It is far too freaking hot. 37 degrees C here in my town (somewhere above 90 F for those who deal in it). And I don't do heat. I'm a winter person, I like the cold, the rain, the fierce biting winds... Very much. Add a few layers and you're fine. Right now I want to peel my SKIN off...

And I've thrown up twice in the last half hour. Too freaking hot...

Well, at least I'm drinking more than usual! I'm on my second litre of water today!!!

Anyone else having these problems?

I'm now level 7 - Talk Show Host, but I don't know HOW I got it. Not that I'm complaining, but I haven't done anything...

Level - 7
Percentage - 1%
Icons - Social Butterfly, Talk Show Host, Contributite, Surfer, Journal.
Submissions accepted - 18
Pending - 0
Denied - 5
Total - 23

Reviews
Shows - 2
Episodes - 8
People - 0

I'm off to try and write random fanfiction. Seeya laters!

Maybe I'm simply on a CCS role, but I made a Card Captor Sakura today 'cause I finally downloaded the entire second film (VERY good, though I half wanted Shaoran to not remember Sakura... I'm all for S/S, but I have this really angst obsessed side...)

Anyway, this is my video, set to Tsubasa's A Song Of Storm And Fire. Great song.

I'd appreciate comments, please go watch it!

Enjoy!

I had a bit of a writer's block today (or a log jam, as Cherokee likes to call it :D), so I decided to do SOMETHING productive. Y'know, apart from being unable to find a job at an agency site I went to, except for medical testing...

Anyway, I made this:

It's just a silly little wallpaper for any CCS Sy/E fans (Syaoran/Eriol), as I admit the first time I saw this image my thought was "O_O;;  I thought Syao was after Sakura now?! And isn't that Clow Reed?!"

Anyway, it's simple - just a slightly edited manga pic, a couple of words and some black around the edge. Took me an hour to decide whether to have song lyrics in the background or not (I have a version with "Imaginary" in the background - it looks better white!).

What do you think? It's just my favourite scene, as Syao was VERY freaked out by Eriol's help afterwards... :D

EDIT: Here's another version, without the SF above Eriol's head -

Links, links...

Without the SFX

With the SFX

He's right, I DID shamelessly yap about his writing, so here's a link to H Max Marius' (otherwise known as Cherokee) fics:

H Max Marius

The good news - my writer's block has lifted (for hopefully longer than ten minutes), so I'm going to be writing insanely in just a minute!

Better news - MA- I MEAN, CHEROKEE43V6 IS HERE!! *glomps* This guy is awesome. Funny, a great friend, a fantastic author and kind enough to read over my stuff when I write it (you're going to get a motherload before the night is done, I promise you. *evil grin*).

Bizarre news - There's a load of people singing somewhere nearby, I can here them through my window, but the only place they could be is the small slide park in my area, that really isn't a park... Just a slide. And it sounds rather hippy-ish. O_o;;

Bad news - Erm... I haven't changed my calendar yet? It stills says June? Ok, so I don't really have any bad news, just good and odd...

Oh, hang on, that dratted ice cream van approaches. Great, I'm going to have that song stuck in my head for hours...

"If you go down to the woods today..."

To any fellow Tsuubasa fans: if you haven't read chapitres 120 and 121, don't read any further. I'm about to go off on one. :D

*SCREAMS* AAAAAAAHHHHH! Ok, so not only do we find out that the Syaoran we've been following is a clone, we also find out that Real!Syaoran is the one who has been haunting his dreams all this time. I've also heard rumours about Real!Syao actually being CCS Syao. Which doesn't seem all that strange, but it does at the same time. I mean, how many versions of Syao would have faced enough to be able to rip out his own eye?!

Ah! Syao ripped out Fai's eye! There's a lovely KuroFai moment (as far as I'm concerned) in chapitre 121, go check out the Room of Requirement for raw scans.

Did I mention that when I say I've read chapitre 121, it means I looked at the pictures? I can't read Japanese...

Anyway, the point of this is: just how twisted are CLAMP?! They've been screwing around with us this whole time about Syao and this 'other' Syao, and NOW Syao could be considered the bad guy! Well, he WAS created by the bad guys, and he did rip out Fai's eye, and then proceed to try and beat on Kuro-puu. And now he's going to face off against Real!Syao.

Y'know, I'll be really upset if Syao becomes THE bad guy. Because he's the one we've been following, the one we've come to love... Of course, we all love CCS Syao too, so if it's CCS Syao, it'd be confusing.

I'm confused. BUT ALL DONE NOW, TSUBASA FANS WHO DIDN'T WANT SPOILERS!! :D

Ok, I'm officially having a bad week. :evil:

Firstly, I can't find a job. ANYWHERE. Offices, supermarkets, even freaking MacDonalds isn't taking anyone on! The ONLY job I can find is as a freaking door to door salesperson, and there's no way in the seven levels of hell that I'm going to do THAT. I can't afford to (it's totally based on commission... What? I really need the money!). I've been doing odd jobs for friends and family, getting paid like £3 for a hard day's work. Funnily enough, this has helped me save up enough money to pay for my college transport though. :) That's good, I guess.

I can't go to the Avalon convention in Somerset (see previous blog), but RDA and Tapping are going to be there! :cry:

The local Fantasy Fair,  I have just discovered, will NOT be held at all this year! Gits! Ok, so it's not wildly popular, but this isn't a big sci-fi town. Most of the city consists of chavs, actually. *shudders* But it was a good little thing, and I'm really upset about that now. It might seem odd, but that was my highlight of the summer (I've been to this fair with my mate for the last 3 years in a row, and now I have to break that tradition. Thanks, City Council). Plus, it cuts me off from my cheap supply of comics (cheap: see free. Seriously, you potter around, buy a couple from the stall, go back and buy another one and the guy would let me have 3 with it, totally free. Go back about an hour later, and the dude would let me have about another 10 comics! No pay! It was wicked cool!). *pout*

Of course, without a decent supply of money, or being too busy to spend said money, I can't really go out and do anything. There is not a thing to do in my town that doesn't require money. You either go to the cinema, go to town (which costs £2.70 if you get a Day Rider, as they no longer do returns... Total rip off! I remember when they used to do a return to the City Centre for £1.50 - that was 4 years ago!) and buy junk from there, or you go to a park for free and risk getting beaten on by random idiots (chavs, emos, goths, ethnic groups... Pick one, you'll be beaten on by them. Violent idiots, all of them).

I suppose I could invite my friends to my house - lets see... Well, one has moved to Norwich, and she doesn't have enough money to come down here that often (and we already know I can't afford to go to Norwich more than once this summer). Another has really iffy parents who don't trust white people (makes you feel all fuzzy inside, huh?), and the rest only ever seem to want to go out and do something involving money! (Hello, mates, I'm totally f***ing skint!!) Besides, my house is literally falling down around us at the moment. It's a nice house, really big for the area, but the workmanship is awful. Ok, the only real problem is that the bathroom is leaking down into the living room, but it's still pretty rank.

Meanwhile, I can't seem to say a word to anyone without them snapping at me. My mother is stressed because her bosses are screwing around and messing up her job, my grandmother (who we unfortunately live with) seems to assume that because I no longer go to school, her own daughter (15, my mother's little sister) doesn't have to do anything and gets to sit on her already fat arse all evening, chatting with her mates and playing with her freaking DOLLS (I'm not kidding, she plays with dollies). No, I get to do EVERYTHING. Washing, cleaning, polishing, hoovering, making sure the bloody house is spotless from top to f***ing bottom... Did I mention I am ALLERGIC to most cleaning products? So I'm f***ing sneezing all day, and I'm getting the most awful rashes everywhere... My stepfather is depressed because his uncle died recently, one of my other aunts is about to have a kid any day now (No, EC, it's still not been born...). So, between all this I have less time to find a job, and with everyone screaming at me constantly I'm about to lose my f***ing mind.

My mate went missing the other day, and her mother was so worried she went around calling all of her friends. Well, she's one of my best friends, it isn't like her to not call anyone when she changes her plans, her phone was freaking turned off and I have an overactive imagination. Combine all that with many a disappearance of pretty teenage girls around my area nowadays (it's becoming a really bad area), and she is a pretty teenage girl, and what do you get?
I f***ing freaked out. And I swear when I see her, I'm going to f***ing break her shin, I'll kick it that hard. She left her phone in her room, turned off, and decided to meet up with some "mates" aka people she hates (wtf?!) instead of buying the bread she went out for.

Another friend is having a worse time than me, which makes me feel a bit lousy for complaining. Her family has suffered a lot of deaths (due to diseases, old age and a few to do with murder), she's facing an arranged marriage pretty soon and she is not allowed to continue her education at A Level, as she wanted. And here I am, complaining about this lot. It makes me feel really pathetic, you know? But I've been trying to help her out - I'm the resident agony aunt. Just so happens I carry everyone elses problems with me too. So I've got my load of crap, and half my school's load of crap to deal with too. Thanks, guys.

On top of everything else, I really think I have lost my mind. I can't seem to focus on anything anymore, not even my writing, which is my shelter from my problems, and it's just generally f***ed up in here *taps head*. So maybe I will really become someone in a straightjacket, making my ff.net nickname appropriate...

Tell me I'm overreacting. I know it all sounds rather petty, but it just pisses me off. I hate seeing other people upset, or hurt, or just generally unhappy, and it seems like everything I do at the moment just adds to their grief. What the hell am I supposed to do? It's been going on for months now (well, not all of it... The jobs, the pregnancy, the problems with my mother, my grandmother and her 15 year old daughter being general b****s...).

Oh yeah, and last night there was a thunderstorm. Great - I happen to have a phobia of lightning. And I have yet another bastard ear infection.

What did any of us do to deserve all this?

Nooo! I was just pottering 'round the Stargate SG-1 forum, and what do I find? Richard Dean Anderson and Amanda Tapping are coming to a convention in Somerset! Well, I was excited - I can get there easily!
Of course, it had to last about two seconds... :cry:
Turns out, this convention is very exclusive and VERY expensive. As in £200+. Now, it's cool because it goes to charity and things like that (according to Tapping), but I mantain the right to be seriously bummed out. I'm an avid fan, and I actually would have enough money by the end of the month to afford to go. But I need to spend it on my college transport (which is actually £20 more expensive than these tickets!!!). So yeah, I'm kinda bummed because I missed out on the London Expo, the Sci-Fi convention over at Milton Keynes a while back (sorry, can't remember what it's called...) and I don't remember when our local Fantasy Fair is (I think it's the 14th, but I'm not sure. It's not big or anything, but my only chance to snag some Static Shock comics, if I'm lucky. They're really hard to come by... :?).
So, if anyone happens to be going to the Avalon thing... Get some photos, please!! I beg of you! (I saw it and was like "YES! Something to do!", but I won't be able to make the money back up before the tickets are sold out...)

EDIT: The Milton Keynes convention is Collectormania. D'oh!

Apparently, I'm almost 100% non-gullible (or am I being gullible?) :lol:



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