I have been so lazy when it comes down to my physical health. I have been nothing but candy and have barely done any physical exercise. I am working on the change now, but I can tell it is affecting me in many ways. First I am getting fat, imagine that. Second I am more of a grumpy old man. It is funny how that change in eating can change so much of your life. I am going to get it together because I am tired of being a bum.

I have really been getting into gears online lately. I want to play it on insane but I am playing too much multiplayer. I just cant decide what to do.

Lately I have had a bunch of sell out friends. One is with a girl who is such a self centered b word. I helped fix their new house non stop for a month. I did what a contractor would charge $30,000 for and she did nothing but complain because she wanted it painted first. I tore down three walls raised the addition floor refinished the hardwood floors. I tiled the kitchen and bathroom and installed new vanities and kitchen cabinets. I painted trim and framed and finished three major sections of the house. She was pissed off because she wanted us to freakin paint. They only had a month to get them into the house and she can paint when they move in, we had to get the real stuff done before they had to be out of their apartment. I got no thanks from her, and it caused a problem with my wife and I for my neglect on our house. The friend I was doing this for does not even have his name on the title. They keep telling me they will give me some money. It has been a month and a half since they have been saying this. He was supposed to call me for the gun show today and did not. When I called him he was already there. I took off work to go with him and he dissed me. Another friend is now shooting up meth. He has been lying to me and his family for 6 months. What a bunch of chumps.

This whole immigrant thing is BS. I have been going through the process of getting my wife a residence visa, and now every law breaking illegal immigrant gets a pass. Politicians are killing us. So are the sicko Libs.

I have been on a totally different schedule the past 2 weeks and it is wrecking me. I have been busy doing things with the inlaws, and it has been a lot of fun. I am spending money I dont have to do this which is a problem. I am not making as much money as I need to get through my bills, to make it worse. So I have been burning myself out trying to figure out what I am going to do. I have not talked to or seen the usual crowd I see on a weekly basis and I feel like I am missing something. Not missing people or anything but missing something I should be doing or forgetting something I need to do. I really need to just relax. It just hit me also that I have been in this situation before and I just need to pray and read the bible to get myself on track. Those that read this and think I live in a fairytale land, I understand I felt that way before. All I can say is everytime my life gets too out of control and burdens get to big for me to deal with, I give it all up to God and some how things work out perfectly. Just writing this has given me a unreal feeling of calmness.

My back hurts so bad. I have no clue why but I am going crazy. I also watched a crazy australian flick last night called bad boy bobby. It is a messed up movie. Maybe, if you like disturbing movies you would like it. I dont think I have ever seen a movie like it before. There is some corniness to it but it was worth the watch. The middle of the movie is the worst but just get through it and you might really like it.

I know things will be good, but right now I just got the monthly bill for my wife's health insurance. It will be $440 a month. Compared to mine it is a lot. Well I am going to go through a different provider. No big deal but right now we are living without money. I have a few side jobs to get through all of this but it is a downer to know you are on the edge of absolute moneyless. Like I said I will be fine and know this will work out. I have been working for a while to get where I am.

The 4 new maps for Gears are so dope. I am so pumped up to play Gears now. Not like I did not love it before but now it is refreshing to have new choices. The bullet marsh is so damn sweet. There is tons of dark spots to hide and Kryll to kick your @$$ if you get caught under a broken generator. The garden is tight also there is a room where there is a weapon and you have to turn off the gas to get it but the gas will come back on and kill you if you dont get out. You have to pay 10 bucks to get it but it is well worth it. I played each map 1 time so far. Yeah I finally got a little break from all the work I have been doing and now I need lots more.

 

I have been working on things non stop and only have a few days til the inlaws show up. I will be able to get the real stuff finished by saturday and then will have loads of cleaning for the next day. I want to play some games but I just dont have the time. When the inlaws get here I will be banned from the games for about two weeks. When am I going to get a break?

I am tired of the political forums right now. The topic of religion is brought up and the whole thing turns into a fight to disprove God and why Christians or religion in general are brainwashing people. Make sure you pay attention to all the videos I see about the Jesus freaks and the ones ommited about the terrorists, the real threat. I am not saying that I am tired of defending freedom of religion, I am tired of the people that say religion is hate-filled when they close their eyes to the ultra hate they have toward religion. There is more hate toward religion than the other-way around. This is being done by the anti freedom of religion posse and use the excuse that people are forcing religion on others. People live by their religious conviction and you dont have too. So get over yourself. If I make a decision to save myself for marriage or not killing people or helping less fortunate or refusing to lie or not sleeping with a married woman or stealing or sleeping with the same sex or killing a baby or many others and making decisions based on those beliefs, How is that pushing my beliefs on you? In turn if you feel the opposite how is that not pushing your beliefs on me? How is that not pushing a anti religion ideology on me and restricting my freedom to put my principals into action? Dont tell me Church and State, because you distort the Constitution according to your hate. If what you believe is to be practiced then anyone that lives a religious life can make no decision on any law and should not be allowed to work in the government. If you tell me they can as long as it is not based on religion then it would be OK to steal, murder, and lie in court because I am brainwashed to believe this through my religion.