So, this weekend I completed the legendary Final Fantasy VII. It was okay, I guess. The plot was interesting near the end, but it really wasn't all it was hyped up to be. The ending was too soon to me(I am well aware that it continues off into lots of spin-offs, and am about to start CC or DoC), and it dragged on with battles every two seconds.

Vin recommended I use Vincent, Cloud, and Cid(or Barret, I can't remember which), but I used Yuffie instead and boy do I not regret it. Vincent's limit breaks would continue throughout the battle, which after some trial and error wasn't so bad, I guess, and Cloud could never manage to get the jump on Yuffie and Vincent in terms of stats. After getting Yuffie's final weapon, she became not only my mage(white and black), but also my strongest offense, leaving Cloud to be defense and Vincent to be...well, Vincent.

It didn't steal my heart like X and VI, but it did give one tear jerker - that scene where Tifa and the group find Cloud in Mideel. That obnoxious background noise sounded like someone crying out in pain, so I naturally associated it with Cloud, and it broke my heart to see him so broken. To those of you who judge AC Cloud as emo and disagree with him, deal with it because he earned it!

My main petpeeve in the game was being forced to have certain members in the party at a certain battle times. Tifa and Aerith were very inconvenient because they were always ten levels under.

Now that VII is under my belt, I'm currently still attempting to beat KH:Re:Coded(haven't played it in awhile due to school/above), and am about to embark on either/both the first FF game or one of the VII spin-offs. Any of you have an opinion of how I should go about this?

Not many of you know this, but I am attending an anime convention this July by the name of Ikasucon(Located in Fort Wayne, Indiana). I have already pre-registered, 2/3 of my cosplays are ready(I was Xion at a previous anime con, so I have that ready, L from Death Note wear a white-t and jeans, so check on that, and I need the jacket for Yuuri Shibuya), and am helping the 10-20 people going with me get ready as well.

So why the rant about hotel rooms?

Apparently, this year we will be forced to pay in advance...by the end of January. Which is, you know, TUESDAY!!!!!! Ugh, why are things in life not easy. Sigh.

I encourage everyone to attend Ikasucon. It was a great first con for me, and it's small, you can stay in the hotel attached to the convention center, and my group will be doing an Organization XIII panel :D

So, just thought I vent via this conveniently accessible blog.

I hope that if I see any of you at my panel, you'll say hi! I'm friendly, I promise!

Seven months ago, on the couch a close acquaintence, I came across the wonderfully comedic skit on youtube.com call Demyx Time. It brought me so much joy and my friends began to ramble about the plot in Kingdom Hearts and just like that, I was hooked. By June, I had every game(save for re:coded and BBS(due to recommendations in not getting it and lack of psp respectively). By August I had everyone of them beat(except for the ones I didn't own). Then, as Emil watched me and supported me in my struggles in the worlds of light and darkness, she told me that I would probably like Final Fantasy X. Since we were over halfway through II(I played them in chronological order; yes, that means I played a few days in 358, stopped and played Re:Com, then continued 358), we decided to beat X afterwards. By the end of October, not only did we have X beat, but X-2 as well(with 100% the first time through, mind you...stupid Tidus :() And now, here I am in January, with all of the main final fantasy games(well, the ones with #'s) as well.

That isn't a bad thing, I know, and sounds like I'm just rambling, but honestly, this is a problem. Six years ago, a once-close friend of mine introduced me to this wonderful website called fanfiction.net. Typical nerdy, book loving me feel head over heels and has read the majority(and good) Sasuke Uchiha and Sakura Haruno fics(my then obsession. With how Naruto is going nowadays...we won't talk about that). Then after I grew out of Naruto, fanfiction continued to influence my developing brain and now I feel ill if I've not looked at the sight once a day. Thank goodness for my iPhone is all I can say.

The year I discovered fanfiction, I quickly wrote my own. It's not half-bad for a 12 year old child...but bad to transfer to the internet for the 18 year-old I am now. This year is going to be a big fanfiction year for me, as I am going to be posting so much, so fast, all so I can present my baby for the world to judge.

My life is going great, right?

Wrong! Now with this sudden Squeenix obssession, my mind is trying its damndest to escape its current track and set off on a Squeenix one. I've let it play a little bit, so I didn't explode, but now I'm finding myself forcing my fingers to type the thing I love most in the world! All because I want to unravel the mysteries that Squeenix games hold in their plots.

The love of my life(husband excluded) is fanfiction. It has also been my obssession. Now it's facing a new rival...actual plot that is cannon, versus the fannon ones we love so much.

I need some balance in my life, and thankfully, the KHE has given me that. It helps me focus on what's important while also giving my brain its healthy dose of Squeenix interaction. Even if we only have 4 active members, we will revive that union if it kills us!

Sorry for the rant, everyone. Needed to clear me head and this blog is convinently at my fingertips.

I love plot. Period.

Now I'm getting it from two sources.

Hopefully I'll be able to recreate it just as beautifully.

Feelings of accomplishment. They are the reason that life doesn't always suck. As of today, I can proudly say that I own every main FF title(those with #'s), every Kingdom Hearts title, a FFX and X-2 guide book, KH, KH2, 358/2, and BBS guide book, and every KH soundtrack and FF x and X-2 soundtracks. Good day.

I support most types of love. Yaoi, yuri, cannon, fanon, loli, shota, etc. When I was first exposed to this lovely world, it was through Demyx Time(thanks for that, Jen ;)). Unlike most people around me believe, this had little to do with who I ship and why.

First and foremost, my OTP in this lovely fandom is Roxas and Xion. Why? Besides the fact that they are cannon,I'll get to that in a minute.

So who I pair:

Riku and Sora

Xemnas and Saix

Axel and Demyx

Marluxia and Larxene

Roxas and Xion

Repliku(Riku Replica) and Namine

Terra and Aqua

Leon and Cloud

the rest of my Final Fantasy cannon(coming soon)

Let's start small:

Axel and Demy. They are friends(some translations of the novels and extra things call them close friends), are elemental oppisites, and Axel is, cannonically, the only one to ever have stuck up for Demyx. Yes he may still talk about the blond behind his back, but everyone in the Orginization does so. They're personalities would not clash and their relationship could be quite stable. In KH:3D, I hope to see more of the Orginization and learn more about them that way I can have more facts to support this pairing.

Marluxia and Larxene. Do I believe that Marluxia is gay Oh yes! Flaming pink hair is not for straight men, everyone. Yet I think that we all can agree that Larxene is manly enough to keep him in check. The fights with her in Re:Com were some of the worst(Vexen wins and has tramatised me). They are extremely close and have conspired to take over the Orginization, as we all know. Don't most partners-in-crime also become partners-in-bed(if not so already?) Is this pairing so impossible(the majority of fanfiction feels not).

Xemnas and Saix. Is there anyone out there who does not pair them, or can we just all agree and call this one cannon?

Terra and Aqua. This one may be a bit onesided, honestly, but Aqua spends the majority of her time in BBS trying to prove Terra's innocence. When she fails, she blames herself and even goes so far as to completely sacrifice herself to save him. Terra is dense and hard to read(when it comes to emotions of the heart), so I have yet to get a good grasp on his feelings, but hopefully KH:3D will provide some answers for me from his side.

Repliku and Namine. I don't know how many of you have played Reverse/Rebirth(comes after Sora's part), but Repliku, despite his being programed to defend Namine, does actually care for her because he wants to. He tells Riku so, if any of you remember that. And Namine, the sweet, compassionate person that she is, cares for him as well. It may be pity, but I feel that Namine wouldn't pity anyone because of there situation. Often times they are found together throughout both Sora and Riku's portions of Re:Com, and they defend one another. Repliku even sacrifices himself for her. Do NOT confuse her feelings for Repliku as feelings for Riku. That wouldn't be fair because Repliku and Riku have two different personalities(in my opinion) and two different goals.

Leon and Cloud. Their personalities would work so well with one another, wouldn't you agree? They also work together to restore Hollow Bastion back to it's Radiant Garden glory. Both seem to suffering from the loss of something important to them, and would turn to each other before they would their friends. Hopefully we'll see more interactions between them in Kingdom Hearts(ignoring Final Fantasy in this case, everyone).

Roxas and Xion. They are cannon. No, Roxas is not in love with Xion because of Sora. He had no idea that was what she was. And no, Xion doesn't care for Roxas because he is Sora nobody(though I personally believe he is Ventus'). And no, Roxas is not in love with Axel. He is his mentor and best friend. He admires Axel. Just because Axel is quite in love with him does not mean that he has to love him back. In fact, he grows jealous of Axel in 358/2. Poor Xion is lost and confused and relies heavily on Roxas for support as she tries to come to terms with her existence. They ban together halfway through the game and stay that way for a long time. Part of me believes that they will be reunited eventually. And as for the Roxas and Namine pairing, they interact only once or twice throughout the entire series! And it's only because Namine has the answers that Roxas is looking for. Their little heartfelt speeches to one another during those final moment of KH2 were nothing but Square trying to prove that Sora and Kairi are together. Attempt failed, in my opinion.

And finally, Riku and Sora. They are best friends. They grew up together. Kairi may have been there too, but she is actually the cause of all of their problems as well. In the first game I almost paired Sora and Kairi. Then I went, chronologically, to Re:Com and decided heavily against it. After all, Sora forgets about Kairi yet remembers Riku. Hm... Then, after he finally remembers her, his attention is still focused on Riku: finding Riku, talking to Riku, saving Riku, etc. Kairi is just lost but Riku is his main proirity. In Reverse/Rebirth, Riku's entire goal changes to reuniting with Sora and battling the darkness within. Next we go to 358/2. Riku's purpose becomes completing Sora's memories. He makes no mention of Kairi at all, as he did in Re:Com as well. In fact, Kairi becomes so insignifigant in those two games that I wondered if Square was trying to ween her out and replace her with Xion. I would have been so happy if they did. Then, finally, we arrive in KH2. For everytime that Sora mentions looking for Kairi, he mentions looking for Riku in the same sentence, and a few times after. As he learns more about the Orginization, Sora begins to realize things about Riku as well. When he was reunited with Kairi, it was so casual that I was surprised.He is still conflicted about Riku and I half expected a battle to happen when they reunited. What did I get? A sobbing Sora dropping to his knees and sniffling into Riku's hand, shaking with relief at seeing him once more.Wow. That was so straight guys. And Riku just stood their, smiling paitiently as he waited for Sora to collect himself. Then when Riku reveals his little Ansem problem, Sora not only dismisses it, he even attempts to lift Riku's spirits. Meanwhile Kairi is silent and watching the entire things. In BBS, Riku is described as 'caring deeply for his friend Sora.' Coincidence? I am morbidly curious to see what little scenes will show me in KH:3D. And will Kairi even be in that game? Or have they dropped her as I expected them to?

These are the main pairings I ship in Kingdom Hearts. I try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt(I, personally, do believe that Saix and Axel had a thing at one point, but firmly believe it ended on bad terms, hence the tension between the two close friends). I can't help it if the facts don't line up.

As a fanfiction writer since the sixth grade, I started out writing Naruto fanfiction(you know, when the plot was still decent?). It wasn't until the eighth grade that I created a persona for myself. Kida Asumi orginally started off as a cousin of Uchiha Sasuke. An orphaned pirate, she was shy and quiet and in a relationship with Inuzuka Kiba.

Then DNAngel happened.

It was not love at first sight. No, I did not decide to throw away my happy marriage right away. It took a dream with a cold beach and a warm towel to make me realize who my soul mate was. Satoshi Hikari, a broken angel; the reason for the hell Kida goes through and the inspiration for her happiness. Kida may have different persona's now(in the forms of Ida Highwind, Natalie Portgas, and Harper Jeevas, to name a few), and may have different families, but if my husband somehow magically enters those worlds, these women would drop their spouses in a heartbeat. Kida and Satoshi are soul mates. It's as simple as that.

He is probably in love with Daisuke, as much of the fandom suspects. Yet, Daisuke is most certainly not interested and is in love with Riku, his girlfriend. Then there is Risa(the b**ch). She jumps between men so much that my poor, unstable and insecure husband could not possibly find happiness with her.

So I saved him. I'm no angel and our relationship is nowhere near as perfect as it could be(I mean, affairs are messy and hurtfull things, after all), yet we are finally happy and at peace with our life.

Curious? Head over to fanfiction.net and read my profile(the Captin of Sirius) for more information.

Satoshi is the biggest part of my mental state and I would like to make this aware to this community.

Some people pair for fun. Others, because they're bored. Then there are those who pair the cannon because the cannon is true. I do all three. An open romantic, I often pair because I can see how far a relationship between two people can go, and the good it would be for both of them. I am also open minded when I pair. When I first get into a fandom, I look and see what other's pair, then decide for myself, keeping my opinions off the record. Now, as I begin to dive into the true cannon of the many fandoms I love, I can finally support my pairings with evidence.

I am a logical pair-er. I never shove two people together because they happened to be standing next to each other in a photo, or they have no one else to be with. If I want to get someone out of the way of an OTP, then I look for an obvious choice. My biggest challenge currently is Kairi, but more on that at a later date. I overanalyze and dissect the truth from the facts and come to my own conclusions. If any of you disagree with my pairings, I expect a fact filled argument to be presented to me or I will ignore it.

A good debate binds a community; from what I here, the majority of the forums need it.

Blogs to come:

Kingdom Hearts pairings

Kingdom Hearts theories

Reviews of various Kingdom Hearts games

Final Fantasy VI pairings

Review of Final Fantasy VI

Review of Final Fantasy X and X-2

Pairings of X and X-2

Squeenix and their weak, final boss'

Crack pairings that are not so illogical