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New Baby!!!

This is my first time being an aunt! Here's my sister's baby Mary, cuteness! :D

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This is the first baby in my family since me, and I'm 26 years old! :shock:

Yipee Resident Evil Freaks!!!

After browsing many sites and many forums I've finally found a group of RE Freaks, like myself, to chat with! Even people who like Outbreak, as shocking as that may be. Hooray!

RE Fans Unite! :D

This was completely random indeed. :lol:

Brain Dump #1

Who the hell is Suzabbe? Damned if I know. I suppose the best way to find out is to back track through my online life. Back in the day I used to chitty chat on AIM with my school buds for hours and hours over my AOL Dial-up, woo hoo 56K baby! I really thought I was the ***** to be “online” and have a buddy list that was filled to the gills! Then I moved offline, into the real world, made friends, made enemies, went to college, got a degree, got an apartment and a cat, had some crap-ass relationships that died before they started and some that’ll last a lifetime and I threw my online life to the side, it really wasn’t important to me at all. Then I came full circle well after college, spending my time once again in instant messengers and posting to gaming sites. I quickly learned, unfortunately not quick enough, that who you say you are online may not be who you really are... tsk tsk... don’t believe a soul I say.... now... if you asked me 4 months ago I would have had an entirely different story to tell. I feel burned and I feel I’ve burned others along the way.

Nowadays I've learned a thing or two about the online community as a whole, and sadly those lessons have been learned through mistakes. But at least this way, I’m pretty damn sure they’ll stick with me. No more throwing caution to the wind when it comes to trust, caring and getting emotionally involved with “friends” online. As lame as it seems, yes, it’s easy to do. Where else can you be completely uninhibited and feel absolutely free to just say what’s on your mind?

I began posting to a gaming site (which shall remain nameless) back in August of 2004. I started off just posting here and there about a game or two; I believe Beyond Good and Evil was the game that brought me to this particular site for help. People seemed nice, seemed caring and seemed overly joyful that I was an “OMG FEMALE!” As shocking as that could have been, I’d been playing games all my life but just never really talked about it with anyone seeing as in my experiences it wasn’t something generally spoken of. In my own close knit group of friends, it was a shameful deed to sit at your computer at home and play a game for hours. You’d be considered a social outcast and banished to some God-Forsaken Hermit cave for merely mentioning it.

It’s amazing when I think back, it’s not even been a year since I started going online and yet it seems like an eternity. To make a long story short (too late) I’ve come to realize you don’t exactly get what you give, online that is. So now that you’ve read my brain dump, you still don’t know me, but you know a bit of where I’m coming from, may it serve as a warning or however you’d like to take it.

Oh and am I bitter? Yes, most certainly so! :P