Im a freshman, and so far my life is being torn down faster then ever before. Since i was just a pint in middle school, iv listened to my family about what drugs do. Also took advice from my sister who was a huge druggie back then. And how she regrets it. So iv been brought up that these are actually harmful to sombody.
For years now, iv met tons of people. Im a friend to everyone who will be a friend back to me. And sadly, all of these so called friends have changed for the worse. Later on when i was in middle school, i started becoming friends with alot of people. The people who chill at home every night to a nice game on xboxlive, those who play sports and are really active, the kids that would have noone to talk to. Iv had friends from all. Though i tried my best to stay away from the huge crowd who would spend there lunch money on crack.
After your with somone and are there for eachother for a while, they become more impoartant. Time goes, and suddenly, i dont have a weekend to look forward to with my friends like i did. Everyweekend we would have the greatest time. But to go back to what i was saying.. As i got older, every single one of my friends have let me down. I still remember how me and my friend made a promise to never get messed up. And he told me he was going to smoke with some kids in the garage. I didnt want him to do it. I new this wasnt going to be a one time thing. He told me he would do it once and see what its like, and thats all. As much as i would like to say i was wrong, i wasnt.
Since then, two best buds hardy ever talked again. You know i thought, the pot or weed couldnt have changed him. But it helped. Here, some kid tries it, gets hooked and goes on to somthing new. And, as much as i would like to think this has only happened to one friend of mine. Really, through all of those people i have met i wouldnt even try to find somone who wasnt the same. I dont know if this is just high school. Or if its just my luck for being in a drugged up town. Thats what i would like to think. From having two parents in two different states, its happened at both. This same thing that im going through.
What happened to just being a kid, having fun, being who you are? When people tell me pot is not harmful, you dont even know how i feel. Whether pot to sombody isnt harmful, getting brought into a group like that, i would bet not many come out ecstacy or shroom free. Even from the coolest, kindest friends who told me "Its not going to change me" have turned into mere ghosts, or half dead as they used to be. Personailtywise, from what i have seen in them, i wouldnt be abe to tell its them if i wouldnt have known what they did. These kids ditch me every weekend for smoke sessions. These kids get caught for the crap they do, and i see how it effects there whole family. More importantly to me, how it has effected my friendships over and over again.
Just seeing how my friends who were the coolest, have all turned to pot and the outcome has never been good. Iv even noticed how much they would lie to me. They would threaten me that if i was to ever let out the truth they would jump me. How much i dont fit in with practically nobody now. Everywhere i go these fake kids i am ashamed to even look at, just keep doing it. And the more time goes on things are getting worse. Has anyone ever been so surrounded by pot and druggs? Recently, this has happened for what, the 30th time, same situation, same everything. Heck, even my own brother screwed up and doesnt even act like the same brother i new.
It effects me so much. I dont expect everyone to understand, but i have seen a difference in my friends from when they were innocent to getting addicted to pot. You know, maybe to some people, its just some no problem thing. But it can change people. Maybe for some, it doesnt. But god, you dont know untill you've lost everyfriend you had left to drugs. Whatever people tell me, i think even weed can change somone dramitically, not for the good. No matter what. After one night of just a couple hits, slowly they change. I dont see what else could cause such a coincidence. I DO though still have a friend who smokes. But even the way i used to see him has vanished, and has been replaced with some ghost image of himself.
Im scared to even talk to people at school now. Its just going to keep happening.
I want to leave this crap hole.
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