Okay, so I found out recently that my school is getting a crew team next year.

I've never done crew, and I'm not exactly athletic, but my mom says I have the right "shoulders" for crew and I should try it.

I've never done a school sport before. Plus, I don't know if it's gonna be a begginner team or a real hardcore team... I would just annoy people if it wasa hardcore team.

Plus, next year, we get to exempt midterms and finals in all the classes we have an A in. If I join a sports team, I would probably have a lot less time to do homework/study, and my grades wouldn't be as good. In senior year, the year that actually matters.

Also, I don't exactly have friends (lol), so I don't know how the rest of the team (whoever they are) would accept me. It might be awkward for a while.

On the other hand, this might be an opportunity for me to finally make friends. It would also give me the chance to get into shape. Also, it would finally give me something other than "chorus" to list on my extracurricular activites list when I apply to college. And what if I love rowing??? That would be good too.

There's also one more reason to join, but I think it's pretty shallow...
My crush does crew at the boy's school. Meaning I would probably see him again. He could either think I'm cool for rowing, or see me screwing itup and think I'm dumb. lol.

So, any opinions?

So, my crazy friend posted on her LJ last night that she was IMing the teacher she likes (i know, it's freakyweird that they IM each other) and he said "See you tommorow," and she reminded "No you won't," because she's graduated. And then she talked about how pathetically sad she felt.

The only thing I could think is, "With your crippled inability to separate yourself from this school, he probably will see you tommorow."

Sure enough, I'm in the middle of lunch when she comes running at me with a plate full of cookies. This is what she does. She makes food every three days and gives it to the underclassmen. No idea why. Yeah, as an all-girls school we're "sisters," but no one else BAKES for people!!! She's not even a very good cook.

Then she proceeds to say things like, "It's soooooo hot outside..."
Then why did you come out of your nice cool house to drive all the way here in the sweltering heat??
Did you forget your backyard contains a POOL???

"And I have to wear pants because I haven't done laundry in like a week!"
Then why aren't you home doing laundry!?!?!? In your own house, people won't care if you're not wearing any pants. And when the dryer's done, you can put on some nice shorts!! Sheesh.

She's literally come back here every three days. Which means I'll have to deal with her at least twice more before the end of the year. And then she'll probably stop by my house every day.

Or maybe not. I still think she's just hanging out with me as a ploy so people don't think she came back just to talk to that teacher guy, even though every time he walks in the room she's like a magnet and goes right over, not even saying "be right back" or anything. Just leaves, like she's under a spell. Creepy as f*ck.

She wrote once on her livejournal that she was "so worried" her "friendship" with him wouldn't last. She said she wasn't worried about friendships with her schoolmates, because she was "pretty sure" those would last forever.

Uh, think again. Has she realized that EVERYONE knows about her idiotic crush and EVERYONE is creeped out by it??? Therefore, EVERYONE doesn't want to be friends with her anymore?????? She said she checked the senior lost and found box, and the gift she gave someone on graduation night was in it. Figures. I'd probably leave mine sitting somewhere too. The only friendship she's working to keep is the one with this 50-year-old disgusting guy. I wish he would just tell her to piss off, but he doesn't. He's one of those guys that you can tell has been unlucky with love forever, so he'll talk to whatever girl will look at him. Ergo the rumors about him and the art teacher. The whole school pretty much thinks he only married his wife because he didn't think he'd find anyone else. I mean, he never brings her to school functions, and he knows the art teacher well enough that apparently he knows the names of her nieces and nephews. Weeeeeeiiiiiiiirrrrrddddddd.

Kind of an irrelevant mindless post, but...
I watched the House season finale last night. (yeah I know, it aired a week ago. I've been busy.)

House's conversation with that Cuban guy made me realize something... right now, i'm thinking exactly the same thing. The convo:

Guy: So... they all quit.
House: Two of them quit. I fired the third.
Guy: It's very hard to lose your people. You must be very upset.
House: Yeah, I must be.
Guy: But you're not?
House: I don't think I am... I think I'm okay.

I realized today that this is exactly how I've been feeling in the last few days. All of my friends have graduated high school while I still have a year left to do, and I will probably never see the guy I like again. In preparation, I dreaded this. I knew I would be completely and totally alone, forced to somehow try yet again to find friends in my grade who actually won't move away. I just imagined myself isolated, with no one to talk to and everyone staring as I ate alone.

Although I do eat alone... occasionally... I find I haven't really felt uncomfortable doing it. It's kind of nice to be able to focus on studying for the quiz I have next period, rather than focusing on my friends' problems. I mean, of course I'm relieved to not have to deal with you-know-who anymore (so far it's been two days since she's got desperate and decided to "visit.")

I might later change my mind, but right now I kind of like doing things for myself, not dealing with simply mentioning something to someone and then having to sit through the story of their life. And I'm surprised I'm not feeling lonely about my crush not being around. I really thought I would miss him more than this.

Right now, I'm just kind of living, and I like it. I mean, even when I was hanging out with the friend I was closest with, she always had to bring her boyfriend/fiance, and they always had to make out in front of me, not even registering that I might be uncomfortable with it. And after a while, we never went anywhere exept her boyfriend's house, where I ended up sitting bored in his "room" (the basement... which got flooded by the Nor'easter... and smells...)

So yeah, just like House, I'm all alone in the world... and I'm perfectly content. I can't explain it either. :)

Okay, so you know that super-annoying friend I have that did nothing but embarass me every single day???

Well, she graduated exactly one week ago. Leaving all us underclassmen with three more weeks of school left. Finally free, right????

Wrong. She's already been back twice. And she doesn't just say hi, she's literally HANGING OUT in the school. Around me. Because I'm her only underclassmen friend. Which is just plain great. I finally get a chance to be myself and get rid of the embarassment she caused me... nooope, she's back to do it all over again! SHe follows me everywhere, like a puppy or something!

I hate it!!!!!!!! She says its because she has nothing else to do... but I know better. Even if you have nothing else to do, if you finish high school, you're not going to go back less than a week later because you're bored. You're gonna turn on the TV and watch something stupid, or play a game, or go shopping, or at least clean the house or something!

It's because she's for some reason totally afraid that everyone will forget about her within like a day of her leaving. Which we all know isn't true... who could forget the freak who used to lie down in the middle of the hallway for no reason and throw stuffed animals in the air telling them to fly or talk about Pokemon having sex??? Yeah, that's what I've had to deal with.

If she comes to my house every three days over the summer, I'm gonna go insane. I won't be able to take it anymore. I won't care about her clinical depression- I'll tell her flat out that she's a pain in the ass and she's been annoying and embarassing me since like March. I'll tell her that I was hoping spending the summer away from her would be a way for me to cool off and not hate her, but seeing as she shows up every freaking day she's totally ruined that possibility.

The first thing I said when I saw her today was "go home!!!" I didn't say it nasty, but I meant it that way.

She's so messed up. I know a major part of why she keeps coming back is that for some reason she's in love with the only male teacher in our school. I know, it's insane, it's disgusting, and it's creepy. But she thinks that there's absolutely no chance that she'll meet anyone in the whole entire world that's her age and likes her. She assumes it's this guy or nothing. Which is stupid, because it's not like he loves her. He's just nice to her. And her brain goes "guy is nice to me = i must love him and date him and kiss him and marry him and spend the rest of my life with him..." when I just want to slap her. It's pointless. And I'm waiting for the day when she can't stand it anymore and will be like "Why don't you love me???" and then the whole school will be like, "WTF???" And then since she's graduated, she can leave the scene of disgusted embarassment, but once again, I'm forced to remain and carry the weight of "that weird girl who follows you around all the time is in love with the teacher."

I hate it. I hate her. ANd now I hate him because of her. She's just made him seem so skeevy, and he hasn't even done anything. I think. There's rumors that he's having an affair with the art teacher, which are 100% possible. So my first thought of course is, if he dates her, who else would he consider?? And then I'm imagining the news vans and the scandals and the court trials and the disgrace... She makes me, and the rest of her friends, totally sick. Because she thinks she's hiding her attraction, but she's not. AT ALL. It's sooooo obvious.

Okay, so I knew it was obvious that all of the "abstract" (translation: f*cked up & f*cking hilarious) commercials that are on TV now were made to appeal to younger people with tastes in humor like that...

But now they're putting them online for us YouTube addicts as well???

I don't just mean commercials people have uploaded, I mean the actual companies have videos of "Extra Scenes" from various funny commercials.

For example, there's a montage of a day in the life of that random oriental guy from the Hot Pockets commercials. ("you not hungry for girl, you hungry for Hot Pocket!!" lol)

And then there's a video with that crazy "Berries n' Cream" guy from the Starburst commercial that teaches you how to do the little lad dance and explains why he does the little lad dance.

They both had me cracking up for a while. So these internet add-ons are a welcomed extra, but what exactly is the purpose?? And who started the trend??? How did they get the actors to agree to this????

...stay until the credits are over!!!!!!

Trust me, it's worth it!!

And if you really can't stay any longer, at least go to YouTube, type in "potc 3 end" and then watch it. ;)

The Shoobies are back. Gah.

Let yet another summer of no free parking meters, clogged highways, and cars that don't right turn on red begin at the Jersey Shore.

Today was the last day of school for the boys' school that mine shares buses with.

The guy I have a crush on will be a senior next year, and will drive to school.

I will never see him again.

A very sad day.

Well, my friend is the valedictorian for her class. So, she posted her speech on LiveJournal for people to critique... only she didn't want students at the school to read it because she wanted us to hear it for the first time that night.

Well sorry, but I'm not in that grade, and I'm curious. So I read it. And it's CRAP. It's got so many typos and it's so rambling... will anyone really care about the difference between a similie and a metaphor???? NO!!!

I just can't correct anything because I wasn't supposed to read it anyway. So now I'm just waiting for her to make a fool out of herself come graduation day. I mean, come on... "The place I learn?" how about the place *where* i learn, or maybe the place i learn *at*. Sheesh. I so hope I don't have to write a speech next year, but if I do, at least now I know it'll be better than that.

I saw "Love Actually" tonight.

That boy and his stepdad are the most adorable people ever!!!!!!!!!

What other stepdad would tell you go ahead, run through airport security and potentially get arrested, because you're in love?? That guy did, proving he was the best stepdad ever.

And the 'the person i love more than anything else doesn't even know who i am and i don't know how to get them to notice me' advice of "We need Kate and Leo, now." is going seem cool for a while. I don't exactly know how that made the issue any better, or why it wasn't weird for a guy to show his stepson Titanic as relationship advice, but somehow that movie made it seem like a cute moment. And then when they were pretending to do the "I'm the King of the World!!" part. Awwww cute.

That movie had so many great parts. Hugh Grant's embarassing dancing, Hugh Grant's embarassing door-to-door carolling, Mr. Bean as the slowest gift-wrapper EVER...

You see, this movie had just about EVERY famous British actor EVER in it, so I identified everyone to my mom by who they were in other movies.

I was like, "There's Hugh Grant. There's Nanny McPhee. There's Snape. That's the 'Jim' character on the British version of The Office. That's Davy Jones. There's Schindler. That's Elizabeth Swann. Hey, it's Mr. Bean!!!!" And then there were random American people, like Billy Bob Thorton, Shannon Elizabeth, Elisha Cuthbert, Claudia Schiffer, and even freaking Denise Richards. But whatever. I didn't really like their bits, so I try to block out their presence in the movie. :P