm paying the price now. It's 1am and I'm sleeepy!

The weather has been AMAZING here in Ireland. Really, when the weather here is good, it's the best place you can be in the sun! It's never to warm, like. Just nice :) Rocking it with my shorts on and all :) Feels good to be summer!

Today, I went with the lads to see my brother play a Gaelic match. They lost. Yeah, pity. But my aunt, uncle, cousins and stuff were there, so they came back here and we hung around with nice food in the hot weather -- it was fun! They left, and I went out and me and my mates planned Summer Two Thousand And Ten! HELL YEAH! Plenty of drinking, camping, and beaches!

Looking forward to everything coming up. I even want my tests to begin, to get them done and over with!

I thought I had more to say!

I JUST REALISED MY NEXYT BLOG WILL BE MY 100TH!

BIG A$S CELEBRATIONS, INDEED!

Well, I should be back before my exams and have an amazing 100th blog :)

Talks soon guys,

Shane

**COUNTDOWN**

Spain -- 69 days

Junior Cert Exams -- 17 days

Camping -- 30 days

Hey guys!

It's me :) Aren't you delighted to hear that? :) And this time, it's normal me. Not blogging-about-personal-crap me. Yeah there's some more complications at the moment but I'm so elated right now, I'm leaving them out.

Sorry I haven't gotten back to some comments, or sprawled with paragraphs on your blogs if I was absent from usual ones, this week has been slightly busy -- even though I haven't been to school in two days! Third if I take tomorrow into account.

Anyway, remember I said to you guys that these two authors from LA really liked the fan-ficiton pictures I did for their book Beautiful Creatures? And that they'd send some signed stuff? Well I was one to receive copies in the post the other day and was so happy :) I got a big old letter, addressed to me, which never happens!

Inviting, eh?

So I voluntarily ripped it apart. And found my two pictures inside, printed on photographic paper with their autographs! And also a sticker, and a dog-tag thingy. Awesome swag. Yeah, I believe swag is the word used for book merch!

It says "Lena (character in the book) loves Shane :)" and signed in the middle! A clearer picture...

And this which says, "Shane, you rock."And signed too.

Clearer image:

http://www.amazon.com/Beautiful-Creatures-Kami-Garcia/dp/0316042676

So that was the excitment with those two authors, which I urge you to read because they are so nice and connected with their fans! And also, IT'S AN AWESOME BOOK. Anf four more to come out, and MOVIE OPTIONS. I heard it was the new Harry Potter. And believe me, I hate when people say that but for this saga, I can expect a lot. Not saying it's superior than Harry but really, it's a look at romance from a GUYS point of view, and has the best southern-supernatural mix to it. I can really identify with the main character, what with living in a small town where everyone knows everyone's business, and that feeling of being trapped and wanting to spread your wings and move on.

GO BUY! :P

And while I'm on the bookish tense, I'll tell you how else my week was fun and bookworm like. I'm such a nerd, but I couldnt care LESS! :) No reason why I shouldn't bask in it now ...

So I entered a competition with Easons (Irish bookstore) to win tickets to an author event with Sarah Rees Brennan (the author I saw last summer, and love her books) and Patrick Ness, who I was familair with his books but never read them.

Anyway I wont two tickets, and set off by myself into town to collect them and attend the signing. I felt I had to go in on my own, needing my own space for a change. On a personal level, I'm sick of all the conflict going on in my life which is inevitably dragging me in, plunging me into something, which I quite frankly dont have the small-minded brain to get involved in, or want to like some people. Anway main line, I needed some Shane time. And that's what I got. Went to Starbucks for two hours, read a book, wrote some of my own book and relaxed.

I made my way to the event, took a seat, and recognised some people from twitter, which was fun. Anyway, I listened to these two hilariously funny writers. Asked some questions, and learned how to be myself with Patrick Ness's wonderful advice. He's such an inspiration, and although I have never read his CHAOS WALKING TRILOGY, after listening and laughing with him for 40 minutes, make me believe how amazingly structured, and well-thought out he was and his writer self was. He was encouraging and very nice. I hadn't much money, and was really annoyed to find out I couldn't purchase his book and get it signed. But I did get the second book signed by Sarah, and she recognised me from last time! She's such a nice woman, hilarious and witty and ever-so thankful to her readers. I had a really great time on my own, thought to myself, and enjoyed the day. I got a goodbag packed with a book or two, two t-shirts, and some stickers and bookmarks and so on.

So yeah, that was how wonderful that went. I'll be sure next time to buy Patrick Ness's books and not just Sarah's, which I cant wait to read!

I didn't go to school on Wednesday because it was half day and I stayed at home and studied. Effectively, I might add ;). Honestly learn more at home these days, since we're not doing much in school and I tend to get distracted and talk too much in cla$$ which gets me into trouble and that's never good! So being at home is kinda easier. Obviously today, I had the event so I didn't go in. But it was Sports Day in school, so there wasn't hassle in not going in. And tomorrow is a normal day but after tonights events, I'm tired AND ... AND ... SUPERNATURAL is on tonight in the US, so I can get it in the morning online. And maybe I might just study some, and watch the finale. Yeah, hopefully I can swoon at my mother and coax her into it.

I'm pretty sure this episode WILL kill me.

We'll just have to wait and see, I'll be back to blog about it for sure!

Talk to you guys soon,

Have a good weekend and week following!

Shane.

You dont have to read this, I just gotta vent.

It wasn't supposed to be for a person but ended up morphing into an hour of something someone should know.

One of those, woah-teenage-years-are-a-killer inner thoughts kind of thing.

This place is my refuge, this will all be meaningless but hey, I need this crap off my chest.

Before I start, this isn't in a b!tchy, angry, mad, or insulting way at you if it sounds brutal and abrupt. :) This isn't two friends fighting, it's friends being friends and fixing.

There are decisions that kill me, things that I cant understand and things I can't battle with. I know I've been in the wrong and hurt someone, I realise that. I dont enjoy it, believe me I dont and I know you think I do, but I don't. I realise she's human, but I dont think you realise I do. You dont know how much things have gone wrong, how much crap I've dealt with. Thinking I love her and I need her and instantaneously realising I don't and trying to figure out why I dont. How can someone immediately hate someone after thinking they love them? Are they supposed to say, "oh I didn't love her?" And even if I said that, it'd be thrown back in my face and misunderstood. And that's valid, yeah, but really I think the situation is misunderstood. I think it's f!cked up and weird and confusing and I've chosen to not get my head around it.

I love you more than any girl on this planet. And you know in what way. And to clarify, and take back what I said earlier, I wouldn't GLADLY give up DON as a mate for you. I'd do it but it'd be hard, it wouldn't lessen the amazing things I have for you though. Just saying, it'd be difficult to do, because it's a transition I've done two times already. And please dont think that I'm not there for you, because I am and I know I am and I want to be (thats what I'm here for), I'm at your disposal whenever you want, you know that! Silly Kimbers. And quite frankly, I was annoyed when you said that. Yes, you were right for saying what you said, I agreed with you. People have been bad to the girl, chosen to gladly, and I'll be the first one to put my hand up and admitt to that, but it's not like that anymore. I think you're seeing me for what I was to her, way back when. It's not like that anymore. It's mutual for me and her to not speak, I'm not sure if she's ok with that, but I am. I'm being selfish and doing this for me but in the whole process, I'm not forgetting you. Dont think for one second that I'm not taking into account you, because you're special. You make me smile all the time and create then my bedroom. Yeah, we get back and we're going good. And I think it's love. Maybe it was, those little butterflies in my stomach with your cuteness. Do you think I'd want to let that go again? Over something foolish, even more so this time? Because I wouldn't. I dont want to try, I cant try with her. I'll shut my mouth and give a hello and goodbye, and I'm sorry if that's not enough but it's all I have.

There's been so much sh!t, "I dont want to see anyone for a while." Not two weeks pass and she meets my mate, in my bedroom.You know me and the L word, we can't get along and I find it hard to differentiate. And when everything went haywire and f!cked up, I was numb and confused and hate was the first emotion to go with. And that hate built and built, creating something really bad. A bad person. And I was bad, I teased and bullied and followed everyone in that act, not realising I was doing that. So I came clean, explained everything honestly. I didn't do it in a nice way, honesty sometimes can't be nice. I've said my part and understood to shut up. And I've followed that for a while now. There have been outbreaks, small ones, with everyone else. You know, and I know. And after tonight I HAVE realised they've been bad and hurt her and I can promise there wont be that. There'll be no b!tching and hurting to her face, or down the phone line. But I can tell you, there wont be any friendly stuff face to face, and thats the way it is. There is no other way for me at the moment anyway, and I need you to understand that.

She's a difficult personality to take in, as we know. And I'm sorry if what I've said and conducted has changed your opinion on her. I did warn you and said I hope it doesn't, I guess it was inevitable. We can't all agree, and for this I think agreeing to disagree is the best. I don't want to tarnish everything we have or any of us because of something like this. And now, even contemplating letting you stay with her without me is best. Why should I put a downer on the day? I'd give it up for you. And I'm not trying to be all sucky-licky-dicky up to you, it's the honest truth hah. If it's easier on you, yeah. And if it's easier on her, sure why not.

I realise she's human, as I've said. I do. I don't like her, and I know thats brutal and abrupt and confusing since what we had. Believe me, I don't get it either. Hah, and you wonder why me and the L word have a thing. Maybe it's consciously because of her and all the other crap in my life, or maybe it isn't, I dunno.I'm thinking maybe it's that after tonight. But I want you to know some things. And I'm gonna number them and be all GHETTO AND COOL ON YO ASS :)

1. Stuff about that person, the male one. That'll change. One step out of line from him, and I swear to god it'll be dealt with. And I'm sorry if you dont want me to, but at the end of the day, I'm here for you. To protect you. And sometimes you're in need from protection from him. I was stupid to ignore stuff last time, but it's inexplicable in his case. I won't take sides, just like you won't. But there'll be stuff said thats NEEDED to be said for the sake of our friendship. It comes automatically like that, I said it on the phone in our mountainous-heart-to-heart lol, but there hasn't been any opportunites. Once there is, I'll grab it.

2. I know you want things to change with her, I did try at one or two points. I understand that you haven't got many girls in your life, and I took that into account and didn't want to let you lose her, but circumstances came about and that was the final straw with the "ima get battered stuff." It wasn't what she said really, yeah it's fine but it was the icing on that cake to just disconnect from her, and not in a sadistic way. I mean, I got angry, it's only natural but she said we were "friends" not a week before, that got me. So nothing can change in terms of us two getting closer. I can't guarantee that, life is surprising like that, you and I both know :P, but I think me and you were fate, it just had to be like that. And as I said too many times, nothing would ever change unless she matured and started changing. But someone can't change for the perceptions of others, so she can be who she wants to be. I promise to be kind with a hello and a goodbye, but I don't think it can be anything else, and I want you to please accept that and understand it. After tonight, I've felt for her. I did when sending those emails too, you know. But what was said was to clear things up, for my good and hers. You know well I'd be ashamed and hurt if she ever did anything stupid, and you also know that I'd be right after her if it ever came to it, please God it wouldn't. I've always said me being around will be for our sake and your and hers, but now I'll try not be harsh. Promise. Pinky :P *reaches into screen with pinky*. But please, accept that I can't LOVE her. I think you do already but just go easy one me, please :P.

So thats the end of that.

I'll just get this off my chest while I'm here. Might be repetitive but it needs to be said after our big-triple-big-chat on the phone, haha. ---- You are very much everything to me Kimberly Lally. I was blind once, stupid. Really stupid. And in my defence as were you. And you know that, it was just immaturity getting the better of both of us and even time went slower and I only realised why because I missed the one I loved all along.But we survived through that and some how we got through it after a while, it just happened and I dont know how! Fate, I can believe that. A miracle, too. Glad it did. You were changed too, but your amazing-Kimmy fragmants still remained, but you'd turned into a young lady. You have, as gay and terrible as it sounds! You've blossomed into this beauitful girl that I'm proud of. I don't know why, but I'm proud to be with you and love you and care for you and be here for you. I dont think I'll ever know a young one as brave, funny, beautiful and smart as you. You've been through so much in your life, I know a lot of it. And I tear up when I realised you've had such a hard one when things could've been so much easier on you. And I get annoyed knowing that I wasn't there when things were hard, I get annoyed knowing that I made things hard on you. I wont post your personal stuff here but family and friendship and hard times have knocked you down, but you've just gotten right back up again. You don't know how much I admire you for that, you really don't. Like, I get breathless feeling when I think of your troubles and then I get this smile when I think of how you've come through them. Then I think of me, and you. Think of how lucky I am to spend each and everyday with you, share with you, talk with you, laugh with you, cry with you, get through things with you, turn to you for help, sort things out with you. Within you I lose myself, without you I find myself wanting to be lost again, lost in everything amazing and happy and exageratingly theatrical, lost in the smile you give me, that action of love which is such a gift. I never want that gift to be taken away, and dont let anything like this crappy sh!t let it be taken away. And someone just tweeted this,"Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing and understanding for one another." Now if that's not fate and destiny, tell me otherwise! F!CK ME SAID THE QUEEN!

Click here and just think for a second, take it all in. Because it's all true for me and you.

So yeah, glad thats all off my chest. It saved a call, I guess ;) Love you more than anything in the world (some competition with Twizzlers possibly) but really not a day goes by when I dont miss you. Things won't change by a day or two days, they'll come about subtly. I'm not committing to anything, you understand. I'm just saying it'll be tough for the standard stuff but we'll get by. And I dont mean to make this all about you and me, because it's about her and how horrible she can feel at times because of me, but doing this for you will in turn help her. I'm sorry if I can't abide by another way, although, you're you, you'll understand.

Love you,

Shane.