Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing...if I'm really me...you know?

It's hard to explain...am I me because that's how I am...or because that's how I became??
Do I really enjoy things I do....or did I pretend to enjoy them for so long that I've forgotten? I don't know...

I guess I am lost right now...I should talk to somebody...Ashley?? Maybe...I don't feel like talking about this though...to anyone...not even my therapist....

Don't mind me...just doing some thinking....

Buuuuut...you can tell me what you think of my new sig :D !!!

Well....I should be starting my new job this week!!! I'm going to be a.....secretary/receptionist :(
:lol: But that's not that bad really...money for me and I'm sure I'll meet lots of new people! It'll be fun...I'm sure :D

Now...I saw Spiderman 3 earlier...it was friggin awesome!!! Don't worry...I'm not going to spoil it but....

[spoiler] Emo Spiderman was frigging cool!! :lol: I swear I like him better when he was an A-hole...Plus I like the way he had his hair..so cute :oops:

When he hit MJ though....he went to far...good thing he realized it! I also thought he killed Harry when he slung that explosive pumpkin back at him!! I was like "ZOMFG he killed Harry!! :cry: " I don't see why people don't like the guy who played Eddie Brock AKA Venom...I think they picked him because he looks so much like the guy who plays spiderman...anyway he was great too...

The Sandman guy(I don't know what his name is supposed to be :( ) was pretty cool...I didn't really like him but...it didn't make me not enjoy the movie...was it just me or was MJ acting like a biatch sometimes?? I know Peter was too but...I don't know...I just didn't like the way she acted in this movie...:lol: I liked when he kissed that hawt blonde the way he kissed MJ...all upside down...

I think they cut out a scene from this movie explaining why the Venom suit was weak against...high pitched sounds :? ???I mean they kinda explained it in that little flashback Peter had..Oh and when him and Harry teamed up...I got all giddy :D They make a perfect crime-fighting team...too bad Harry died :cry: I liked this movie alot!! [/spoiler]

Are they going to do another one? Didn't Toby say he didn't want to do another one? Well I hope he changes his mind because he's a perfect spiderman and I would love to see a Spiderman movie with Carnage(that's his name right?)

I've also started watching Deathnote...it's amazing!! I think I might like it better than Fruits Basket :o

So...with the new job, cla sses(Damn it ticks me off how bad this censor is :evil: ) and other things...I won't be on as much :( I'll try to get up here as much as possible though :D

EDIT: How do you like the new blog header?? I made it myself ^_^ 

:lol: A funny line from a funny movie "Just Friends"

Ok I'm sorry for a new blog so quick buuuuuuut.....

I finally beat Tales of the Abyss!!

Yep...I finally beat it today...the final boss was awesome!!! Not too hard, not too easy, juuuuuuust right!! He was badass looking too!! I died the first time..but the second time I finally killed him!!! I'm gonna play through it again using a strategy guide...yup!! :D

Also...Me and Ashley will FINALLY have some free time together, so on Sunday we're going to see Spiderman 3!! It's gonna be a great weekend...I can already tell and it's only Monday!!!

Oh and I soooo posted this in my journal at LJ....but I doubt you guys read what I write there :(

Ok I'm done...time to go play Tales of the Abyss again!! *skips off singing*

Nothing really :|

Thought I'd list some shows I used to watch...

E.R.- I used to be addicted to this show :(

Ren & Stimpy - This show was friggin hilarious!!!

Rocko's Modern Life - Another great Nickelodeon show!!!

All That - The original one's...before Nick went to crap :(

Rugrats - Again, the original one's...Angelica was so mean :cry:

Law & Order - I still watch this show sometimes...even the spin-off's SVU and CI

CSI - I was a very loyal fan of the show!!! I hardly watch anymore :( (Not because it's bad...I just haven't watched it :| )

Clarrisa - Alot of Nick huh?? Yea...Nick was my fav. station!!!

Courage the Cowardly Dog - I LOVED this show!!! I wish it was still on :(

Invade Zim - Another great funny show!!!

Pokemon - Yes...I was a pokemon fanatic!!! I have the games...still have my cards...I watched the show...I was addicted :|

Digimon - Not as addicted to this as much as Pokemon...but I still watched it!!

Monster Rancher - Same as above :lol:

Medabots - I loved this show...maybe more than pokemon :o

Dragon Ball/Z/GT - One of my fav. anime's of ALL time!! The characters, story, everything was great!!!

Spongebob Squarepants - YES!!!! I LOVED this show...do they still make new episodes?? I dunno...but I loved Spongebob!!! F is for friends who do stuff together, U is for you and meeeee, N is for anywhere and anything here in the deep blue sea!!! That was the F-U-N song..at least I think that's how it goes :?

I can't really think of anymore of the top of my head...sorry my memory isn't so good, too many drugs and alcohol abuse :(

Some shows I watch now are: [Scrubs], The Soprano's(Last season :( ), Weeds, Dexter, Entourage, Arrested Development, Bleach, Fruits Basket, Curb your Enthusiasm, Kodocha.....and I think that's all...I'm not sure :(

I'm thinking about getting a new laptop too!! The one I have now...I got it a few months ago...but I want something...real sleek...and maybe a Apple :? I've always used Windows...but I've used Apple's for working and such...I might just switch over all together!!

ALSO, I should finish up Tales of the Abyss tomorrow...I haven't been playing lately, but I played a little today and I'm going to finish it up tomorrow...that's all for now!!!

(This was definitely my longest blog so far :D )

EDIT: I can't say the word c-l-a-ssic??? WTF :evil: !!!

Well...I got tired of looking at that plain FruBa banner...so I made another plain banner!!! It's nothing special...pretty boring...but I like it...I mean...I did it myself :D

The guys in the pic are as follows (left to right):

Sephiroth (as in KH2)

Cloud (as in FFVII)

Kuja (as in FFIX)

and Luke (as in Tales of the Abyss)

So....you like??? I know it's boring and stuff...I'm pissed because GS's stuff is in the way :evil: You can't see thier feet and you can barely make out the text at the bottom which says "Mess with me and these guys will violate you"

and I know the Luke one looks...out of place...or not blended in well enough...but hey...I'm new at this and it's the best I could do :(

Oh and sorry for all the blog posts I've been making :( (I'll give you cookies if you want :D )

I was browsing through the MSN homepage(extremely bored :( ) and it showed my little horoscope thingy.  I never read those but something caught my eye this time...it listed me as a LEO...which is strange because all my life I thought I was a CANCER (I have no idea why I'm using caps :( )

So there you go...everyday you learn something new...also it's getting warmer here :D

I crawled outside of my hole today to run errands, pay bills, etc. and I threw on a T-shirt, some jeans, and a light jacket....I stepped outside and it was really warm!! So I went back inside and threw my jacket off (it landed on the floor :( ) and went back outside!! I'm glad it's getting warm..I like warm weather...I'll be going to the beach pretty often!! 

Also...I'll have to start back on my shaving schedule..I have been pretty lazy about it...i'm talking about my legs people (I always shave my face whenever I see any new growth :P )...but now that it's getting warm...I'll have to stop being lazy!!! 

Tales of the Abyss is also getting better each day...I swear I thought I was in the final dungeon, fighting the final boss..and...I thought I was watching the final cutscene...but I wasn't!! I still have more to go!!! I have some cities to visit apparently...I'm really liking this game and when I finish it, you can look forward to one of my short and to the point reviews!! Yays for me!! *huggles myself*

Ok I've taken up enough of your time...now go and make me a damn sammich!!! :evil: 

Well by the time you guys read this I'll be level 15...I don't like level 15...I don't like the number or the thing it's called...something ambition..or whatever it's called...I'm still level 14(96%) at the moment :)

I also have a new avatar...it's ville valo...lead singer of my now favorte band H.I.M.

I'm very tired...but I can't get to sleep....I guess I should check my email...and check my stuff on livejournal.com

Me and Ashley have been arguing about the dumbest things lately...nothing serious but...I don't like arguing :(

She thinks i'm addicted to Gamespot...I guess I kind of am...but it's not like I'm up here ALL the time...she's been really mad lately because i've been hogging our new TV with my playing of Tales of the Abyss :P

I guess i could stop playing for a few days...you have to make relationships work...sacrifice is key(but not too much)...and my fav. song "Don't Fear The Reaper" just came on....

Ok I'm off...to try and get some sleep...last night I managed 4 hours...*sighs*

and here's another cute bunny pic.....just for you :P

I guess the title of this blog was misleading...I just named it after one of my favorite songs...free huggles to anyone who can guess what album that song is from :P

Ok it's not THAT important...but I thought I would tell you guys about my new game "Tales of the Abyss"!!

It's very fun..I haven't fought a boss yet :( but i still like it so far!!! There's these cute little animals called cheagles and they spit fire!!! When they spit fire they yell out in a very cute voice "FIRE!!" or "MEUI!!" It's kawaii :oops:

O yea...the bunny pic!! Somebody posted this in the sexay clan and i want everyone to see it!!

awww huggles for everyone!!! *huggles you*

Ok i'm off to play more Tales of the Abyss :D

Online forum RPG's that is :P

If you are, we are starting one in the Aficionado's Compendium!!! You can fill out the character spreadsheet (it's not long, stop being lazy!!) and make your own character, powers and such...then you can start participating in the RPG with the rest of us!!

Teleport to Aficionado's Compendium Forum

It's going to be fun!! If you haven't already made a character, do so now before you run out of time!! You'll be missing out on the....greatest thing since sliced bread!!!

Well...my new TV was delivered to our apartment yesterday and today i started setting it up!! So far all I did was move my old TV and the entertainment system (Damn that thing was heavy :evil: ) and i plugged wires in and took them out...anyway I haven't done anything really :lol: ...here is the way it looks now:

as you can see I just have my TV and the satellite box set up...I don't know if I should mount it on the wall...anyhoo I plan on hooking up my sound system to it and everything...and also most importantly my PS2!!! Well...I'm about to do all this now so i'll be leaving :(

You probably won't catch me on GS the whole weekend...you might catch me on windows live messenger in the morning or when I'm checking my email...but I doubt you guys will miss me that much...like I said i'll be back Monday :D

So I'm off to play the game a little bit and then get drunk for the rest of the weekend...also I'm going to listen to my new favorite group "H.I.M." thanks for telling me about them Zassi :wink:  

Bye :|

Still comment though :|

Please :(