I'm the red head

I have officially started on my quest for God, or lack of.

I work on Sundays with this other guy from India who is a Hindu. Once I found this out, I could not stop asking him questions, and he loves the fact I'm so interested in it. We've talked about everything from rebirth to the fact that there HAS to be aliens on some planet somewhere in the galaxy. I find it impossible to think otherwise. He and I have a lot of the same ideas, and I feel that he's going to be a very important part of my life.

I was always interested in going to a Buddhist meeting, but today really was the turning point. We had Geshe La come to our high school and talk to us at lunch. He spoke about how every object in the universe is made from the same material of atoms and that it's all connected. Also he spoke of how we label everything in our lives. What's the difference between a friend and an enemy? The label we give them, but they are both human, and we cannot be angry at our enemies, but feel deep sorrow for their situation and current birth. I'm going to his teachings this Sunday at 11:00am-12:30pm. After that I go to work from 2:00pm-7:00pm, and then after that I'm going over and meeting with the Mormons from the Church of Jesus Christ.

I'm not real sure what to think about Mormons. I have a couple mormon friends, and they are the nicest and most tolerant of the Christian denominations I've met. I'm interested to see what they have to say, and hopefully I can understand better.

I have too many thoughts in my head without direction, and from a combination of these three religions hopefully I can better understand myself and the world around me.

I'm curious to see where I end up in 10 years.

God only knows.

I sold my gamecube to GameStop. I thought it would be a sad day, but I didn't really care. I bought Rainbow Six Vegas and Beautiful Katamari with the trade in monday and still have a little left on a card. I lost my PC afficiando emblem because I own too many 360 games :D....and I ask myself why I'm always poor :lol:.

I went and saw Jumper with Lydia and some friends last night. It sucked, don't watch it. Cutting yourself would be a better choice then spending money on such a horrible movie.

Lydia and I's 1 year is on the 22nd of this month. It's very exciting. We're going to try and go camping depending on the weather.

I've decided I want to be a Buddhist.

I've made a plan to stop chewing my nails. I've been trying to stop for 4 hours now and caught myself chewing on my nails twice.

I'm really tired so I can only talk in direct sentences.

Fallout 3.

Bye.

I did it finally....I bought Guitar Hero 3. I feel like I have joined the club now. I played Slow Ride then had to go to work. I can't wait....home...Guitar Hero....now I can do the Co-op achievements for GH2 and GH3 with my girlfriend and 2 guitars :D.

Speaking of girlfriend, lydia and I are almost at our 11th month! This is the crazy longest relationship we both have ever been in. For valentines day I think we're gonna make pot brownies lol.

I'm still at work for another hour and 38 minutes....

I hate this job

First things first. I don't care what anyone says, I loved Cloverfield. I went and saw it on Friday with my girlfriend. The video camera concept is just amazing, I love it so much. I did get a little sick to my stomach, but then I just looked at the floor for a couple seconds and it was fine. The monster, was really awesome, and scared the crap out of me. I was on the edge of my seat the entire time. Some of the story, yes, a little meh at times, but I ignored that fact because I liked the movie so much.

Saturday night, Lydia and I went to a big party at my friends house. I got pretty messed up, and was unable to stand for most of the night, so it was awesome. This like 300lb black guy named "fatty" got pretty wasted and fell over in her kitchen. Now, if you haven't seen 4 people trying to pick a passed out 300lb black guy off a kitchen floor, then you haven't lived. It had to be the funniest thing I've ever seen.

Lydia got a little sick and was getting hit on by these gangster white guys, might was really annoying, but after laying down for a little bit she came back into the kitchen and was better. I myself am very suprised I didn't get sick for as much as I had to drink. We were doing like whiskey and red wine shots, which sounds nasty, but it wasn't too bad really. I met some really awesome people there, and overall it was a really fun party.

Anyhoo, I shall get off now, I hope you kids had a good weekend.

I haven't been doing a whole heck of a lot really.

I purchased quite a few 360 games, and am now just trying to get through them all.

Lydia and I are just about to hit 10 months! and our year is just around the corner. I couldn't be happier with our relationship now. After a couple bumps in the road, everything has smoothed out, and it's nothing short of perfect.

Lydia and I went to the Music Hall last night, and I'm pretty sure I dislocated my thumb. It's all swollen and hurts pretty bad. I wasn't able to play my 360 last night it hurt so bad :( but it's doing better today, so hopefully after work I can get some more gaming in.

Anyway, I shall return to work. You kids have fun!

Edit:

Games I own

Assassin's Creed, Splinter Cell Double Agent, Halo 3, Mass Effect, Guitar Hero 2, Call of Duty 4, Crackdown, Gears of War, Bioshock, Marvel UA, Dead Rising, and Overlord.

I've finished Halo 3, Gears of War, Splinter Cell, Mass Effect, Crackdown, and Assassin's Creed, but I'm still working on the other ones.

I finally got one! gamertag - madcow19

I only have Halo3 and assassians creed right now, but hopefully CoD4 soon.

The new WoW patch makes me really want to start playing again :( But I just have no time and it would be such a bad idea to start playing again right now.

The HCU is setting up two servers, a Team Fortress 2 one, and a Half-Life2 Deathmatch server. It's going to be awesome.

I'm so freaking bored at work, and I'm here for another 2 hours and 19 minutes.

This blog's gonna be short.

I don't like Creed, but I love those lyrics.

Today was a bad day...

First off, I haven't been feeling too good, mentally or physically. I work way too freaking much, and it's really getting to me. I can't wait till I have to reapply for next semester and get to change my hours. I'm not working past 10, and I'm sure as hell not working weekends.

At lunch I was supposed to meet Jordan by Joanna's car. I get there, no Jordan, and no Joanna's car. I was very sad, and felt extremely lonely. So I just walked around by myself for lunch, very depressing.

I also took too much Adderall, and I'm really tweeking out on it. Remember kids, don't take pills that aren't yours. Though fun they may be, if you take too much, it's a nightmare. I've chewed off the nails, and I'm working on the skin on my hands. I need some gum really badly, but I don't have any money. You can't take out anything less then a $20 from the ATM machine, and I have $19.74 in there.....

So I'm walking on campus, going to the library, and I see this church guy preaching to some students. I decided to stop and listen to what he was saying. It went something like this,

"I'm sick of all these homos in our neighborhood. I was out eating with my family, and there's these two homos behind me talking. Yes, there were homos where i was eating! I told my children about how being a homo is a sin, and that they're going to hell. One of them must have heard me and said" preacher trying to sound gay "excuse me, excuse me, there's nothing wrong with being gay I told them, yes! Yes there is a problem with it and you're going to hell!"

That's all I could listen to, I was getting ready to throw up. What's even worse is people were listening to this man, and agreed with him! I wanted to stop and say something so badly, but a wise teacher of mine once said, "there's no point in trying to agrue with ignorance and stupidity. They won't even listen to you"

I finally got into the library and felt like crying. Is this seriously what the world has come to? Doesn't Christanity teach acceptance? Love thy neighbor? DON'T JUDGE? I sure remember reading those lines in the Bible, but I guess the church decided to just take them out. You know where the whole thing about gay sinners is? In the old freaking testament. You know what else is in there? Slavery. So if being gay is a sin then by God having slaves is ok! Even Jesus had slaves!

I'm so sick of all of this. Shouldn't we be worrying about better things then someones sexual preferance? Or am I just crazy?

I'm at work...I work way too much. Since I work part time at the University of Arkansas computer labs, I have to reapply each semester, and I can choose to work over breaks or not. It's pretty awesome, considering I get to change my hours. I plan on working a lot less then I am now, and hopefully I get a raise.

I got my drivers lisence last week, and guess what happened? The CV joint got knocked out of the tranmission, leaving me dead in the middle of the road. Now it's in the shop :(. Hopefully I get it out soon, I hate not having a car.

I've been strangely depressed lately. I think all this school, and all this work is starting to really catch up to me.

So I'm an officer in the Headcrab Union. Kinda cool, I wish things were a little better, but the whole union system has suffered since they changed everything. Oh well right? A wise teacher of mine once said, living in the past is like driving a car looking only out of the rear view mirror, sooner or later you're bound to crash.

Kane & Lynch looks pretty cool.

My asian studies class has this trip over to summer to fly to Nepal, and stay there for a month, and trek in the Himalian Moutains. I would love to go, but it's going to be very expensive, and I don't have a whole lot of money. I think we're gonna find out tomorrow exactly how much it's going to cost.

I really want to buy a 360 by the end of this year.

Next year I think I'm going to save up and build a new computer.

Anyhoo I have 57 minutes till I get off work, I can't wait!