MARCUS IS HOME! He sent me a message saying call me at home. It's so good just to hear his voice again. When I seen the message I almost cried of happiness. At least I know he is alive now, so I don't have to worry about that anymore. I feel so much better. Anyway I have been in school for 3 days now and it is going cool. This is going to be a fun Junior year for me.

How is everyone?

B.E.Z

The guy I mentioned in the last journal entry, I got him to change his mind. So instead of killing himself he is going to go to a mental hospital. Maybe I do have a chance with him after all.

In other news....

How is everyone today?

B.E.Z

Hey guys,

I have a lot to tell you. First yahoo isn't shut down yet, but people don't like the way things are. Second, if you look in my profile you will see that I have a new yahoo screen name because someone hacked into my other two, deleted one and kept the other. So I updated me profile. Also as you see, I will be 16 soon, so happy about that. But I go back to school August 22. That is a complete bummer, just knowing that depresses me. Also I am so happy that I fell in love for real this time. I found this guy name Marcus, perfect for me. Everyone I told about our relationship said we sounded like we were meant to be together. I made a little mistake but we worked past it. But somethings happened to him and now he will soon cease to be. I have only to friday with him. i hope maybe I can change his mind of what's going to happen. But I doubt it. I will still try though cause I really love him and want nothing else but to be with him. My mother even knows this. But other than that I guess my life has been ok. I am getting so sick of my family though, I need to get away. I am trying hard to change my life. I am going to the gym now with my dad, just to lose a bit of weight. That and school is my main goal for now. But anyway, if you have messengers im me sometimes, but let me know that you are from gs please.

B.E.Z

Everyone seems a bit to busy to come here now a days...Except for the nerds that must come as part of everyday life. Good luck with that. Anyhow, I am off and on so hope you guys remember me. Might be leaving soon, cause as of august of this year I am going to be way busy. But in the time I have spent here I have built what I can call a family. And am proud to be part of this community. I might stop pass every now and then, but to let you know, I will miss you all. And those of you who have my yahoo messenger names I have a new one cause of some invents the recently went on. So if you still want to talk to me, I will be available on my messengers.

Love you guys.

If you are interested in why yahoo is getting a huge lawsuit....read this article. Oh and pass this on to everyone so people that use yahoo will know.

http://www.ynot.com/modules.php?op=modload&name=News&file=news_article&sid=9472

I have been screwing my life over badly. I missed the bus cus I overslept. I have a final today to, and no one to drive me to school. My life so sucks.

How has yours been?

And Travis if you read this, I am so sorry. You desevre to be happy. Maybe it just won't be me. Maybe it will. But right now I just can't.

I am actually happy and singing today. Think maybe I might be in love, not sure with who yet. There is one person I really like. I know he loves me I can tell. He is just what I need too. Or this could be the side effects from a lack of sleep and too much sugar. That could be it. Anyway how are you today?

B.E.Z

On friday I stayed up til 4 am then I didn't wake up til 3:30 pm on Saturday. I didn't get in trouble though. Anyway I am up late again. Probably will go to bed at five. Then two more full weeks of school and I am out for summer. I can hardly wait.

B.E.Z