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Just show me the way to get my life again 'cause you can't handle me

How is everyone? I'm good.

Well I set out today with three missions.Take care of my car checkup upon when my mom embedded "ten days" 30 thousand times into my head, Get this bump on my leg checked out, and to find this job thing at the local community college where they'd help with my resume.

Car: The only successful mission today. Every thing is good. Check engine light is still on but I know what the problem may be. The shop said it could be an engine misfire. I also have to get the wheel bearings fixed, that's why my car is shaky still, but they said to bring it in before the snow gets worse and they'll fix it. apparently it'll also fix the gas mileage I get on my car.

My Leg: about four days ago I noticed this really weird bump starting...well not it's getting infected and I just can't describe how ugly it is or how bad it hurts. I've been using Tea Tree Oil on it and it doesn't seem to be helping. I found a medical center, well they want $50 for the visit there..which I don't have, so they recommended quick care. I found that and they wanted $100. God It's so hard to find someone that will help an unemployed, uninsured person. I was given a list of free clinics though and the only one in my city is open only on Saturday. I guess I can hold out a few more days.

Community College thing: well I didn't know where to go to begin with and everywhere i went there was a line and I really didn't feel like waiting. I hadn't eaten yet either so I got probably the weirdest sandwich from the blimpies there. I got a Turkey and provalone with lettuce, black olives, pickles, and cucumber slices. Yeah I make weird sandwiches like that, but hey it was good.

What is your innermost desire?
You want to UNDERSTAND YOURSELF

There are so many things going on in your mind. You wonder what all of them mean, what you really want, who you really want to be with, etc. You question yourself often. You want to know who you really are, and you want to define yourself. This is a personal journey that most people experience. Keep doing what makes you feel good and what induces the least amount of anxiety and questions. Express yourself in every way possible. You don't need to define yourself, you just need to answer some important questions. It will all come in time.





when I find out what went wrong, I'll bring it back but it won't be easy

Hey everyone. How are ya? well it started snowing here. Thankfully hasn't stuck to the road yet. People are idiotic drivers already without the snow. The crossroad of my street is becoming accident central. I got stuck behind one accident yesterday and on the far side of the same street at the same time, there was another accident. I dunno why these things don't happen on SUndays. I need something interesting to happen. oh well. I have a feeling things will only get more and more stupid as the snow comes more and more. Anyone that wants the snow can have it really, just say the word.

Eh hopefully something interestin happens today besides dreaming about tornados. I read about the things in dreams that are signs of stress, tornadoes are one of them of course. So is loosing teeth and i've had those kinds of dreams as well. There are actually 8 signs of stress: teeth falling out, weather dreams, bugs, and I can't remember the rest. but it was an interesting article.

What is your secret talent?
The Perfect Ear

We'd love to have you as a friend, because you are a very good LISTENER and you always know what to say to make people feel better. You are very empathic and friendly. You have to consider the careers of Psicology and Social Working.





make believing we're together, then I'm sheltered by your heart

Hey y'all......well it' Saturday...again. From previous crappy Saturdays I know what to expect. Tv volume wars I'll never ever win, hearing about how I never do anything, feeling like there's nothing I can do right...and so on. But the nice thing is...yes I have a bright side....the movies are usually good and I can get about 5 in on saturdays.

well I think it's safe to say the job interview went well. I hear the same things "oh you seem like a friendly person" "you have a lot of experience" "You look like you'd do a good job" well this is when someone better comes along BUT there were only two more interviews left for the available positions (Waitress/hostess and Dishwasher) so there's a good chance I'll get this. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping.

I got the cutest thing today.....arm warmers. which works for me to wear around the house and they also double as hand warmers which is waht I really really need. THey're fingerless too so I can type:P They are pink and grey and they match the hoodie I have on.They won't work outside though cause it's bitterly cold and raining. Today is the first day i've ever had to actually let my car warm up.

So despite the weather and how the interview went, I might continue job searching today.

What's your lucky charm?

Your lucky charm is a stone or crystal. You are often seen as a bit of a loner, but you aren't. You are very intuitive and naturally lucky!



You're sick of feeling numb, you're not the only one.

Hey everyone, How are ya? I'm alright I guess.

Job wise, the search.....well....it's taking a bit longer to bounce back then I thought it'd take. I got an email from Target. Well basicly they just said they don't have a position for me BUT.....they do appreciate my interest with them. I love how they turn me down then try to be nice. the turning me down part kinda cancels out the last part of it, IMO. but whatever. Forget target, cause I also applied for Denny's yesterday and about two hours after I put the app in, they called to set up an interview for today. That actually shocked me, it may only be waitress/hostessing, but it's still a job. No matter it still sounds like fun.

So till my interview, I'm gonna do what I do best.....nothing. Part of my doing nothing is sitting around watching tv. First I watched some disney movie, but got sick of hearing "Cetus-a-petus" every 30 seconds. so now I'm watching Made...and this is the first episode I'm actually quite lost on.

My mom saw what I did to my jeans and of course asked what happened to them. so I told her. I took my box cutter and cut a few slits in on the left knee. well the next day I took my box cutter and cut a few slits on the right thigh and like most parents, my mom hates it. I simply told her "well I figure you're gonna make me throw them out eventually so I'm gonna make 'em just the way I like 'em"

What weather are you?
Downpour Donnie

The rain is the perfect place for you. Whether the rain is giving you an excuse to stay inside or it's cooling you off outside, wet is nice and water is your friend. Downpour or drizzle, rain is the weather for you!

YAY..this one is right. I love when it rains. I specially love a good downpour





Hard rock queens in ripped up jeans, everyone thinks they're so obscene

hey there. What's up? it's not as cold here today as it has been lately. though my hands are still kinda cold but for those of you that don't know yet. It's physically impossible for me to warm up. ah well.

Anyone have any plans for the day? I should be job searching but today I'm not gonna. I'm just gonna sit at home and find something on tv maybe. Pop a movie in my laptop maybe....probably finish the Nightmare Before Christmas. we'll see. eh maybe I'll find a place to take more pictures. LOL

anyway hope y'all have a good day. (this will be another quizilla quiz....so again sorry for the crappy blindin chatspeak. I've just been getting more variety with this site)

http://www.quizilla.com/quizzes/7697886/what-ancient-civilization-are-you (sorry gonna have to copy and paste....HTML is being a b!tch again and mods are more then likely too lazy to fix it. :roll:



Time Traveler

You wouldn't fit in just one ancient culture, you'd rather visit them all. You are smart and adventurous and all you want to do is have some fun. You would go between any of the ancient cultures and be fine in each one.

Hmm that actually sounds like fun.

My words, they don't come out right but I'll try to say I'm happy for you

Hey everyone. How are ya? I'm good.

My internet went out about 8:30 last night.....*unenthusiastic yay* so I kept checking every half hour or so to see if it came back....well I gave up about 1 am cause I figured that even if I did get it back, everyone I talk to would be in bed anyway. Well it never came back when I went to bed anyway....so oh well.

While my internet was out, I took the time to make my bed like I'd been wanting to, but was too lazy to do, for the last month and a half or so. I found an earring I lost there:P I'm surprised it didn't poke my leg actually. I sorta figured it'd be found as soon as I stopped looking for it. That's how it always works with me.

It's freezing outside today....so that means my knee will be hurting to no end. I don't think I should've cut those holes in the knee of my jeans then:P oh well they look cool and I did it without cutting myself:P Hmmm guess box cutters arent' just for cutting boxes anymore:P

Your best quality

(please forgive the annoying non understandable chat speak :/)
Your Social

You social butterfly you!!! You proolly make friends without even trying!!! Your a lucky gurl, and anyone would love to have chu as there pal.

me? social? HA!!!!





So I stole this pillow case to clean this mess I've made of someone's dream

how are y'all? I'm not bad. it's freezing here and snowing flurries. thankfully nothing that sticks to the ground. As of now I'm just sitting here, looking through this magazine. I found a few shirts I like, specially the one that says "I don't even care about my problems. Why should I care about yours?" :lol: and "Yes, despite the look on my face,you're still talking" :P and many more.I could go on and on but I won't.

So anyway....went job searching and got a few places in. I think I should've worn pants that don't fall but oh well.I don't really care. As long as I wear a long enough shirt, it shouldn't matter.

anyway I"m hungry, I haven't eaten yet so that's all for now.

What type of music are you?
cla$$cal

result image Your calm and quite. You enjoy the small things in life.
Enjoy Life!!!

nice:P




Empty dreams can only disappoint, in a room behind your smile

hey y'all. What's up? I'm just enjoying this cold rainy day.

So I wanted to go out to Tim Horton's today, which i did, because it sounded good and right away it's assumed that I just want doughnuts. Ok, so I know I'm a junk food fiend, but I was actually hungry.

Mom: But we have bagels here....

me: Tim Horton's has MORE then bagels.

Sister: she probably just wants doughnuts ( :roll: brat!)

me: Tim's has MORE then just doughnuts too.

Mom and sister: what else do they have?

me: sandwiches.....

Mom: did you strike it rich or something?

me: no but I only get to eat out like.....I dunno..... once every six months.

mom: pop and chips...you get those everyday

me: that's not eating out.......

so finally after getting the third degree, they FINALLY moved cars so I can go eat...I thought I was going to starve before they finished.

So then, after eating, I still didn't wanna go home, so I went to return pop bottles and while I was out I got new wiper blades for my car. It's probablythe only thing I know how to change on my car. I even got 'em for more then half the price of an auto shop too....like under $3.50 a blade. YAY. :P

I got a really cute video of Bandit running around the yard:P Spotty used to do that too :lol: I have a video of him chasing and barking at the vaccuum too:P Might post 'em on youtube. if I do I'll post 'em here so y'all can see 'em.

[url=http://www.quizilla.com/quizzes/8114280/what-is-your-personal-theme-song=You're personal theme song[/url]

That's Life by Sinatra. eh I kinda disagree with this but oh well.





I bought this chocolate sucker the other day:P Well some old guy told me it'd make me fat :lol: I'm not sure how I'm supposed to take it really, oh well.

and I dare you to forget the marks you left across my neck

hey everyone. how are you? I'm doing good. The dog's all curled up in my lap and we're watching a movie. The best part of weekends. Hopefully there are more good movies on.

My neck still hurts. I'm hoping it stops soon cause now it's my shoulder and wrist both on the left side. I'll tell ya what,I think I'm falling apart here. I don't think the cold weather is helping either. It went from being in the 70's down to 45 degrees and that sucks really bad with wet hair.

Some shows on tv are really really scary. Particularly little kid's shows. Makes me wonder what grown adult would want to do something like that. oh well. whatever makes the money I guess.

Sorry i don't have any more thoughts today.....nor any complaints YAY.

Dream date or dating disaster?
Perfect Partner!!!

When you're on a date, you just want to be appreciated for being you. You keep topics light-hearted and listen carefully to what he/she has to say. That winning personality of yours totally shines through!





Ain't no pot of gold in her rainbow, her favorite color is chrome

hey y'all. How are ya today? well my neck still hurts, it's been hurting since yesterday,I'm fine. I just can't turn or tilt my head left with out it feeling like someone is pinching me really hard.

I got my car back today. but my happiness was messed up when my mom started talking to me like I was some stupid little kid.Just saying sh!t like my car has to go back in ten days to see how it's doing. "ten days, put that in your phone, ten days, ten days. That would make the day....blah blah blah" Then my sister chimes in and my brother just to be an idiot "ten days" I've heard that number so much it's friggin' imbedded in my brain. My sister starts with "you need to clean out your car", which really isn't that dirty. So with the irritation beginnig, I put the damn ten days ahead thing in my phone and talk to them the same way they were talking to me while showing them my phone "See? It's in my phone. ten.........days" Apparently they don't like it but they have no problem dishing it out. :roll: Then the paper I'm supposed to show the shop, my mom was still talking to me like I was stupid, "It can't go in your purse, it's gotta go in your car" That's when my sister says I gotta clean out my car. I feel like I have two friggin' moms and right now I can't even deal with my mom. I have no idea how stupid they think I am but if I hear the word 'responsibility' one more time I'm gonna FRIGGIN' MAKE IT A BANNED WORD SO NO ONE..........NO ONE!!!!!!....CAN EVER SAY IT AGAIN!!!!!! (Sorry I had to let that out) I feel like I should just be sitting in the corner with my hands all curled up in my lap "yes, mother" "ok mother" "I will do that, mother" like some mindless f**king robot.. Then my mom gets all p!ssy cause I don't appreciate her getting my car, which I was appreciative, but she's the one that messed it up with the stupid lecture she "just had to give". I mean I put every.......friggin'......appointment I need to put in my phone WITHOUT anyone telling me and she thinks she's still gotta tell me or I won't. Last I checked I was 25 NOT 2.

And what the hell is up with my sister and cleaning, my brother too. I mean they seriously must be so bored, I don't care if they clean up their sh!t but leave me the hell alone and stop telling me to do the same. I'll do it when I'm damn well ready to.I mean yah I get bored too, but not that bored. "clean your car" "clean your room" "Put your clothes away" My day is not even half over and they're already drving me insane.....insaner. They might as well start telling me what to wear and where to go and tell me how to spend my money...oh wait they already tell me how to spend my money :roll:

eh I guess that's all I have to complain about....you can ignore it if you choose, I don't really care.

Not sure if I did this one or not

You Are a Lemon Poppy Seed Muffin

You are smart, sophisticated, and savvy.
You love taking risks, and you are the first to know about new trends.

You are curious about the world and tend to have many interests.
You also are very talented. It sometimes seems like you are good at everything.

You are very social and inclusive. You'll be friends with anyone.
Even though you're very cultured, you're not a snob.