Well, guys! As I told you I was gonna start college and now I am starting it. Tomorrow I will be there and I am really scared, anyway I hope things will be ok. I know things will be ok! Xd Anyway I have to go morning and afternoon so I won't have any time to be here. I will be here weekends maybe and some quick visit over the week. Anyway I won't see forums or personal blogs :cry: Sorry! If I have some time to go on with my submissions I will do them but that's the only thing I will have time to. Well I am going now, see you next weekend or this week, I don't know it yet :cry: Have a good time over here and miss me, because I will miss you aswell and I will miss be here.

Another thing: I won't be at msn aswell, so I won't talk to much with the ones that have me in msn (specially Michelle and Wout)

Well, see you guys ok? I want you to be very happy and if you want email me or something here is my adress: Illora333@hotmail.com

Bie everyone!

Hi People! :D Today I am in the mood of writting, I am not feeling bad! Xd Besides you know what I am kind being funny and doing jokes with people... :lol: And that is new Xd

Well, I am trying to download (Buy if you are police....:P) the Reaper and Heroes premiere but I cannot do it. I guess it is because it will take a long till people hung them in the web. Anyway if you people know about it please info me ok? I don't know who, I am looking foward to see Reaper!!! Xd

About tv.com: I am making lots of submissions lately, right now I've finished doing 19 submissions for "Witches in tights" of charmed and as you know I usually make only 5 submissions. Anyway when I did the other episode I did 10 aswell, and I have here 16 to do it from the next one. So I hope I will have the whole "place" in the list before going to college. In fact the list have changed, now another one is there before me and he/she has more points! This is so frustrating :lol: Can I kill someone? Xd

Well.. There is only a week left to college and I am looking foward to start all over and by happy for once. Anywya I am scared of how things are going to be.

Hi People! I need to say some things that I am not able to say to my friend and tecnicaly you are my friends too. Anyway I've always talked to you about my bad personal life, the problems with my friend and with my girl and all that. Anyway this is my last blog about my particular personal life, in one week I get in college and things will be suddenly changed and I will try to be happy again coz it have been a long time. Well, asI said this will be my last blog about my personal life, in fact, this all have a really clear conclusion....

It's amazing how today I woke up feeling so bad as yesterday I got sleep. I cannot think anymore in positive and I know. Well, you remember I had fights with my friend and we started being friends again. If I could change time I would go there and I would shut ut my freaky mouth. You know, after all that time I spent trying us to be good friend and being caring and all... the final week has come and I realized that we are not friends at all, whatever he says or whaterver I say. It is so sad for me seeing that this is my ending... I was not expecting that and I don't deserve it. Everyone there has said me very clear that I am not such friend or that they don't care to me at all. Anyway they are together so great and I should not be there. I cannot even talk with my friend coz I think now of me what he thought of me in the past. There is no trust, there is nothing especial now. I am trying to spend this last week enjoying my friends (coz I won't see them anymore) but I cannot do it. I am feeling so bad about myself, about the situation that I cannot try this last week to be ok, it's just plain ridiculous. So that is it what my summmer had, and tecnicaly my life. After all this time and all that I did to have a good relation with people now I can go away knowing that nothing mattered, that I had not a best friend and that I had not a friend at all. A the worst thing about it all is that I am very clear about it, and the worst thing is that you are clear about the failure you have done even if they say to you that you have not... I am sick and tired of this life, it's all over and I don't know how to manage that

Hi People! I asked this in one blog but I did another one and no one read the first one so I ask again. I guess it's better than talk about anything else, I may add that you people don't comment anymore here :cry: so it's stupid making a big blog if no one is going to see it. For example the one I did about sentences in the songs (I spent lot of time searching and translating and it is was for nothing) ... So seeing how in two weeks I won't have time enough to be here (only weekends) I want to say that I am not posting original blogs no longer....

Anyway the question I was gonna ask is this: What date is the premiere of the following shows:

- Supernatural / Desperate Housewives / Reaper / Heroes

I know that Heroes is the first one (I guess) and DH is the 30/31 but I am not sure so can you please tell me. I wanna be sure the day of the premiere but I cannot search it anyway. In fact seeing that I am not from EEUU I will have to wait with Heores coz I don't know if it is a good show to see in english coz I could loose some really important points. Anyway info me ok??

Hi People! I am freaking out how awful was my day yesterday :cry: I've never felt that insulted. It was just horrible. I was there seeing how all the things I cared and all that I did this week has already fell. Let's say that I was interesting in another person, because that person had an exam. I was asking and being caring (It was an important exam!). Anyway despite the fact that he didn't tell a thing he did it worse. Another one that didn't care at all was the first one to know in front of mine and when that person was gonna start talking about his exam the other one just ignored him. I felt so betray. I am sick an tired of this cr*ap. I cannot think that after all he did what he did and I was there that way feeling so assho*e of myself. Well, that means that I cannot trust anyone. Anyway things will be over soon I can think that at least.

Hi People! I was hearing a song and I remember now a "song" that I made. It was all that I felt (and I feel) about the future. It is about being around the one you love and see time go on and feel bad about it. Anyway I wrote it and I thought it would be interesting write it here. I have to say that I am not english so maybe some sentences are not well written or does not mean anything so sorry then. Anyway tell me what you think ok? See you...

One thing, the song is already done by another artist so it is like changing it... It is a song from a famous artist (three sentences are the same) I've just changed the letter. And I know there is no rhyme... Xd

[One little thing before I go, the last blog is new aswell so take a look too if you want]

There's no earthly way of knowing

what will be in my eyes when they see you going

anyway, my world is already broken under my feets

the storm is screaming above me

Waiting for God to stop this

before I get completely inside the darkness

Everything around me has been corrupted

There is no dignity I what I make

Living in tomorrow, hating today

This is fighting over

Everything will be nothing when...

I see you leaving everyday

I cannot stand that you are away

I have that look in my eyes

that you never understand

Through your eyes I see my world burning

Don't play gentle I've already been killed

There's no way to turn this around

Your poison was the most sweet thing in my world

anyway I realize it kills anyway

Well, that sentence really says what I am feeling right now... I was so clear these days, I was understanding things and being ok (more or less) and now I am lost again... Anyway I am hoping this afternoon I will fix it... Anyway I don't wanna talk about my life again. You know me and you know that in a few days I will be ok again. Anyway I wanna talk about other things...

This morning when I came on, my 6 submissions about Charmed had been aproved and I went to see the contibutors list... I am not there but another one is!!!! :o One user that was not the old one... I tried to see his profile but it is private so I cannot see it! Anyway now the contibutors list shows all the photos Xd That is great :D Anyway I am sick and tired of making submissions and not be in that list! It is so anoying... This is sabotag. besides I make 6 / 8 submissions per episode so imagine what I am doing to the Charmed place! So please let me in that list, it is a stupid thing but it matters to me.

Well, it is september now... So the shows are starting again and I am so looking foward to it! I wanna see Reaper and Heroes. And of course DH and Supernatural :D Anyway I think Heroes has already started and Reaper I don't know. Anyway if you can tell me the dates please you would do mea huge favor!

Well I am going now... I am doing more submissions! I wanna be in that list! Besides I have to do lots of things. See you pleope! Bie :D

I have been too much here lately and by the time I start college I won't be here at all I think :cry: Well, I have not written too much in you blogs and you have not written in mine and I barely have seen the forums. Anyway I am going to be here a week or so If I don't get too much to do. I have to confess a thing, I am kinda bored about this web coz some "editors"... Anyway I am not bored about you all so I will be here seeing blogs and making less submissions. The deal is that lately I am seeing shows and all thatinstead ofbeing here. Anyway I will give it a try...

About my personal life, I am seeing things so clearly. I know how things are and why I was so upset and I am trying to change my mind. Anyway I was a step to do it when that friend told me that horrible things (Last blog) and I lost my energy to change, instead he made me want act another way...

About college I am so so scared coz I don't know if I will have some time to study at all, and If I have I will not have time to do anything else. It will be very anoying :D I am not that kind of person tha can be studying 24-7... If I do I start thinking about my life and how time pass and all that crap Xd :lol:

Well, hope I see more comments lately coz you people have not written too much :cry:

Well I had a bad night yesterday and a bad moorning today. A friend told me some things that he was dying for telling me, it makes no sense why he did that but he did it anyway. He told me some things that I had been thinking about the whole week and the little proud that I had felt to the floor. I know he is kinda right and that is what scare me. This afternoon I am gonna try to do some things that are gonna help me a little to get things out of my head and that will work to make him angry. In fact all that he told me was all that he did, so we are the same and all the things he can throw me at the face can be thrown into his face aswell. I am just so angry with him and for what he did, he had no reason, he only did it to make me feel bad. Congratulations, he made it. Now I only need a time to talk with another one and confess what he told me, I hope that the other one will be on my side and in the other side. Anyway, I think that is impossible right now.

Well, I have a big great new! I am in! :D I am in college, I am gonna study what I wanted since the first place, I only wanted to tell you all that! :lol: I am so happy! :D

About my life... I am not too much around my computer anymore so... and my personal life is good enough right now, anyway I am missing too much the one I love so this is kinda a bad thing but for now I am going on