My Ojibwa has gotten rusty beyond belief, ever since I stepped into spanish class it like.. DRAINED any language skills I had from there by taking them, chopping them into billions of bit sized pieces, and confusing me. D: or something I dunno I can't type now. I tried to read something in it [ojibwe] and I was like "lol whut." I want to study it more but I've already got enough to do for school.
I want to still be able to read it, yes. Speaking is a big no, I actually wanted to learn Ottawa [yes that is a language shut up.] but since it's really just a big ol' dialect of ojibwe that no one really pays attention to... YEAH ok.
Um. Maybe the two people paying attention to what I'm writing here want to hear about my day?
:| dunno why though. Just a typical school day. After school mah hot peeps and I [translation, my siblings :(] watched Chobits from start to finish, every episode in English. My brain hurt after awhile, we're talking like over three hours of doing nothing. But while they weren't looking I drew emo pictures, one of them's for ze kip haha.
While I'm babbling about chobits I have to bring up that one episode where the man gets married to his persocon. I swear it's like... one of those stupid things where every time I see it I turn into a total GIRL and have to hold back tears because it's just so sweet and cheesy. That episode alone is probably the only reason why I'm so terrified of watching that show with anyone, because my reaction every time makes me look like a wuss. XD If anyone's seen it before, please wait until I am down the hall and out of earshot to make fun of me. For the rest of you, here's something that might give you a general idea of what went down:
There was this guy. Cool. And he decided to open up a bakery. Even cooler, right? Well... I don't know if the fact that he opened up a cake shop is relevant, but I still thought it was cool. Until this episode everyone just called him "that guy who makes frosting," or just "frosting guy," so let's assume it's important. okthanks.
So frosting man was looking around, and it started to click... "WOW... everyone has these neato android computer persocom things except ME. I MUST BUY ONE. PEER PRESSURE IS MAKING ME BUY ONE." so he used his sexy beam to fly over to a store to get one.
And frosting man's looking around for the perfect robot, right? when suddenly he ZOOMS IN on this one in the back, in a bargain bin that was all dusty and old. His fanboy sense overcame him, he was all "wow she's so HOT omg" or something so he bought her and made her work as a robo-slave in teh cake shop.
Things are looking good. People are getting fat from the cupcakes, robo-slave has still got it, but then one day he's all "OMG... I THINK... I NEED... A WIFE." from more peer pressure, he's very influential and isn't allowed to watch mtv because of that. And since he was the cupcake man, muffin man, frosting man, or whatever name he never left the house slash shop. HIS ONLY OPTION? ask his computer to give him some lurv-in.'
And now things are looking even better, but just as soon as things are just seeming to warm up... his persocom catches a virus thing so she forgets everything. D:Â and she gets short term memory loss.
The guy could've just sent her in to get her repaired, but he was being all clingy and all "but I loves her too much" which was the part where I got all ";____;" over.
So although she's got short term memory and spazing out all the time, she can still like... do things. like walk, talk, and do the mocaraina. And since his computer's in such poor condition, the muffinly stud man was like "let's go for a WALK ok" so they're walking along and then a train... no it wasn't a train it was a TRUCK ok and this truck's about to run the muffin man over so the persocom's all like "NUU" and jumps in the way of the truck.
...and then she dies.
I KNOW. SOUNDS BORING. But unless Persocoms live under the three laws of robotics (don't I wish ಠ_ಠ;;;; ) then that means somehow, through some miracle, the robot was able to remember how important the guy was. D: AHHHH. AHHH MY GOD. I love soaking up stuff like that, unfortunatly this time around I kinna laughed at when he was clutching to her at the end and being all "PLZ DONT DIE" because... death scenes are funny.
UNLESS WE'RE TALKING LION KING HERE, PEOPLE.
man I wasted sooo much time typing that, Iwanted to see if I still had enough caterpie left in me to make this amusing, unfortunatly that's been taken away. WAIT WHUT. I ssssssssssssuck.
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...oh man *insert random emoticon here*
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I got soooo caught up in the DRAAAA-MAAA of the internets I forgot to tell you guys about my day at school.
It sucked.
Okay, now for more imporatant business. :D
*CHIRP CHURP*
LOL ok I think I've cleared everything up with Kip now and stuff I think I think I THINK OK.
CLICK FOR EMO MUSIC. it's the best emo song in the WORLD and the best part is is that it's about SEX OMG but you don't realise it's about sex after like fifty times you hear it.
SORRY FOR THE SPOILER.LOL. and yes I liked deathcab before they were COOL SHUTTUPITpdfk;l
NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT OVER HERE. I could talk about THIS and vent out all this BLIND RAGE THAT'S BUILT UP. but I gotta go to bed. for school. and umdreakj.
It sucked.
Okay, now for more imporatant business. :D
*CHIRP CHURP*
LOL ok I think I've cleared everything up with Kip now and stuff I think I think I THINK OK.
CLICK FOR EMO MUSIC. it's the best emo song in the WORLD and the best part is is that it's about SEX OMG but you don't realise it's about sex after like fifty times you hear it.
SORRY FOR THE SPOILER.LOL. and yes I liked deathcab before they were COOL SHUTTUPITpdfk;l
NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT OVER HERE. I could talk about THIS and vent out all this BLIND RAGE THAT'S BUILT UP. but I gotta go to bed. for school. and umdreakj.
I know how this is gonna sound
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but wow, after crying out all the emo (click click?)
...I still don't feel any better. ^_^
dammit Kip I need you to do something :( plz get off your ass. seriously if you did something, anything to make me feel important then I'd totally snap out of all this. I am begging you to please notice me, please do something for me before I totally lose it. I really need your help now... plese... :(
[and a giant screw you to anyone who says this needs to be private and I shouldn't be saying this here, the pm system sucks on every level imaginable.]
...I still don't feel any better. ^_^
dammit Kip I need you to do something :( plz get off your ass. seriously if you did something, anything to make me feel important then I'd totally snap out of all this. I am begging you to please notice me, please do something for me before I totally lose it. I really need your help now... plese... :(
[and a giant screw you to anyone who says this needs to be private and I shouldn't be saying this here, the pm system sucks on every level imaginable.]
:||| k?
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Right after my mom called, both my parents phones turned off-- just like magic! now we don't know if they're home or not, and don't want to sacrifice another 45 minute drive out of this town to see if they're still home. I want to go home.
I want I want I want. and want some more.
I I I I I I I I I I and I. all that's ever said in this blog. I.
...I wonder if the computer lab will be open tommorow. It'd be nice to go there.. again..
I think my mom just called my grandpa. maybe I'm going back to my town. where my cat is.
I miss my cat.
So I am going home. He said around six or seven... I don't want to wait.
Seeing my room again might make me happy. I like my room.
I like lots of things.
I want I want I want. and want some more.
I I I I I I I I I I and I. all that's ever said in this blog. I.
...I wonder if the computer lab will be open tommorow. It'd be nice to go there.. again..
I think my mom just called my grandpa. maybe I'm going back to my town. where my cat is.
I miss my cat.
So I am going home. He said around six or seven... I don't want to wait.
Seeing my room again might make me happy. I like my room.
I like lots of things.
they lied, I guess
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My parents were never gone. They were in bed. They knew I was there. They knew I was trying to get in. You know what they did, they just sat in bed some more. They just called my grandpa and said I could come home.
And all I have to say is...
god dammit :(
They couldn't get out of bed and let me in, and they knew I was there.
They'd rather just sit there.
If that was me at the other end I'd probably do the same.
I still hate myself.
And all I have to say is...
god dammit :(
They couldn't get out of bed and let me in, and they knew I was there.
They'd rather just sit there.
If that was me at the other end I'd probably do the same.
I still hate myself.
uimfg emo alert [edit #2]
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It's so funny how emotionally weak I've randomly become.
I don't really want to say this but since he probably won't be reading it anyway, but goddammit. It's about Kip. I wish he'd give me more attention. I want him to talk about me all the time. I want to feel more erm, connected with him rather than keeping such an awkward distance away from him. It doesn't feel like he's ever done anything above and beyond for me, he's just sort of there. honestly he kind of reminds me of bloo, with how we just.. we'd never talk to each other. and he'd be okay with it. he'd be fine with just leaving me there. just ****ing peachy.
wjhy would anyone want me, they could just read what's up here. you don't need me as a person. I'm not good enough. goddamit I'm never good enough.
whatever I'm just being selfish as usual. I finally get together with him and all I do is complain. and complain some more. I hate myself, and nothing you guys say can change that. Right now if Kip comforted me, yeah, I'd feel fine... he just has more important things to do and I'll just accept that.
edit: call me a pessimist but if he doesn't say anything... if he just keeps quiet then that'll just prove it. and if he just walks off by slipping by a simple "lol ok" or something along the lines... that just proves it even more.
well you know what, whatever, I'm so sick of how selfish I am. I just wanted to say it. I didn't know how else I could.
edit #2: and no, it's not that I want Kip to totally change who he is overnight, there's just that... that one thing... that one thing that just makes me feel useless.
I don't want him to change, I have to change and stop thinking that this sort of thing is nescessary. He doesn't have to pay attention to someone like me. he shouldn't, why would he?
I need to stop myself, I need to change. why can't I accept what he's doing as normal... why can't I just do that.
I don't really want to say this but since he probably won't be reading it anyway, but goddammit. It's about Kip. I wish he'd give me more attention. I want him to talk about me all the time. I want to feel more erm, connected with him rather than keeping such an awkward distance away from him. It doesn't feel like he's ever done anything above and beyond for me, he's just sort of there. honestly he kind of reminds me of bloo, with how we just.. we'd never talk to each other. and he'd be okay with it. he'd be fine with just leaving me there. just ****ing peachy.
wjhy would anyone want me, they could just read what's up here. you don't need me as a person. I'm not good enough. goddamit I'm never good enough.
whatever I'm just being selfish as usual. I finally get together with him and all I do is complain. and complain some more. I hate myself, and nothing you guys say can change that. Right now if Kip comforted me, yeah, I'd feel fine... he just has more important things to do and I'll just accept that.
edit: call me a pessimist but if he doesn't say anything... if he just keeps quiet then that'll just prove it. and if he just walks off by slipping by a simple "lol ok" or something along the lines... that just proves it even more.
well you know what, whatever, I'm so sick of how selfish I am. I just wanted to say it. I didn't know how else I could.
edit #2: and no, it's not that I want Kip to totally change who he is overnight, there's just that... that one thing... that one thing that just makes me feel useless.
I don't want him to change, I have to change and stop thinking that this sort of thing is nescessary. He doesn't have to pay attention to someone like me. he shouldn't, why would he?
I need to stop myself, I need to change. why can't I accept what he's doing as normal... why can't I just do that.
OH man I feel sooo unloved.
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Each one of my entries on my page has like... zero comments. :( someone start up a post war to inflate my fragile little ego.
AND OH... here's mah ooglay picture :( originaly a devart pic but I'm linking it here so teh mysterious mystery of who I am will be... revealed? :P [ click click. ]
Now if you're interested enough, you can stalk me down and either kill/kidnap/rape me. Just like they described on "To Catch a Predator!"
:D
AND OH... here's mah ooglay picture :( originaly a devart pic but I'm linking it here so teh mysterious mystery of who I am will be... revealed? :P [ click click. ]
Now if you're interested enough, you can stalk me down and either kill/kidnap/rape me. Just like they described on "To Catch a Predator!"
:D
now I'm just trying to waste time...
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Just spent the last four hours making this livejournal layout...
except I totally forgot that I'm not a payed member, so it won't work. OH I SOOO JUST PWND MYSELF. But here's the image I would've used, check it out?
My html is so damn rusty I wouldn't be able to make heads or tails of it either way. :( But hey if someone nice wanted to do it for me, you're more than welcome :D;;;
Profile here's back to public for now because um.. I got like four people pm'ing me all desperate for an explination. :| I get paranoid sometimes, so what?
Still not packed... as usual... dunno how much stuff I'll need to bring because my stupid non-descriptive parents don't know how long I'll be there. :| They don't even know if they'll be going too.
THE DISORGANIZATION IT BURNS.
ewwww I think my parents are having sex or they stubbed their toe really bad, one after another, because I can't tell and it only must've lasted for like ten minutes. :| NOT COOL. Why can't they go do that sort of thing downstairs where it's impossible for me to hear them?
OH WAIT.. NO... WAIT.. I'd still be able to hear it because the walls are paper thin. o_____O THIS HOUSE IS TOO OLD.
I remember when I went to my friend's party I was so amazed because his brother was watching tv and we couldn't hear it from his basement and I was like "holycrap these people must be magic."
right now I want to complain about how much of a kidiot my last girlfriend was but NO.. I will.. resist.. I have to still be friends with her because it'd be rude not to. that and I don't want to start hating her to an extreme like SOMEONE ELSE WHO SHALL NOT BE NAMED. because she's cooler than them although she's an annoying newblet who threw a hissy fit over not getting a big slice of cake.
REAL LIFE HOT QUOTE FROM HER JOURNAL:
man I really don't want to turn into the kind of person who just hates and loathes every person they've ever loved but CHRIST. A LITTLE PMS-Y, MUCH? :(
No wonder over the years I drifted from being gay to bi. D: Women are just too sensative to everything... it can be good or bad, because I like it when the other person is also over the top clingy and obsessive and won't stop talking or thinking about me too. =| With guys that's kind of rare because they're like... normal. and sane. :|
okay whatever now people are gonna get all "omg ruki's a poser" THING going on here.. whatever you guys can all suck my juicy mancock I hate you all. :|
except I totally forgot that I'm not a payed member, so it won't work. OH I SOOO JUST PWND MYSELF. But here's the image I would've used, check it out?
My html is so damn rusty I wouldn't be able to make heads or tails of it either way. :( But hey if someone nice wanted to do it for me, you're more than welcome :D;;;
Profile here's back to public for now because um.. I got like four people pm'ing me all desperate for an explination. :| I get paranoid sometimes, so what?
Still not packed... as usual... dunno how much stuff I'll need to bring because my stupid non-descriptive parents don't know how long I'll be there. :| They don't even know if they'll be going too.
THE DISORGANIZATION IT BURNS.
ewwww I think my parents are having sex or they stubbed their toe really bad, one after another, because I can't tell and it only must've lasted for like ten minutes. :| NOT COOL. Why can't they go do that sort of thing downstairs where it's impossible for me to hear them?
OH WAIT.. NO... WAIT.. I'd still be able to hear it because the walls are paper thin. o_____O THIS HOUSE IS TOO OLD.
I remember when I went to my friend's party I was so amazed because his brother was watching tv and we couldn't hear it from his basement and I was like "holycrap these people must be magic."
right now I want to complain about how much of a kidiot my last girlfriend was but NO.. I will.. resist.. I have to still be friends with her because it'd be rude not to. that and I don't want to start hating her to an extreme like SOMEONE ELSE WHO SHALL NOT BE NAMED. because she's cooler than them although she's an annoying newblet who threw a hissy fit over not getting a big slice of cake.
REAL LIFE HOT QUOTE FROM HER JOURNAL:
Oh, yeah, and there was a limited amount of cake, too (this means we all got a small peice compared to the years before). :-X And I was like, "hjhnhjhgbnhbbggb?? WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE GET A SMALL PEICE OF CAKE?? I NEED COMFORT FOOD NOW!!!!! :explode:" Yeahh.. But I managed to live... >>;
So yeah. And then we FINAILLY decided to leave, my mom, brother, aunt, grandma, and I. So we get in the car, and start talking... And the subject starts to drift to people who are getting married and devorced (sp?) in the family...
Okay... WHY, out of ALL the subjects in the f-ing world about the family, did you have to pick THAT one?? WHy?? :explode: hhbghngnbhhnh I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!Anime Blob
man I really don't want to turn into the kind of person who just hates and loathes every person they've ever loved but CHRIST. A LITTLE PMS-Y, MUCH? :(
No wonder over the years I drifted from being gay to bi. D: Women are just too sensative to everything... it can be good or bad, because I like it when the other person is also over the top clingy and obsessive and won't stop talking or thinking about me too. =| With guys that's kind of rare because they're like... normal. and sane. :|
okay whatever now people are gonna get all "omg ruki's a poser" THING going on here.. whatever you guys can all suck my juicy mancock I hate you all. :|
oh man. the warioware fanbase, oh man.
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THEY'RE ALL NUCKING FUTS.
or at least the devart ones are.
Seeing Crygor as a hot bishie with a buldging package is NOT COOL GUYS. If they're gonna pull of creepy stuff like that then it should totally be at least with a decent character, like oh I don't know, maybe NINE VOLT. RAWR.
I really wanna make my own fanart now because like 93% of it sucks major balls/is anime. yeah okay?
meanwhile I still have failed to pack anything for my trip to cheeseland.
or at least the devart ones are.
Seeing Crygor as a hot bishie with a buldging package is NOT COOL GUYS. If they're gonna pull of creepy stuff like that then it should totally be at least with a decent character, like oh I don't know, maybe NINE VOLT. RAWR.
I really wanna make my own fanart now because like 93% of it sucks major balls/is anime. yeah okay?
meanwhile I still have failed to pack anything for my trip to cheeseland.
...*tantrums*
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GUESS HOW MUCH I CARE ABOUT WASTING THE REST OF MY SUMMER IN WISCONSIN.
go ahead guess DD:
...NOT A LOT. :(
I swear Wisconsin has got to be like... you know... worst state in the union. When your main highlight is how delicious your cheese is then that's pretty bad.
Or maybe I'm just so upset that this is all so sudden... yeah that's it. I had my entire summer planed out from start to finish, it was all perfect. [lol? yeah, right.] Then my dad had to ruin it [le gasp, how terrible :roll:] by knocking my door down and screaming in the most obnoxious voice ever that we just have to go up there. I honestly wouldn't care at all where we were going as long as I knew ahead of time, and by ahead of time I don't mean twenty hours before we leave.
Juuust another one of those pet peeves of mine. I hate even the slightest things that are unexpected, call me spoilt or whatever you want but it's so true.
stillll don't know when we'll be coming back. :| Rawr.
okay and yeah to *procrastinate* some more here is a POINTLESS SURVEYYYY shurrah like I don't have enough of these.
ONE.
Spell your name without vowels
First : brnn
Middle: dn
Last: smth [LOL :(]
TWO.
Are you single?: No. =)
THREE.
my favorite number: TWENTY SEVEN. *cartwheels*
FOUR.
color worn the most: Black. like my SOUL HEART TEARS AND CAT.
FIVE.
Least favorite color?: pink lol
SIX.
Favorite band?: :[ can't choose
SEVEN.
what do you smoke?: I don't smoke... but my friend got payed like five bucks to sniff a pixie stick. XD
EIGHT.
Are you happy with your life right now?: YES.
NINE.
Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity? Yeah, many people have said I looked like avril laveign. [sp? lol.] I don't know if it's a compliment or not because I think she's a total skank-poser-mallgoth. :(
[NOOO I'M NOT A MALLGOTH... There's no way... haha D:]
TEN
What is your favorite time in school?: sci fiiiii club, bizzsnatches. I love my nerd army.. I loveses them sooo.. ;_;
ELEVEN
Do you shop at hollister/abercrombie/ae?: um.. no.
TWELVE.
How do you make money?: Drawing pics for people, even if I only make like, fifty cents.
THIRTEEN.
Who is/are your best friend(s): I don't like to pick "bests."
FOURTEEN
When do/did you start Summer Break?: long long ago..
FIFTEEN
Are you outgoing?: haha no
SIXTEEN.
One word to describe you?: repulsive
SEVENTEEN.
Favorite pair of shoes?: moo
EIGHTEEN.
Do you own big sunglasses?: No, they'd make me look like a bug.
NINETEEN.
What would you rather be doing right now?: sleeping, or maybe in damn?
TWENTY.
What should you be doing right now?: packing for my magical cheese-filled adventure :[
TWENTY-ONE.
Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: Is it still a crush if you're going out with them? :)
go ahead guess DD:
...NOT A LOT. :(
I swear Wisconsin has got to be like... you know... worst state in the union. When your main highlight is how delicious your cheese is then that's pretty bad.
Or maybe I'm just so upset that this is all so sudden... yeah that's it. I had my entire summer planed out from start to finish, it was all perfect. [lol? yeah, right.] Then my dad had to ruin it [le gasp, how terrible :roll:] by knocking my door down and screaming in the most obnoxious voice ever that we just have to go up there. I honestly wouldn't care at all where we were going as long as I knew ahead of time, and by ahead of time I don't mean twenty hours before we leave.
Juuust another one of those pet peeves of mine. I hate even the slightest things that are unexpected, call me spoilt or whatever you want but it's so true.
stillll don't know when we'll be coming back. :| Rawr.
okay and yeah to *procrastinate* some more here is a POINTLESS SURVEYYYY shurrah like I don't have enough of these.
ONE.
Spell your name without vowels
First : brnn
Middle: dn
Last: smth [LOL :(]
TWO.
Are you single?: No. =)
THREE.
my favorite number: TWENTY SEVEN. *cartwheels*
FOUR.
color worn the most: Black. like my SOUL HEART TEARS AND CAT.
FIVE.
Least favorite color?: pink lol
SIX.
Favorite band?: :[ can't choose
SEVEN.
what do you smoke?: I don't smoke... but my friend got payed like five bucks to sniff a pixie stick. XD
EIGHT.
Are you happy with your life right now?: YES.
NINE.
Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity? Yeah, many people have said I looked like avril laveign. [sp? lol.] I don't know if it's a compliment or not because I think she's a total skank-poser-mallgoth. :(
[NOOO I'M NOT A MALLGOTH... There's no way... haha D:]
TEN
What is your favorite time in school?: sci fiiiii club, bizzsnatches. I love my nerd army.. I loveses them sooo.. ;_;
ELEVEN
Do you shop at hollister/abercrombie/ae?: um.. no.
TWELVE.
How do you make money?: Drawing pics for people, even if I only make like, fifty cents.
THIRTEEN.
Who is/are your best friend(s): I don't like to pick "bests."
FOURTEEN
When do/did you start Summer Break?: long long ago..
FIFTEEN
Are you outgoing?: haha no
SIXTEEN.
One word to describe you?: repulsive
SEVENTEEN.
Favorite pair of shoes?: moo
EIGHTEEN.
Do you own big sunglasses?: No, they'd make me look like a bug.
NINETEEN.
What would you rather be doing right now?: sleeping, or maybe in damn?
TWENTY.
What should you be doing right now?: packing for my magical cheese-filled adventure :[
TWENTY-ONE.
Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: Is it still a crush if you're going out with them? :)
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