im trying to get to 50% before i go. so no snow mr. popo. i dont know. man some of these plasmas are hella expensive. dang you best buys you lie your not the best buy (frys is better)

FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE speaking of fire my arms are feeling much better though i still have some redness, scabs and blisters. and its still alittle sore so thats all for today, by to day i mean yesterday, because its techincly tomarow, but i havent slept yet so i count it as yesterday. later

sleeep is for the weak i dont need to sleep. ive gotten to the point where ill bee standing thesre and the next thing i no is that ive awoken an hour later...1 second must feed cat...im back. ummm that was wierd, ive started to twitch i have been twitchign alot latley. hang on im going to check my email while i do this...be right back...sorry just relized i didn't have a knife, also that a door was unlooked. my paranoia is acting up a little. i was thinking if most people, normal people, go through there life not haveing ever been in a fight. i know. i t seems impossible to me too. but apparently we grew up with alot of violence in our life. but still its seems assinine to think one can live without ever knowing violence, even gandi probably knew violence. i hate; o crap my cat meowed and i jumped half a foot (non literal sense); anyways, i hate this chair it makes way to much noise it could give away my position. people always asked us when we were younger what we wanted to be when we grew up, id all ways say the same thing (of course everyone thought it was a joke about wanting to stay a kid forever lol ignorent bastards) i dont plan to grow up, or i probably wont grow up. knowones ever seen th true meaning behind that. you can accomplish so much if you dont sleep. which raises the question why do humans even bother, it is terribly inefficent. we dislike sleeping for that reason also because it leaves us open to anything we cant defend ourselfs if were asleep. sleep is useless. some say it is so your brain can recouperate, but i can do that up in meditation. i sometimes wonder why does existance exist? it seems to serve very little purpose, at least that i have observed. and it seems horibly inefficent. i just read a forum post about this 14 year old kid who wants to kill him self, he kind of reminded me of me at that age. thats all for now fokes. goodbye

i suck at spelling. least when im not in school. but anyway. i have gotten maybe 2-3 hours of sleep in the last week and few days before that. **censored**

why do i point out the obvious you ask? well today my friend didn't have RE 2 so later we watched dodge ball again. but befor that when his mom wasn't home we went out on the deck and lit me on fire. not just my hands but my arms as well. now we have done this before with smaller parts of our bodie ie hands and fingers. but this time we went out on to his porch, with a can of hair spray, totaly soaked my arms from about the middle of my upper arm on down. so then just before we lit it, i say the same thing i say every time we do things like this. "i am so F***ing stupid" and we light it. first five seconds were fine. but then it started to hurt alot. so i meditated it out for about twenty more seconds. then i loose concentration and it burns like...well having my arms lit on fire. so i start patting it down as does mike (my partner in crime.) but to my disdane it doesn't go out. so i stand there waveing my arms in an attempt to put them out while saying F*** over and over again as tendrils of smoke reaking of burning flesh drift up from my body. then i realized i could use my legs, i put my arms between my legs and smuther it. long story short i end up with several blisters, and arms so red that they could be mistaked for a fire truck. it hurts like hell still so it taken my almost and hour to write this. all i have to do is wait for the redness and blisters to go away, but untill then ill have to hide them from my parents. although if i can hide cuts on my arms i should be able to hide this stuff. well im gonna go look for some ointment since my parents are asleep. feel free to mock me, that is if anyone actually reads this, i deserve it.

later

i dont have time to post anything long, so hi, how are you, good, bye. we are going over to my friend mikes house to watch RE 2, thats resident evil 2 for any who dont no. later.

i have to take a piss, ill be right back. alrighty then. sorry that took me longer then was expected i had to take a crap also. wow i even find that vulgar, and uncalled for. o well not like anyone reads this anyways right? yeah. well after working for a couple of hours i have redied my fathers scavenger hunt thing. see in each clue he will get a few colored letters, which when he colects them all will match the colors i put on a styrofoam board, and when he looks at it from the reight direction, it will say the final clue. which reveal the air compressor we got him for christmas. hopefully he doesn't read this, if he does he should call me and asshat. wow i just relized how much noise our dish washer makes, we dont always run it at night but now i see why we do this thing is freaking loud. i got boared and my friend who i grew up with (he live arcoss the street from me scince the 2nd grade) was visiting from montana. so we went on xbox live, and i tried to see how long it would take of me being annoying. no. i mean even more annoying then usual so shut up already. i went around saying stuff like do you like the apples, and do you want some cheese? and other equaly assanine questions. i think im getting a nintendo DS for christmass. listen not that this isnt fun or anything, cause it is but. o i just drank a VAMP energy drink, and it putting me to sleep, damn add, damn caffenee doing the oppisite, thats why my pills are basicly speed for anyone who dosen't have add. but anyway, i might update later tonight...well its 12:49 almost one in the morning so i guess later today would be more acurate.

oh also i shot my friend in the ass with my airsoft gun from about a foot to two feet away. and he had this red pimple looking thing. hay damn you you keep tricking my im going to check my email. and see if my mom mailed me back yet. later. go burn something or someone you care about just to show that you care.

i am at last reunited with my electronics and other stuff. i am aloud to use my stuff again, thats right im un banned. so in you mushy purple face. plus this guy at my school, we call him pants or pantalooms, let me barrow his azumanga daioh, mini dvd thing. it was really funny at first, but towards the end it kinda made me a little depressed. never mind sorry that was me whineing. i dont know if it was cause it was just the first episode but nothing of any aperent signifigince happened. although i would like to see the next few episodes. i was gonna buy this inuyasha ( ha! like thats spelled right) pack that had the first two mangas and the first episode on DVD, but its christmas, and i have to pretend to buy into this whole oh im gonna be nice to everyone because its christmas shpit while my parents are around so i couldn't buy it. also the first season box is like 70 freaking dollars.:o but in good news i found the Invader Zim action figures. but again theres the christmas shpit. o well thats life. unfortunatley. boobs. its said that males think of sex every 7 second. i dont see how they could tell, i they say tell us when u think of sex, they will think of sex more. also i found acouple fun games, like one where you have to hold a button. and another where your a giant and you get to burn people/dogs/cars with a magnifying glass. o and the guy i grew up with till like 7th grade is visiting his grandma, who lives across the street from me. so i dont no but im gonna go mess around on the forums, then halo 2 or tv. THATS WHAT IT WAS YOU WASELY WESAL YOU. im level six now. thank you. your welcome. alright b wait damnit i was talking to my self again. or typing to myself what ever i know that. bye.

i am really bored, im not allowed to do anything. but o well, im going to reminse since im so bored. (plus the fumes are getting to me.) we just painted the walls

FUN WITH FIRE

this one some might not belive, because i was so young.

before i moved here (in other words before second grade), i lived on capitol hill in Seattle among other places, and we lived in a duplex sort of thing. anyways one of our was these two guys, they were cool cause they made all sorts of fun fire things. but they gave me this tennis ball bomb, not a good idea but w-e. one day after school i was walkin home and i decide to useit. so i lite it up, and roll it down an alley, in to a dumpster and some trash cans. i took cover behind a wall, and when it went off, two of the trash cans were gone, i couldn't find them, and the rest were spred around the alley, the dumpster, had a hole the side of a basket ball, and was upside down on the other side of the alley. most people think yeah right like a little kid would have that or do that, but i was a messed up kid, and still am luckly :D

another time was when i lived in idaho, (about same time as the last one) i was playing with some paper and a lighter, a cop car drove by me, so i hid it by thoughing the flaming paper into a dumpster that i had used to block the wind. after the cop car passed i looked in the dumpster to see some other stuff catch. the dumpster started to move from my weight leaning on it, so i turned and ran like hell, i dont know if it rolled down the hill or not but there was a lot of squeling tires and honking horns.

many people dont belive me cause not only the age, but the fact that they take place in very differnt place, but if they knew anything about me they'd know that when i lived with my mom, we had to move around alot, do to the fact that i didn't have any medication at the time, so id get susspended, and expeled from schools and one school district. also these are some of the earliest memories i have. that i actualy want to remember.

thats all for now im going to go read or some thing. il post more of my memories here at a later date.

ive been banned from the computer, tv, video games (including halo 2), leaving the house (for the greatest drink on earth slurpee's), for about a week, which sucks cause ill have nothing else to do. im not supposed to be on the computer am i? shnitzel. o well later.