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Broken...

Too many broken pieces...

So alone
Deep inside myself I'm crying
I'm screaming and no one can hear
But who would listen if they could anyway?

Sometimes I feel I'm breaking
Sometimes I'm not sure I'm whole
Sometimes I realise I'm cold
But who's gonna warm me now
I'm too broken to be fixed

So take a deep breath
Catch your breath before it slips away
Hold onto it, treasure it
People will take it from you if they can
The worlds cruel
It'll destroy you if you fall

So you're walking with your head down
What is it your thinking?
That if you get far away enough
You'll leave everything else behind
But it follows you
A haunting shadow

You can't leave the past
Not if you're scared of the future
Are you scared?
To be alone?
To feel?
To hurt?
Aren't we all dying a little inside?

The rain starts falling
Now no one can see you cry
Not that they looked before
It's starting to hurt inside
The broken pieces scar your skin

So drown in all your sorrow
Let it wash the pain away
There is no other escape
You're alone
You're hurt
And no one will save you this time...

Guess whoo'ss baacckk!! Lol

Yes it is true!! I am back from my trip to Georgia!! So all of you can rest easy now....you're savior has returned!! lol...^_^ And I had a great time with my lifemate! lol.

Thanksgiving with my Jeffreykins and his family was really fun! We ended up eating as soon as we got there...which was awesome because I was starving!! I didnt eat all morning and afternoon until we got there around 3 o'clock. And they had REAL turkey! lol..Most of this family are vegetarians and they have this veggie turkey loaf crap...so I was worried that I wouldnt have any turkey turkey...lol. We also played a bunch of games there as well. We played "Are you smarter than a 5th grader", it was girls versus boys and it ended up being a tie. 2 to 2. ^_^ We played some card games as well. It was really fun.

And the rest of the time I was there was spent with me and my man! :D We went bowling, to the movies, shopping, went to bookstores, game stores and a bunch of other places as well. He took me out to eat a lot as well. When it was December 3rd, we went to my favorite restuarant 'Olive Garden' because it was our 2 year and a half anniversary! ^_^ I had an awesome time with him. And I can't wait to go back to be with him.

I plan to move in with him sometime soon too! :D

*huggles* to everyone!! :D :D And thanks for commenting my last post! ^_^ I plan to go through and comment the blogs that I have missed. It seems I have a lot of catching up to do. lol. So bear with me because I'm kinda busy now that I'm back home. I still havent even unpacked..lol. ^_^

Leaving for a bit....

Yes, I know this may come as a shock to some of you and I will miss being on here...:( But I will be away for 16 days. Spending it with my boyfriend and meeting his dad and some of his family that I haven't met yet. I am leavng November 20th and I shall be back December 5th. I may able to get on when I'm there but I can't promise that. :( I hope whoever celebrates Thanksgiving to have a good time...^_^ And wish me luck meeting his dad...his dad is very strict and heartless!!! Doesn't even like me even though he never met me...:( So this is going to be fun.......and i shall blog about it...because im sure some interesting things will happen when i met his creepy family...:?

*huggles* to everyone!! ^_^

Hug me or Die

College Graduate + How my day didn't go according to plan!

I graduated college yesterday!

Yesterday pretty much sucked though...My sister went to my graduation when I didn't want her to go. The reason behind that, is because she's loud and obnoxious! She thinks the world revolves around her, and always has to have the attention. Yesterday was my day damnit! But noooo, all she did through it was whine and complain how she was hungry, if it was over yet, how long does it take...and etc!! Which made my gram mad and irritated...so of course my gram got angry at me because i didn't graduate with honors, but i was really close to...telling me how I should have done better and that she axpected more of me...I just freaking graduated for quiet out loud!!! And my sisters not even going to college!

Plus, I kept having a headache off and on all day!!

And my dad irritated the crap out of me also! Giving me a speech about how he doesn't like Jeffrey and how he doesn't approve of him! Okay for one, I knew Jeffrey before my dad. And second, my dad isn't even my real dad! He just used to date my mom and came into my life because of my gram! Jeffrey has been there for me waayyyy more than my dad was! Jeffrey is my lifemate and sure, we fight, what couple doesnt? I mean my dad was telling me how he's not good for me and all this crap! I'm almost 20 years old, I can think for myself thank you very much!!!

And that night I went to see Saw V, it was a good movie.

When I got home, Jeffrey called me and I told him to hangon so I could change outta my dress clothes and into something comfy! It took me about 10 minutes because I had to wait for my clothes to get out of the dryer! Well he got really mad at me, and considering my day didn't go to according to plan I was basically close to tears! And when Jeffrey yelled at me and told me how I should stop pitying myself and all this crap...well needless to say...I hung up on him and I cried...I cried for like a half an hour...I just couldn't take it anymore....sigh....

Well that was my day...totally hated it...

Nintendo Hotel?

Nintendo teams with the Marriott hotel chain to deliver Wii room service!! Yes I said Wii room service!! So far, six Marriott hotels offer rooms and lounges equipped with a specially built Wii system stocked with 20 games, including "Mario Kart" and "Wii Fit". The Wii room packages include unlimited Wii access for the duration of the stay and, of course, costs alittle more than a standard room rate!!

I was so shocked when I heard this! I was like OMG! Lol...I just wanted to post this to see everyones reaction! It was in my newspaper on friday and I just had to post it! I think it would be awesome if they had the PS3 and X360 as well!! :D Then again some people may start living in hotel rooms!! lol...^_^

New Releases Coming Soon!

Releases coming out 10-07

NBA 2k9 (X360, PS2, PS3)

Midnight Club: LA Remix (PSP)

Fracture (X360, PS3)

Spectrobes: Beyond the Portals (DS)

NBA Live 09' (X360, PS3, Wii, PSP, PS2)

Bleach: Dark Souls (DS)

Guilty Gear 2: Overture (X360)

Onimusha: The Essentials (PS2)

Kage Densetsu: The Legend of Kage 2 (DS)

Crash Bandicoot: Mind Over Mutant (X360, Wii, PSP, DS, PS2)

Just thought I would inform you all of games that are coming out soon! ^_^ And please don't forget to comment and also read my other blog i made earlier today about my Dream and Anniversary!! :D :D

Anniversary + Second Dream

Today is Jeffrey and my 2 year and 4 month anniversary! ^_^ Just thought I would inform you all! Plus him and I have been doing much better than before! :D

Dream Two

The reason I can remember my dreams is because I write them down when I wake up! ^_^ You should try it!

Clothing - Black pants, black corset top, gloves with metal pieces over my knuckles and of course can't forget the black boots...lol

Dream - I'm in an abandoned warehouse crouched low behind 2 huge crates listening in on a conversation between 2 men wearing all black. I crouch alittle lower and move behind a barrel so I can get a view of their faces. They are my target and I must get information about the new leader of some organization. I look around trying to find my partner, her name is Emma and she's new to the team..and she's late. I sigh and continue to eavesdrop on the conversation the 2 men are having..nothing interesting is being said, just that the leader is more crueler than the last one. I begin to get aggigated and thats when I notice 3 men coming from the opposite way to the 2 men, literally dragging what looks like a huge bag of something, and thats when i notice the blonde hair, god, its Emma I think to myself...I swear under my breath and call in for backup, but no answer! Okay now I really am aggigated and shake my head...What to do!? I'm not prepared for a kidnapping..all i have is my pistol and a knife on the side of my left boot...I sit back against the barrel and try to come up with a plan...Thats when I hear footsteps coming toward me...I sit motionless but they somehow already knew I was there...I uppercut the large man with my metal gloves and he goes flying backwards and falls onto the cement floor..The other 2 men come at me at once and pin me to the ground, I grap for the knife in my boot and stab the guy thats giving me a look like a huge creeper in his side...he screams and backs off of me...the other guy gets up and that leaves me with the chance for escape...i get up and run!! Run like I never ran before! I try to call again for backup but still no answer! Thats when a man with a huge shotgun suddenly bursts through the double doors and literally takes out all 3 of the men...I look at him in amazement and realize that it was my ex-boyfriend who is also in the organization that I am in! (yes its nicholai69..just dont tell my boyfriend!!..lol) He graps my arm and pulls me behind him, obviously trying to play hero I think to myself, but I also had the same training he had...He looks around and says "Is that all?", I get irritated and stomp away...He strides right up right next to me and circles around me inspecting for any injuries, I cross my arms and then notice that I somehow hurt my wrist, probably when I was slammed and pinned to the ground..and thats when Jeffrey (my boyfriend now) comes walking through the doors as well carrying a pretty heavy and powerful shotgun...He then gets a call on his walkietalkie, kissed me on the cheek and walks back out...(pretty dumb if you ask me)

Him(nicholai69) and I are now in the woods at his trailor...fixing up my wrist. I see that he still has pictures of him and I hanging on the walls and on his coffee table...I sigh and give a slight moan in pain from him touching my wrist, trying to see if its broken..He then looks at me and whispers "We're not alone.", I look out the window and just barely catch the glimpse of what looked like something shiny..He continues to look over my shouder out the other window inspecting it for enemies...I again catch a glimpse of something out the other window and notice that its a gun and slams myself into him, knocking both of us on the ground with him somehow on me...(!!!!!) Next thing we hear are bullets being sprayed everywhere around the trailor! But it's not penetrating at all! I look at him with a confused look and he says "Its made of a special metal I designed, no need to worry little one." I then roll my eyes and start to shoot back at the enemy, we somehow manage to both kill every last one of them! And then we hear the front door of the trailor open and slam...I look over to see Emma, looking all beaten up and dirty. She tells me that she got away and managed to get information on the organization thats been overrun by a new leader.

And well thats all of my dream...Hope you enjoyed it! And I have no comment of Nicholai69 somehow managing to be in my dream!! :P haha...^_^

Crazy Dreams

A few nights ago I had 2 crazy dreams!

Dream One

This dream started out that me and my family were in the middle of the woods. We all were grilling hotdogs and just having a small family get together. Well when it came to be night time, me and my cousin Jordan (she's 13) ended up walking a long the woods when this little deformed kitten came up to us. I, being the cat lover that I am walked up to it and was startled by its appearace. It was gray, you could see its bones right through its skin, it was missing an ear and it's tail was just a stub with no hair, it also was hairless with one small patch of white hair on its head. Not to mention its teeth looked razor sharp!! I backed away and made Jordan step behind me when I noticed other deformed cats and kittens were surrounding us! I made Jordan run away and thats when all the cats pounced and jumped on me biting and scratching me everywhere!! I was literally lying on the ground bleeding a lot while still being attacked by these little monsters! The kittens were small and started to suck my blood like leeches! It was so crazy!! Well they all ended up dying in a forest fire and I survived the horrendous attack. Lol.

Please comment and give me some opinions about this weird dream. I will post the 2nd dream tomorrow, it involved Nicholai69!! :shock: ahhaha

I'm Back + Family Issues

Well many of you know that my aunt had cancer and wasn't doing so good...Well she finally passed away last sunday...The hospital where she was at just basically stopped caring for her and sent her to this place for older folks who can't do day to day tasks...My 'great' aunt was only 56...she got really bad...to the point where you couldnt understand what she was talking about and she would talk sort of like repeatitive and somewhat in riddle...

Her funeral was thursday of last week...I went to it and of course was very emotional...well her son never showed up for either service...we couldnt get the hold of him and i found out that he's heavy on drugs right now and has been asking family members for money...(for his addiction)..and to top it all off...my aunts cousin committed suicide...so a lot of family matters have been going on with me...::sighs::

I suppose thats it for now...Don't really want to go into details at this time....I will try to make a happier blog sometime this week...just feeling like crap right now...I'm also sick at the moment, which makes things worse...comments would be appreciated.. =)

~Dark