So last night I had to babysit 3 children that were 2, 5, and 6 years old. It is so hard to keep up with the 3 of them. Thankfully I found a television and a stash of movies so I put that on and they all calmed down right away. Then they had snack and then it was the dreaded bedtime.:shock:. I was praying that bedtime wouldnt result in something horrible. The 2 year old cried but finally went to sleep then the 5 year old lost her blanket so I had to spend 20 minutes searching for it which btw was never found. They ended up going to bed a half hour late.:? Then 15 minutes later one of them started breaking out in hives. Luckly the mom left some sort of medicine to put on it. Then once their precious little heads were tucked in bed, I watched Forrest Gump and did some anime drawings. I'll put it up tommorow because Im still not done with it. I think it'll be a good one.:) The parents got home an hour late so they threw an extra 10 bucks in so I ended up with a hefty $40.:D

I watched Death Note last night. Good episode, except when is Ryuik gonna come back? I imagine he isnt gone for good. I miss him:cry:! If he does don't tell me I want to find out for myself.:P I also watched another episode of Naruto(epi 17). I have to say out of everyone, Kakashi is my favorite one. He's freakin' awesome.:) Okay well I have to start getting ready for church so I'll come back later today and do stuff.:P

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UPDATE!!!

Okay since I joined Gamespot I have been invited to many unions and so I joined 13 of them. Well I just went through my unions and I have resigned from 6 of those unions. Mostly because there was not much activity in those unions. Now I may join more but I mostly prefer anime unions so if you are in an anime union, that is active, then you can invite me. As to whether I except or not depends on the union. I am currently active the most in one particular union so I will spend most of my union time there. So please no more union invites unless your union has a lot of activity in it. The word union appears in this paragraph 11 times.:P

Okay I may come back on here later since the moving furniture gig fell through. So all I have to do today is babysit. Im gonna leave right now anyways to go to the bookstore. I hope to find some manga there. Oh I changed my avatar. I think it's funny even though Edward is getting smacked around over and over.:P I will draw more tonight so I will post more drawings tommrow.:D And Im on episode 16 in Naruto. They just found out that Sauske has Sharingan(sp?) eyes too. I like Naruto. Its good anime.:D

Hey I just noticed that I reached Lvl 11. w00t!:D

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I had to come back because I forgot to bring the cookies! Here ya go!

ZOMG!!! This crazy girl ate them all:cry:

Despite my somewhat sad and upsetting blog post last night I have good news. Well at least for me. I ordered the FMA boxset last week and it was finally shipped last night so I should have it by Tuesday at the latest! Woohoo! Do a dance! Woohoo! :P When I told my mom it finally shipped out she was like "Oh great now once you get it Im not gonna see you ever again because you will be locked in your room watching it all the time" lol She knows me too well.:P Just wait until I start buying the Death Note series. It'll be like I never even existed.:lol: No poem today again.:( I dont feel like typing so much stuff right now. Here's another doll that I made to look like me.:) I think the hair on this one is closer to mine. My hair is dark brown so it almost looks black btw. I want to dye it black though.

Q&A:

nightember1:

Q: what do you think about snow?

A: I hate snow. I like to look at it but I hate to be outside in it.

the_unknown11:

Q: have u ever sneezed and puked at the same time?

A: no but I have puked and it came out my nose before. Ew.....:?

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COOKIE TIME!!!! *throws cookies everywhere*

Im posting a late blog entry because I need help. In my freshman year of highschool I met a girl. She was the new girl and kind of an outcast. But oneday some of my other friends invited her to our lunch table to eat and from that moment on we were best friends. We even called each other sister because we looked so much alike that everyone else thought we were twins. We told each other everything...well at least thats what I thought. I moved away about 6 months later. She gave me her phone# but never could reach her. She ended up moving too and them we lost complete contact. She emailed me about once every 6 months but never replied. Well today I remembered that she used to have an xanga page. So I thought I'd look to see if she still had it. She did. But she wasnt the same. She changed so much I dont want to believe it. Her blog posts were so horrible. A cry for help. Shes killing herself. When we were in highschool she was a cutter but she gave that up. And I know that she had done drugs before but gave that up too. But maybe they were all lies. Once she moved she went back to her old ways. Shes drinking, smoking, doing drugs, you name it shes doing it. I cant just sit by and watch her do this. I was her only true friend in school and if I let her die...I have to help her. I created my own xanga page just to talk to her. She hasnt replied back to me yet. In her blog she wrote that she hopes no one she really knows will find it because of what shes posting. Once she finds out that I found it, theres a chance she might get mad. idk What do I do? I dont want her to think that I hate her. I dont. I still love her as if she was my own sister but if she was in front of me, I swear to you, I would smack her so hard. Why? Because shes doing it again. She knows what she is doing is wrong. Yet she does it anyway. Why? She only ends up hurting herself and everyone else around her. I dont know what to do. The only way I can contact her is through her blog. The only thing I feel like I can do for her is cry.....

I have a babysitting gig on Saturday for 6 hours so once the kids go to bed I'll have a couple hours to draw in peace and quiet. Then I will be able to post them on here!:) Thanks guys for all the great comments on my poems and drawings. I love reading them!:D No poems today.:( Ive decided to take a break from that for a few days. Instead today I will post what I look like in dress up doll form.:) Here I am:

(of course Im not that short and stumpy:P)(and this is what my boyfriend will look like)

Here are a couple of more drawings I did. Some of you may have seen them already so you don't have to comment if you did.

Alphonse Elric

And of course, L.

Whenever I draw, I dont ever really look at the drawing as a whole until Im done with it. When Im drawing it I kinda divide each part up and focus on whatever part Im drawing. I promise I will get that stupid scanner to work as if my life depended on it!

Q&A

nightember1:

Q: if pie was a animal that you would need to hunt in order to eat it...would you hunt pie?

A: Well I dont like pie but I guess if I had to survive I would. As long as its not apple pie. I had a bad expierence with apple pie once..:?

the_unknown11:

Q: didya miss me when i was banned?

A: I didnt even know you were banned but if I had known then yes I would have missed you.

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Video of the Day:

Lil' John-Act A Fool Parody

Okay now for the food. Everyone wants something different so Im gonna throw it in the air and you guys can fend for yourself and if you get hit in the head with a carrot then oh well:P

Good morning fellow gamers! Last night I did a drawing of Lust from FMA. I also added more stuff to my DeviantArt page. Some paintings and watercolors to kinda change things up a bit. Hope you like them and please comment to let me know what you think. No poem for today.:( I dont feel like typing all that right now. Please don't leave me! Oh I recently joined a union that is just starting up. The Legendary Anime Union. If you love anime then please join!

Okay I have time to post now so I will put everything else up here.

These two "poems" are not done. I wrote these a long time ago but can't finish them now. I feel they are very angry and I dont have that anger anymore to finish them. I still think they are good so I will post them anyways.

I would slit my wrists and die for you.
Make a date with Death and die for you.
Open my wounds and die for you.
But I sure as hell won't cry for you.


Ghosts from all those tangled days,
appear in front of me.
Memories escape and blood is spilt,
While the vampires come out to play.

Q&A:

nightember1:

Q: if you could do something very big to change this world for better or for worse...what would you do?

A: Well teen suicide is something that I would love to help put a stop to. Music is what helped me through my tough time of depression that almost lead me to being suicidal so I would like to help others through music.

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Video of the Day:

Breathe Into Me-Red

Oh and as for the cookies..There are no cookies!:twisted: Today I will be giving out carrots! I'm looking out for you guys' health. *hands you a carrot then uses alchemy to make a shield for when the carrots are thrown back at me*

About the "Sound of Hell" page, I accidentaly deleted it due to a stubborn mouse. I was trying to edit the post and clikced delete and then my mouse took it upon itself to click yes when it asked if I was sure I wanted to delete the post. Thats been happening to me the past couple of days.:? It's getting on my nerves.:evil:

So I've been watching Naruto lately and to be honest I didnt think I'd like it at first but once I got past the first episode it was great! I believe I'm on episode 7 now. I also watched the first episode of Bleach which was good as well.

Oh I got a new sig too! Thanks to chaosmakerx for it! I love it:D:D:D

Q&A:

the_unknown11:

Q: do you like waffles?

A: I love waffles. Pancakes suck! Waffles FTW!!!

nightember1:

Q: what is your favorite thing to do when you are bored?

A: I like to draw or listen to music.

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Video of the Day:

Fred on Valentine's Day (I thought this was funny:lol: )

Another poem. Shorter than the others but I thought I'd give you a break from reading such long blog posts.:P

You can never tell me better,
Make me someone you want.
Curl my hair, cut my chains, erase my scars.
Make me disappear into the unknown.
This mask makes me feel all alone,
Covered by lies and dishonest dreams.
Lost in the thoughts of you.
People always talk behind our backs,
We're never good enough.
Just because we all think differently,
Suddenly I'm poisinus.
So why don't you just get rid of me and
Shove me in my grave.
Make me disappear into the unknown.
This mask makes me feel all alone,
Covered by lies and dishonest dreams.
Lost in the thoughts of you.

Whew...All this typing wears me out.:P Have another cookie. (this time they're chocolate chip)

Okay. Dang yesterday felt like a long day. I was supposed to go out with my dad and a couple other guys to hand out stuff to the homeless but I was so tired I told him I wasn't going. I'm kinda glad I didnt go because after he left it started raining hard.:? I don't know if he came home soaking wet but I'm sure he was. I did another drawing last night but I need to fix a couple of things before posting it. Oh I almost forgot. I decided to get a DeviantArt webpage so I will now be posting my stuff on there. My username for that is xXsparrowgirlXx. There is already 1 drawing up on there. I need to retake all the pictures of my drawings with better lighting so you can see them better. I dont know how to work the scanner so i use my webcam for taking pictures.:P If you want to check out my DeviantArt page just click the link in my blog header. I'll try to update it as much as possible. Okay enough talking. It's poem time! Oh yeah, do a dance, oh yeah....:P

You're Just An Empty Seat

2 dozen roses and a bottle of pills later,
You're lying on the floor as cold water runs in your hair.
The tiles get darker by the second.
So many promises were broken tonight, babe.
It's starting to get old.
It's becoming hard to forgive you.
Do I still love you?
I don't know.

This isn't the first time you've hurt me
And I wish everyday would be the last.
But you don't even care.
You shut me out,
You let me down.
I fell asleep to the sound of breaking bottles and striking matches.
You just won't let go.

2 dozen roses and a bottle of pills later,
You're lying on the floor as memories of us race through your head.
The tiles get darker by the second.
So many promises were broken tonight, babe.
It's starting to get old.
It's becoming hard to forgive you.
Do I still love you?
I don't know.

All the sleepless nights and blades turn you cold
Oneday you'll be gone,
Don't let it end.
A blood red sky counteracts the twisted limbs of the shadows,
And the rain falls on your face like thousands of kisses
From angels above.

2 dozen roses and a bottle of pills later,
You're lying on the floor as the light turns to dark.
The tiles get darker by the second.
So many promises were broken tonight, babe.
It's starting to get old.
It's becoming hard to forgive you.
Do I still love you?
I don't know.
The rest of your heart drains on the floor.

That one was basically about being with someone who is addicted to drugs/alchohol/etc and promising to let it go but won't. I got the title of it from Spiderman 2 when Peter Parker promises to spend more time with MJ but she dosent believe him and says he's just an empty seat meaning he's never there for her.

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(tis true)

Video of the Day:

Bring Me To Life-Evanescence (another music video)

Q&A

nightember1:

Q: would you sacrifice your self to save someone you barely know?

A: Thats a hard question. I would for someone I do know but someone I dont know...idk

Euphoric_Rider:

Q: do you have a hero, somebody you admire / look up to?

A: Other than God, Aaron Gillespie is someone I look up to. He is a man of great musical talent.

Long blog post. If you read it all, then heres a cookie. *gives you a cookie*:P

Just a quick blog post today guys. I was at church until 2 and now I need to take a nap because I have to leave in about an hour and a half and wont be back til tonight. No avatar or video of the day today.:( Im to tired to go look for anything. Ill try and find another poem to post tommorow.:)

I like my new blog header. I think I will try and draw it later.:) Due to the fact that everyone preferred this avatar to the Death Note one I decided to keep this one. lol I was starting to miss it anyways.:P Here is another poem I wrote. I know it is pretty dark. I worte this 2 1/2 years ago and I had a bit of angst back then.:? idk I was trying to write it to tell ppl that are in abusive relationships to get out of it right away. It was inspired by my best friend. Tell me what you think.

Valentine's Day Is A Joke

You're twisting and turning my broken body,
Lying on the floor I wonder what went wrong.
I'm all alone in this empty world with nothing
but cut up wrists to remind me of you.
The lights go from white to black and as pain rips through my veins
Another angel cries.

My heart bleeds red as yours bleeds black
Your soft kiss adds another scar on my body.
Just put me out of my misery,
and end it all now.
But before you do,
I want you to know
You can bend my body but you can't break my soul.

Your love is just a lie,
Easy to say but not so easy to hide.
A single rounded lead could finish it all.
But to you my suffereing just makes you stronger.
Can't we go back to those days
Where you and I was all that mattered?

My heart bleeds red as yours bleeds black
Your soft kiss adds another scar on my body.
Just put me out of my misery,
and end it all now.
But before you do,
I want you to know
You can bend my body but you can't break my soul.

Maybe it's all for the best that I die now,
in this rage of bullets.
Maybe your life will be better now,
But for the next girl it won't.
Maybe you'll come back to me
And ask for forgiveness.
But it's never gonna happen
Because I hated you from the start.

My heart bleeds red as yours bleeds black
Your soft kiss adds another scar on my body.
Just put me out of my misery,
and end it all now.
But before you do,
I want you to know
You can bend my body but you can't break my soul.

Q&A (I forgot to answer yesterday)

the_unknown11:

Q: can you juggle?

A: Nope.

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Video of the Day:

Underoath-You're Ever So Inviting It's a music video today.