I was diagnosed with depression last September and my girlfriend helped me every step of the way, then in December it emerged I also had social anxiety. It was a hurdle, and I constantly felt guilty for putting her through it, but she kept by my side and I managed to get a place at my college and now I'm doing four A-Levels in the hopes of being a film director and it's all thanks to her for making me confident enough to believe in myself and not choose the easy way out.
However, we had a mutual breakup the other day. We love each other very much but want very different things, I'm proud of her for being so intelligent and knowing what she wants to do, and I'm proud of myself for helping her like she helped me. But it's hard, for the first time in /sixteen/ months I'm without my love and my best friend and it's a scary prospect. I'm not interested in anyone and doubt I will be for a very long time. I'm trying to stay strong and positive for her but my issues make it an uphill struggle.
So right now, I'm bordering between accepting my life how it is, and unhappiness. I was only ever happy when I was with her, didn't have the best childhood either. I hope everyone else feeling bad in this thread gets the help they need and the happiness they deserve, I wouldn't wish unhappiness on anybody.
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