" I can channel my anger but if its not on someone that deserves it I end up breaking something or head-butting a wall until it goes away and I would never hurt a child, or lay my hands on a women." " I can feel happiness and joy but my other emotions are numb. Like I cant feel love so when someone says "I love you," " I also despise rapists, and petifyles and would have no probelm, hesitation, or regret for killing one honestly." ". I understand that i'm alone in this world just the way I came in and the way I will go out but that's okay, it doesnt bother me" You sound pretty normal, except for these bits. You mention "channeling anger" and killing several times. Honestly, I would probably go see a therapist.chrisrooR
Agreed, at least partially.
Since TC's background was harsh on him from a young age, his psyche developed in such a way in order to protect himself from the traumatic events occuring. Such a defense cannot be turned on and off at will, and usually requires a extreme situation to put these buried emotions to surface.
The fact the emotions do still exist though, is clear, on the rationalization and channeling of anger towards a figure that he recognizes as "evil" (e.g.: Rapists, as he stated).
The "will or intent to kill" may be due to hormonal alterations, still common at his age (Males tend to stop growing at 21 if I recall it right). As long as he don't act on these impulses (which are more common to humam nature than we want to admit), he'll be quite ok.
Normal is by essence a set of characteriscs and/or behaviours accepted as the "norm". Being the norm dictated as "what is socially accepted and does not interfere in someone's everyday life and interaction with others".
Aparently, TC, it troubles you, efectivelly interfering in the way you interact with the world, and therefore you should indeed look for a therapist.
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