I don't know why but yesterday aftergoing to the bed I was thinking a lot and I realized that I am right, it's 100% not my fault! I know that sometimes in the past maybe it was my fault, I really know, but not anymore. This afternoon I am gonna be there and talk like I have never talked him! And he won't be able to say me a thing because I am so confident in what I am saying! :D Let's say that he says that "I care too much about him, so that is why I am fighting a lot with him". I have been thinking, and I do that for all people! :D So now he cannot say a thing! And I am gonna tell him that were are gonna be like we were in the past, that I am gonna be there and I won't fight anymore.

Anyway, I have to confess that maybe I am making a mistake, yesterday he show me that he has a lot of great friends and that I am not one of them, that I cannot achieve what he has with them. So I am gonna be there to fight them, I hope that maybe he realizes some things. But what about if he doesn't? What about if he keep being so selfish like he has been always? I would not be able to stand there anymore. I am scared to death, I am just hope that by the end of this day I won't be hurted again...

[People, see the blog about the songs please! It is really new and you have not seen it! It is the blog "In the worst moment", please go there right now!]

" Our fear can become terror any minute, in the same exact minute where we know for sure that they only thing that we want in this world will never be ours"

Sorri, it's 1 25 in the morning, I just got home and I am so so down today. Things get out of my mind again. I realized that some people is just not the way I supposed. Tomorrow, I am gonna finish all. I am scared to death, no one knows it but I still hope that maybe things will be ok in the future, that is why getting this over scared me so badly... Tomorrow, I will say some people that things are over. That I cannot be this way anymore. Things were broken so I don't understand why I tried a second chance. Today I get so damaged when I saw that (let's name them A and B) A and B were together so well, better than when I was great with A. I never will have that, and I think that I never had. (This is not about the one I loved, it is more about friendship, anyway the one I loved is kinda a bad thing too). My best friend told me things very clearly. It was so hard see them both there, talking, joking... I cannot be this way anymore. I have no strengh enough to go on. Why is my friend being so a ***! I don't get it... Tomorrow, I will say that I don't want to talk them anymore.

About my heart, the last sentence in the "fears" thing is my anwer. It is just another thing that I won't be able to change, and she will be over too. Anyway, she was over so long ago. At least, I had some hope to my friend, but I had no hope with her since the beginning.

Well... I just wanted to talk. I got home so badly because I know that I cannot change anything and I am just so bad today! I am so miserable... So, i think that is my life... I should be out there, drinking, dancing and all. And I am here, feeling so bad, fighting to stay to my best friend, that doesn't care anything about me and missing the girl that had my heart, but suddenly broke it.

I don't know what to do, if I loose my friend too, if that happen I will be all alone... but I know that he don't want to be as he was. I know that he and B are so damn good friends! And I know that he is not a good person and that he did today all the things that he knew that were gonna get me to the bottom. So... Please, tell me what I should do? Because tomorrow I am gonna be there, to tell him that this is so ridiculous, that he cannot be that way and all that stuff.

Well, the last blog, the one down this one. It was a blog from this morning, so please go there and take a look, please! Is about music and all that, just don't forget is a new one.

I know it is a stupid thing to do in a website of TV but...

I wanna show you my top 5! My five favorite songs in the bad moments. They are about broken hearts and all that stuff, but you know how things are right now. They are perfect when you need to listen something! And If someone wanna have one of them, I can assure you that they help in the worst moment. Well, here is my list, tell me if you have heard some of them and tell what do you think (I have introduce a link to youtube, so you can hear it or something, while you are reading. (I give the links to listen the songs, not to see the videos! :D)

The Top 5 "In the Worst Moment" Songs

5 - No (Shakira)

This song is in spanish, so maybe a lot of you won't understand it! Sorri! Basically the song says "I cannot live this way anymore, you gotta go". This one is a emotional song because the message it is direct, I mean that is about the theme "Love can not conquer all" somehow things get broken.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HFG1CN3Yo9U

4 - The Ghost of You (My Chemical Romance)

I know that the song don't seem too much about love, for me, it is! (The video is kinda weird! So it don't seem like that, anyway... you have to listen the song, NOT THE VIDEO!) Well, the song say how things won't be ok despite we want them to be that way. That someone we won't be home despite we want to. "At the end of the world..." touch me a lot! We you realized thing like that, you tecnicaly are at the end of your world.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sJqEccwliQ

3 - Dreams for Plans (Shakira)

I like this one so much! Shakira always know how to transmit the facts and the feelings. I think that this song is so clear. Before and now, things can change, we don't want them to change but they change anyway. This song is about the regret, when we wish for the things that now have passed. (This song has not a video, so the video in the link... you just hear the song! The video is photos of Shakira! :D)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHV7F9Ti7Cg&mode=related&search=

2- My Happy Ending (Avril Lavigne)

Whoa, this song is just perfect! That is exacly what I feel! It is like I had wrote that song! I love it so much... If you hear it, there is nothing more to say, it is so touching. "You were everything I wanted" Just hear it, and know that this song is perfect and is clearly what I was looking for

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHV7F9Ti7Cg&mode=related&search=

1 - Pieces of a Dream (Anastacia)

Well, here it is number one in the list! I know that "My Happy Ending" has a better message (It has been written better than this one) but "Pieces of a Dream" is more about the feeling of the music and not the entire message. This song touch my heart everytime I hear it. It is about the hope that is no longer in our hearts, the betrayal, the pieces of our dream. The numbre one in this list and the number one in my life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v1LHWJES23Y

Well, that is my list! Please let a comment! Which one is the best? What touch you the most? All that stuff!

I've been thinking and I remember a strange play that I used to play with my friends: It is a story... and then a question about it! It is kinda a strange game, I know, but it will make you think for a while! Well, here it is, besides I want other people try it! So please everyone let a comment... As I have said a millon of times I am not english, so maybe the story will be bad written, sorri...

You just have to read it and be able to answer the question. Please if you know the real answer... let me know in a PM or make a Spoiler,I don't want other peole have to think it too! And let everyone good intelligent friend know about this blog :D

WHAT HAPPENNED

It is almost night in a factory of books outside town. Everyone is leaving, hoping get home soon and embrase their pilllows. A young boy gets in while they all are getting out. He stays near to the door and says Good Bie to all the employees that are leaving. After the last one is out, a man gets closer and as he comes he leaves the factory in the darkness. It is their Boss. The young boy enters in a little room near to the door and sits down near to a wall filled with screens that show all the doors outside the factory. His work is close all the doors after the Boss is gone, and watch all over the factory. The Boss is already out and then the doors are closed. The young guy stays there in the darkess front all these green screen doing his job another day...

The Boss wake up in the morning. After the breakfast he goes out and drive his car till the factory as every day. He is thinking what he will do that night. His flight lets at diner time. Then he will be in Paris all the night. Saddly, that morning he has to go to the factory again to catch some tickets to the plane. He just forgot it the day before. If he hadn't forgotten, the day would have been perfect. He would be able to stay at home till the night, when the plane leaves. Anyway, he doesn't worry. He just is gonna catch the tickest and leave again the factory. Anyway, it's soon. Only the guy that stays there all the night would be there and no one would say a word...

He arrives to the factory, he talks with the young boy and then he goes to his office for the tickets. The young boy was strange and he had notice it. Suddenly when he gets out the young boy starts a weird conversation...

Young Boy: You cannot leave! That plane is gonna crash! You cannot get it! ... I always had this gift! I can see thing that are gonna happen in my dreams, please don't do it! Please!!!

The Boss: What? That makes no sense! nothing will happen, I have to go!

Young Boy:This night Ihave dream that! If you go... you will die! I can assure you! All my dreams come true.

He left the factory anyway. After a few hours, while he was waiting in the airport, he could not leave to thinking about it. Maybe that boy was right. He stays, he don't go inside the plane. Later, as the boy sai, the plane crashed.

The next morning, the Boss is the first one that arrives there. The boy is leaving because night has over and see his boss. The Boss get closer and tell him something:

"You saved my life. Your dream was true. That is why I have to give you this. Thanks a lot"

The Boss get inside the factory and the boy goes out. He looks what the Boss have given him. It is a 1000000 $ check and a note that says "You are fired"

THE QUESTION

Why, after saving his life, is the young boy fired?

[Ei, the blog before this was there just a few days ago, please read it too]

I know things won't be the same again, I know that I am too lost without you, I know that life is nothing if you are not whitin me. Anyway, I've been dead so long ago, since the very moment I knew that I couldn't say you how much you mean to me. I've been so weak so many hours, so many times, knowing that things were broken...

Now, I know how things are. I know that I have to walk this life alone.That, after all, you won't catch my hand and lead me. I am used to the sadness, I am used to the pain. But I am not used to understand that you are gone.

But... what about the future? How will I be able to go on with my journey? I know how present is but I cannot understand how things will be like when I go away. When I never come back. When I know that your face won't be in front of me anymore.

I am being very realistic. I know that I cannot change things, I know you can but I won't let you, becuase simply now I know that I cannot I am in the bottom. Anyway, you know it, I know you do, I know that when you see my eyes you see that I am no longer living. So? Do you really care? Sadly, I know you really do, because you know what you did. Because you know that I won't be able to heal the my soul again. Do you want the truth? It is not like that... I will be able to heal my body, I will be able to try to live again...

but, the thruth is, that you were my soul... and, as far as I know, a person without a soul is just a plain dead body.

Hi! People, This morning I woke up kinda angry and I spent all the morning thinking about things that should I do or I shouldn't. So here it is the deal, I created this blog to make myself clear and think about others things! And I wanna you to join me in it!

You just have to write a comment about whatever that is in your mind and you want others to know, just tell us what are you thinking right know, what were you thinking this morning, what were you thinking when you went to sleep...

Just let something in here, please, it would make me happy and I hope that other people out there would get happier aswell.

[If you wanna read the blog before this, I putted it there but it is still kinda new]

In the same moment that you hear things that you had never imagine, you realized that things had broken so long ago...

As you turn away, you think if it is really posible that all that you did was for nothing...As you start walking, you think if it is posible that things cannot be as they were in the past... As you look above, you think if it is posible that you truly deserve the betrayal...

But you stay strong, because you knew that you never had nothing, because you knew that that person was never there after all, because you knew that you never would achieve the happiness...

Tears did't come out, now is not a posibility, now it is a fact, a thruth... You stand, because things were clear since the very beginning.

Anyway, while all things are falling apart, when you soul is turning into pieces, when the air that blew under your wings left... You stay right there, thinking about the past that has gone, the future that will never be true..

Simply,that person was your whole life and now is not there anymore so... you are not living anymore and you get a terribly fear... a fear that you were feeling so long ago... And you just wanna be alive, you just wanna feel again, you just wanna have something when you have nothing...

Just...Hoping for Hope...

Hi people! I have a big doubt and as you know about TV and all the stuff you can maybe answer it! The deal is that I didn't get the inscription to do the carrear I wanted to do I maybe I won't be able to study that! So now I've been thinking that I could study another thing (at least for a year, while I wait for the other carrear) but I don't know exacly how is the thing i'm thinking about! I wanna see if I can stufy something about tv... I love the marketing, the camera and all the stuff and I think I could be really good in the image field (photography in tv, marketing, etc...) So, anyone can tell me about it? I mean if someone study it or is gonna study it, or know something about the theme! Please, help me, I need too much info! XD

PD: I posted a blog with links to videos and no one has seen them! People! They are funny videos! You should see them! XD

Hi people! Yesterday I was with a friend and we were looking videos. I found some "interesting" videos XD! And I want you to see them... (Please, let a comment and say which one has made you laugh out loud! Which one is the best?)

The first one: This one is about people that always do things... but not very well!!! Falling and falling over and over! Here it is...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7x_ovnFsZk&mode=related&search=

The second one: This one is so funny! XD The new dancing **** Seehow this people dance!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uOtLTVnipjQ&NR=1

Number 3: My personal favorite! People that trainhardly tobe a great fighter... but they are not right? (This video is kinda famous so you maybe have seen it already)

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/243343/i_hope_you_like_pain/

Number 4: This video is the one that you always says "Ohhhhh! That hurts!!!" People that will be in the hospital a long time and boys... that will never be fathers! XD (If you don't like people falling and all that don't see it)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rS6R_hGebKM

Ok! I hope you enjoy them all! Please tell me what do you thing about them! XD

PD: This is not about the videos above, it's another thing that maybe will be good for Charmed, supernatural, buffy fans... A new show called Reaper is gonna start in the CW and I found an advertisement (spoiler) about the pilot. You just have to take a look (please when you see the battle between the fire person just close your eyes, because it is shown the whole fight!!!) It's a way to see how it is gonna be! but like all spoiler and tv advets. they usually show too much! Well here you have the link:

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/631625/the_reaper_new_from_the_cw_this_fall/

Hi, neng!

I've just finished the reviews of Charmed season 8. If you wanna have a look... they are not the ones in one parragraph, a lot of them are big! very big! Xd

Anyway, I'm doing contributions and they are accepting me! Xd Maybe someday I could be a Charmed Contributor that would be great... And prepare, because I wanna review some things more! Xd

Well, that's it. Now, I'm going to see a film. See you later