:roll: i had a semi fun time at "meg's" house only because she HAD to invite, the guy she likes, "kasey," his roommate and the guy that likes me, "morgen," and morgen'syounger brother fresh from cali, "patrick." now mind you, meg is freakin' obsessed with Kasey all she does is talk about him. she is 20 and he is 24. kasey this, kasey that, and then she complains that kasey's ex, "roxie" (23) whom i know from highshool, is at one his plays or is at a screening of one of the many student films he stars in. i told her thatkaseyis a player and to becarefull of him since most guys our age are horndogs.
before i went over to her house, meg called morgen and told to go him to over to her place with pat and kasey after morgen gets out of work at 10. i arrive some time during after 9 and unknown to me, meg had already texted the guys. meg, me, and her brother, chris, are hanging out in the kitchen eating cookies and then proceed to the living room to watch labyrinth with david bowe while waiting for the guys. then she has to text morgen once more to remind him that i'am going to be in a bathing suit. ok...i DON'T wear bathing suits. i'm self conscious about my weight and wear board shorts and a t-shirt over a navy blue once piece while meg on the other hand wears bikinis & she is bigger than me. i tell megthat board shorts and shirts over a one piece don't count as or skin, as she calls it, and then retorts and that to morgen "me in board shorts and t-shirts IS skin to him..." mo is a guy that i know from the computer club and he is 5'10 and 300 lbs!
we finally go swimming around 10:30 when the guys get there and i spend time talking to mo, chris and pat. while kasey and meg spend most of thier time all over each other embracing or hugging. patadmits to smoking pot and going cocaine while in cali and moved down here for some reason (i don't know since i wasn't paying attention). i don't mind talking to mo since he is usually a level headed & calm person. but he is a total horn dog and has made some unwanted advances towards me. i had a frank talk with him since then he has kept a semi-reasonable distance from intruding on my safety zone.
overall day: eh....7
saturday
meg begs and begs to go over to the apt because she wants to be with kasey. i'm feeling lazy and don't want to go, but finally cave into her nagging. before we go over to the apt, we stop at a super market and pick some ice cream (her), smirnoff (me), japanese canned coffee (me), and pocky (us). while on way to the apt, i tell her that i need to buy some gas since the car is almost on E. while on our way the apt and a cheaper gas station, meg admits a horrific revelation that pat and kasey talked about after i left her house.
meg: we were talking about what if mo took 3 ecstasy pills, then we left the room, and then since you don't know, you walk into mo's room and the door shuts and all we hear you scream "RAPE" and your clothes fly off.
me: O____O ok, why me?? why not you and who said that?
meg: it was pat and kasey who said it! your going to have a love triangle with pat and mo. haha.
me: i barely met pat and i don't really like mo like that and you know it. for all i know, she might have been making this up...
this keeps up until we reach the apt. pat and meg start playing guitar hero 1 while kasey is in his room, mo and me start a conversation, and the other roommate, hector, is in the shower. after awhile meg disappears with kasey, pat is playing gh 1, mo and me are still talking and hector is on the computer in his room. around 7 or so, the bro's are watching iron man and me feeling bored and sleepy decide to knock on kasey's room while hector yells "HOUSE KEEPING!" from his room. kasey walks out in his bathrobe, says something and walks away. then then pat and me start arguing about something. then finally i get board around 7:30 and decide to leave. i call meg on her cell phone telling her i'm leaving and if she wants a ride back to her place leave now because moisent going to give her a ride back or she can wait till hector goes to work around 11pm. meg chooses 11 so i leave to my house. :roll:
sat: 6 eh....
ok...some of this is partly my fault. mother, the grand lwaxana, warned me NOT to go w/those guys during the summer while meg was in summer cooking school. "do u like mo?", "do u like him?" NO? ok..then WHY must you go over there?? don't lead that guy on...go find new friends. me, of course, not thinking and actually going against my better judgement still went to watch B5 with mo and kasey. before meg left, we would over the apt on the wkend for fun. i never told anyone this before, but i've been "mounted" go by mo before...a few times. picked up, poked, grabbed, jabbed---sexual harassment. i've asked him to stop but he never did. it wasent until a thought popped up in my mind: wht happens if a 300 lb 25 y/r man breaks my arm or something then what? i asked mo "wht will you tell my mother if you break my arm? that you were on top of me when i asked you to stop?" he stopped to think about it and since then has stopped the horse play but still sits really, really, close to me. if he trys to put his around around my shoulders, i push him away & smile then he gets the picture. when i used to leave mo's apt, he used run out like a school girl after me just to talk alone. since i coulden't stand to be alone with mo, i'd get in the car and smile because he used to pick me up like a child and once kissed me on the cheek after we went to to a pizza hut. when he used to pick me up, i'd say now "i have to pretend to enjoy this... :roll:" he'd laugh until he got the picture that i don't to be poked or anything like that. i also bought some of the unwanted atten to myself by talking about raunchy subjects, such as porn, sex, janeway/chekotay sex stories, s&m, and such. NOOOOOO..not good idea. i knew wht i was doing---leading that guy on by frequent visits and talking about sex. if he wants to eat from now on, we are going dutch. i no longer want to lead him on nor do i want to be near that bro of his. they are stuck on p as in "piss" and that makes look like trash & since we r talking about dirty subjects.
i think it's safe to say that i learned a "dark" lesson here: drop all 4 of them and run. run. i say dark because mo doesn't play rough any more and i'm choosing to drop them before anything happens like an actual rape or worse. i know wht i did wrong and choosing to end it now and make better friends while i'm at the uni. meg is blinded by kasey, something i'm not with mo, to see that all kasey wants is sex. she has already told me is mean and sometimes ignores her. i've never had a b/f, while meg has had 2 and most likely had relations despite her saying no.
i have a friend at the uni who is in a sorority so i'm going to call her later & ask questions about that club and see if i can get in & drop the piss group and move on. i have a media empire/conglomerate to start and all the piss group is going to do is bring me down & make me looks like trash like them.
i also want to limit contact with meg since she is stuck on a 4th grade mentality. i can give her all the rides she wants yet she cant go the uni's $5 buffet w/me because "she doesnt want to get fatter" & she won't pay for gas.
song of the day:
THE LIVING END - NOTHING LASTS FOREVER.
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