Recently, a lot of horrible things have happened to me. I was stabbed a few months ago, and on monday I was in a serious car accident, I was in the hospital because I had hit my head really hard (I was wearing my seatbelt). My family isn't happy with me because the car is totaled (the accident wasn't my fault, I was rear ended and pushed into traffic). They came to the hospital just to tell me how dissapointed they are with my driving and now I'm on prescribed medication for my neck/head and upper back and I feel so weird like it's changed my personality. Because they're mad at me, I don't really feel like a person anymore.I've been having the most horrible dreams ever since the accident. The dreams arelike I have significant brain damage. In my dreams, it's as if I'm normal, but no one else can understand me.
I don't have many friends either but there was a boy I really started getting close to and he now has another girlfriend(as of yesterday)and is now ignoring me. I also have other friends in which aren't speaking to me as much and I have asked them why and they think I'm insane. Even though I am not suicidal or contemplating it, I feel as if my soul is crushed and I'll never recover. I don't want to live or even die anymore. I'm just stuck in a state of mind where I don't know what to feel but I feel as if I have no purpose to be alive anymore. I'm not sure if anyone else has experienced this, and I apologize for not posting this on my personal profile page. I don't think anyone would read it there and I feel like my mind is slowly giving in. What are your ways of coping with life when it gets you really down? Thanks for the answers, I need them.lexika
you just tell everybody "go to hell" and keep living like a boss better times will come
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