Hello all! Last blog was In the End by Linkin Park.

Just a couple of things this time around. I feel like I'm robbing you all of a good blog. Sorry about that but time is limited.

Life in general: California is on F I R E. A section of my town was on fire for a while. They shut down the interstate. I'm okay though. But this made me realize that whenever something bad in the world happens I take a mental roll call of every one here. Like the earthquake in China. I was panicked until I saw Lottie posted a new blog. I haven't heard from Jenne yet. I'm not sure if she's further north or south of where I am. I've talked to Clo though. She's not too far from me. I think she's ok.

Other sh!t: you remember when I said I'll have to house to myself while parental unit M is gone? Things have changed. Her annoying ass brother will be staying with me. She told me like this:

Mom: I trust you. But for my own peace of mind I want your uncle to stay with you.

Me: So, basically, you don't trust me and uncle will be here to babysit, yes?

Mom: No, I said I do trust you.

Me: You said but. That cancels out everything you just said. So just tell me the truth and we can get on with it.

She kept saying she trusted me...but. It kills me softly. If she doesn't trust me I would rather she tell me than me walk around not really knowing.

Writing: I'm still working on a bunch of things but I'm starting to feel like Jenne, overwhelmed.

HHT
YoBling challenge
RaVe challenge (AGAIN)
Greather (I'm still working on it)
Dreams (you are not ready)
Speedle/OC
SoNic fic
and a possible Grillows (kiss my ass, I've given GSR. An entire fic even, kiss my ass)
Other side of the law fic ( I was gonna do it for Miami but I'm doing it for LV instead because I want Lottie to read it. Feel special.)

Internet connection: Things are starting to look up right now. We'll be using SBC DSL instead of comcast (who gets fisted) However, we need to activate the account first. All i know is that if I don't have internet connetion while mother is away, I'm going to kill my uncle. The only thing keeping me sane are the text messages and The Sims 2. By the way Heather I know a bomb diggidy site where you can download stuff for your sims. You gotta register but its free. Modthesims2.com. Yes I'm a dork.

Whore: Well seeing has how I'm not on that much I have to give the many tasks as me to someone else.

Heather: I'm asking because we're both on the same forums if you could update the lists and what not. Miami birhtdays, where are you (Miami) and the Wendy thread. If you could do that that would be awesome

Lottie: Hold down the Evanescence for me til I get back on full time.

Lil: You are to uphold the random. You're already doing a bang up job

Ellen: You're the FF whore until further notice. I still wanna read that Gil/Doc fic. :lol:

Kris: You are also gonna have to be an FF whore. Look for some good angst for me. I'm betaing a super, sugary sweet fic and I need to balance that out with some character death. :D (I'm only slightly kidding)

I think that is all. Right now I'm kickin' it with my cousin at my nan's house yo. (You can say it Heather. I promise you won't sound stupid :lol: )

Happy hunting ;)

Just a real quick one this time. I just wanted to say that you guys are awesome. AND LOTTIE AND JENNE TEXTED ME!! TEXTED ME! TEXTED MEEEEEEEEEEE! It brightened my day...even if I was kncoked the hell out on some sleep.

But anyway, um, I super dooper hella extra miss you guys and I have no idea when the internet is going to get fixed. So...yeah.

Recent news: No one is going to Vegas for the wedding. No one can afford it. So now I feel like less of an ass for not going in the first place. I'm moving to Sacramento for sure. The only problem is the when. My boss didn't win the election but she got enough votes to make the guy that won nervous. There is always next time. Um...I may kill someone in HHT. I was bit by an evil plot bunny and after speaking to my consultant, who shall remain nameless for their own protection, and I'm going through with it. Um...I'm doing a fic of the random CSI dreams I've had. Acid trip acoming. And I haven't worked on the epic triangle-cube fic that much. However, I think its more of a side project for me and Jenne because I know she has loads on her plate too. Um...I think I'm forgetting something but I don't have time to think all that through.

I EFFIN MISS YOU GUYS!

Happy hunting ;)

Last song was Simple and Clean by Utada Hikaru. NO one got it just like I expected. Don't even guess this one. No one is going to get this either unless they're also from California...or the Bay for that matter.

Well this blog is also kinda meaningless. Um...I'm going to Las Vegas to see my sister get married. Sadness is that I'm going to miss my best friends high school graduation. So I'll be gone for a few days with NO internet access. I've gone one day cold turkey and I just can't do it. You guys think happy thoughts for me. Mkay? Thank you.

I love and miss you guys very much.

*ashmahalas*

UPDATED: Yeah so...I'm not going. That seems messed up doesnt it? If you knew the situation, you would still think it was messed up. However, if you don't want me to kill someone, you would agree that not going would be in my best interest. I already called my sister and let her know so now I just have to hear That Woman's nonsense. *sigh* I'm still gonna need those happy thoughts.

Roads by Portishead. Heather got it. She already got the unstoppable Greg :D

Just a quick blog. The computer at home (I'm at work) isn't letting me go on the internet. So I may or may not be on regularly. Sorry. F*cked up how when Jenne comes back I can't be on that often. Irony. Love you guys and for those with my number, text me.

Last blog was Fields of Innocence. Lottie got it. She won my love and affection. :D

Well, it's the end of the month. Yeah, this is the end of the month blog. For the newcomers, this is where I recap the events that took place this month. Seeing as how I have not killed anyone nor myself, I'd say it was a pretty decent month.

Well, it's my three month anniversary...sort of. *plays LP* Victoria will be no secret at the end of the day its our anniversary *shoots LP* Wrong song. Oh well. Let's get sentimental. No, I'm not gonna pull a Lil and make you cry. I just wanna say, I love you guys. I feel like I've known you guys forever. We're more alike than I would prefer, but whatever.

Clo: now known as Mama Clo. I think she was the first friend I made...and we met after I realized I was stalking her in the Miami threads. :lol:

Jenne: I don't even know how to put into words how completely and totally awesome/wendy she is.

Heather: Swear you're in my head. But that's fine. I think you're the closet to me other than Jenne out of everyone in the Wendy bunch. Mainly because you sleeptype.

Weights/Kris: Hello. I am your future self. Be afraid.

Lottie: You are the funniest, most sarcastic however the hell old you are I think I've ever met. And I am also your future self. Yes, be afraid.

Lil: I'm mean to you for no reason at all but you take it well. *applause* few can do that :D. I love you long time though. AND I DON'T DO DRESSES!

Ellen: You're like my confidante or something. Thank you for listening and all that jazz ;)

Charlotte: You are still a new friend to me. And yet, I think you're one of the craziest among us. Yay you.

BM: honestly I'm still kinda intimidated by you. But you make people feel welcome and like an old friend you haven't seen in a while. Very few people can do that without being creepy. Fortunately, you are not one of those people. :lol:

Suz: The Nag. And that's okay with me :D Think of me as another brat.

Gwen: you make me smile when I see that you're on. No idea why. But thanks for the smile :D

Chantel: RULER OF ALL THINGS MAC!! *bows* *is not worthy*

Eric: *sigh* Swear, you're the little brother. But that's okay. Cuz you're wendy.

Time for my thoughts, or as Lottie likes to call them, my gems:

-Looks like I won't be going to Vegas for Sibling Unit S's wedding. She keeps changing the date for it...probably because she's sick of hearing Parental unit M b!tch

-Tylenol 8-hour is the best damn pain reliever I've ever taken. Vicodin ain't got sh!t on 8 hour Tylenol.

-I am addicted to Dr. Pepper. There has got to be something in it. Friggin ridiculous

-Depending on you the way I do is the dumbest thing I could possibly do. But who else can I trust?

-If I had a twin I don't think we would get along very well. We'd get on each others nerves

-I flipped through my photo album and realized that as I got older my smile got smaller and smaller until it didn't exist at all

-It's funny. The people ya go to school with and swear you'll stay friends with, fade into the background until they're not even a thought. You don't even remember their names.

-Being invisible isn't always a bad thing

-The line 'I'm a sarcastic, pessimistic statistic, Suffering from chronic depression, paranoia and road rage' shall be amended to 'enjoying paranoia and road rage' until further notice

-Loki and I often speak in British and New York accents for sh!ts and giggles

-Speaking of him, he was deeply disappointed in me when I told him I have AIM. Yes, I conformed for all of you *points at you*

-His smile could melt frozen butter

-Can vampires get AIDs?

-I'm here, there and everywhere without leaving this place

-A broken heart is not easily mended, however, it is possible

-he makes me seem like a DORK! Making me sing and what not *mumbles*

-I'VE FALLIN IN LOVE WITH YOU!! There! I said it!! But if you aren't gonna be there when I get up, tell me now. I wouldn't be able to handle the heartbreak of you not being there when I look up

-sadly, I'm with you but dream of another

-I think I still love him. Damn all our dreams to hell.

Done with that. Moving onto Ringtones. My phone goes off and its like an assemble of randomness.:

1. All Around Me
2. The Doom Song
3. Eleanor Rigby
4. Elmo's song with a twist
5. Good Enough
6. Hide and seek
7. Imperial March
8. Its Alive
9. Its Yo Mama
10. Just like you imagined
11. Oompa Loompa song
12. R You That Somebody
13. Sanctuary
14. Simple and Clean
15. Stewie
16. Teardrop
17. Twisted Nerve
18. White Rabbit

Recent random news

My mom really has lost her mind this time. If you didn't know, she's in the Army reserve. She's going to Texas for two weeks for Captain training. Meaning she will not be in California, let alone Stockton, for two entire weeks. Do you know what that means to me? I'll have the whole house to myself. For. Two. Weeks. PARTY TIME!! No I'm kidding. If I threw a party I would have to clean up after those people and I hate nothing more than cleaning up after people who didn't care about the mess they made in the first place. If anything, I'll stay out later than curfew and maybe have a few friends over for a kick back. Nothing major for the mothers reading, I promise.

I may be moving soon. That is a huge might. I might be moving to Sacramento to live with a friend. Well actually, she's a friend of my sister but we're still really close. She needs someone she can trust to help her around the house and with her son. I need to free myself of Parental Unit M. Pretty good catch right? Well, ironically, the only way it will work will be in A) Mommy dearest sponsors me for awhile which will require 400 dollars a month OR B) I get a steady job and help pay rent myself. Hopefully, the lady I work for now will be elected into office and I'll have a steady job as her staff or something like that. Plus, the friend I'll be moving in with, thinks I have 'potential as a music producer' and said that seeing as how she already has her own web design business, we could partner up once I'm legit as far as being a producer is concerned. Future is looking bright and I'm counted my blessings. Now let's hope things work out.

My brother and his wife, Bianca, were pregnant a few months ago. Yes, were. She miscarried and we were all broken up about it. Especially my nephew. He called the baby Pickle because he was told it was about the size of a pickle. So about a month ago, my brother sent me a text talking about how 'the heartbeat is strong'. Of course I have a WTF are you talking about moment and then I asked 'Bianca's preggers?' The answer is yes. They're pregnant again. The whole family is JUICED (exicted)!!!! Ima be an auntie...again. Some more. And my nephew is convinced its gonna be a girl. And her name will be Bria. Funny because my brother's name is Breland, his wife's name is Bianca and my nephew is a junior. The B Reeds. Cute...*vomits*

And last but not least: Me love him very long time. Me told him me love him very long time. Him tell me same. Me scared as hell.

Regarding the road trip:

1. I am not going to be the only one driving. Jenne and Weights should be able to drive in the states when the time comes...dammit.
2. We are sooooooo playing Guitar Hero on the trip. Add it to the list of activities. I'm saving up for an Xbox 360 as we speak
3. I am not wearing a dress. Kiss my ass. I'm not doing it
4. We must go visit Suz so we can meet Brat. Period. :D
5. Very few of us will be able to drink. I am one of those people. No I will not buy you alcohol no matter what puppy eyes you throw at me. However, if I ever push my limit which I won't, I'm depending on you guys to save me if some ugly guy starts flirting with me and I'm flirting back. :lol:
6. We're gonna need a 15 passenger van even though there's gonna be only eight of us
7. We must call everyone in the phone books with the names of our favorite CSIs. Add that to the list of activities
8. Kris (Weights), don't worry about telling your mama about the road trip. We're just gonna kidnap you.
9. We're gonna need to keep the franjanjan to a minimum. I'd rather not go to jail while on vacation. Even though you know you have real friends when they're sitting in the same jail cell as you. Loki can bail us out. :lol:
10. I pray you guys know the meaning of packing light, changing a tire, and pumping gas. If not, we're cancelling this right now.

For sh!ts and giggles...CROSSOVER SHIPS! Jenne: "Because they're all hoes anyway." These are either ones I've read, ones I've seen wallpapers or videos for or ones that I think would be interesting. I'll show which is which.

Catherine/Horatio-interesting/read (there was on screen chemistry. Do not deny it)
Catherine/Flack-interesting (matching sarcasm and wit?)
Catherine/Mac-interesting (no idea why)
Calleigh/Nick-read (it was a very weird fic)
Calleigh/Warrick-interesting (no idea but they did look fairly decent on camera together)
Calleigh/Mac-wallpapers (I kid you not there were wallpapers)
Calleigh/Danny-interesting (he likes country girls :?)
Stella/Horatio-interesting/read (same as Catherine)
Stella/Warrick-interesting (he would probably see her like another Catherine. The unattainable)
Sara/Horatio-interesting/read (it was a really good fic too)
Sara/Speedle-interesting/read (the fic was weak but I can dig the ship)
Sara/Flack-interesting (they would find the other slightly amusing)
Natalia/Greg-fan video (it was all wrong, just wrong)
Sofia/Speedle-interesting (sarcasm and wit)
Sofia/Ryan-interesting (no idea why)
Sofia/Flack-interesting (sarcasm and wit)
Valera/Greg-interesting (pure geekiness)
Wendy/Adam-interesting (pure awesomeness, or should I say, wendyness) 8)

Song of the Month is: Talk Show Host by Radiohead

Random: I've started to read the Animorphs series all over again for no reason whatsoever.

I may post links later

Happy Hunting ;)

Last blog was Wicked Games by Chorinc Future. I sent you this song Heather. Shame on you. No google-ing the song people.

1. First thing you wash in the shower? Wow. Rude question right off the top. I'll answer though: arms. Does that turn you on? Oh baby oh baby...

2. What color is your favorite hoodie? Dark grey

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Kissed in what way? I kissed parental unit M earlier

4. Do you plan outfits? whats the fun in that?

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? sleepy

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? soda bottle label

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m? aim

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? I won't say. I'm turning it into a fic (Yeah Heather I'm gonna do it)

9. Did you meet anybody new today? not really

10. What are you craving right now? chocolate, soda, sleep, him (that seems so wrong)

11. Do you floss? Yes

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? carrots

13. When was the last time you talked on aim? *sigh* yesterday

14. Are you emotional? I am female, therefore I am emotional

15. Would you dance to the taco song? Sure. Why not :P

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000? I probably tried and then lost count after giggling at the fact that I was so bored that I was counting to 1,000

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? bite

18. Do you like your hair? when its straight

19. Do you like yourself? not really

20. Have you ever met a celebrity? Yep

21. Do you like cottage cheese? nastiness

22. What are you listening to right now? Burn My Shadow by UNKLE

23. How many countries have you visited? Germany, Natherlands, Italy. So 3. Do I count the US?

24. Are your parents strict? Father? In some ways. Mother? She is about things I would never do in the first place

25. Would you go sky diving? Hell no

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? Would you shoot your spouse?

27. Would you throw potatoes at him? No...I would just stab him with my fork

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in? I hope not

29. Have you ever been in a castle? I didn't want to. I preferred sleep :lol:

30. Do you rent movies often? No

31. Who sits in behind you in your math c.lass? Who said I take math?

32. Have you made a prank phone call? Loads of times

33. Do you own a gun? I plead the fifth :D

34. Can you count backwards from 74? I'm sure I could, but I won't

35. Who are you going to be with tonight? Him...if he's lucky ;)

36. Brown or white eggs? Is this a trick question?

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? HOT TOPIC IS NOT PUNK ROCK! *ahem* My Gir sweater

38. Ever been on a train? Unfortunately

39. Ever been in love? I'm beginning to think so :oops:

40. Do you have a cell-phone? Why, yes in fact I do

41. Are you too forgiving? Not at all

42. Do you use chap stick? carmex

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow? No idea

44. Can you use chop sticks? Well enough to get the job done

45. Ever have cream puffs? uh uh

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? Yes. Not nearly as good as Donnie Darko

47. What was the last question you asked? Him: Am I gonna see you soon. Me: Do you want to see me soon?

48. What was the last CD you bought? I think it was Flyleaf's CD

49. Boys or girls? For what?

50. What is your bus number for school? Don't take the bus

51. Is your hair curly? :lol: Nappy? yes

52. Last time you cried? a couples days ago

53. Ever walked into a wall? I'm more aware of my surroundings than that

54. Do looks matter? Not to me

55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun? My Sunglass of Justice 8)

56. Have you ever slapped someone? I know it's strange, But my brain's gone really insane, And, I'm off the chain, Sipping on a fifth of the Golden Grain, I feel like slappin somebody today (slap slap) - Slap by Ludacris

57. Favorite time of the year? Fall

58. Favorite color? black, red, blue

59. Are you sarcastic? Who, me? Nooooooo. Never. :roll:

60. Do you have any tattoos? Not yet

61. The last person you held hands with? Him :D

62. Do you sleep with the TV on? the light bothers me

63. Where was your default picture taken at? Myspace? Home. Facebook? No idea.

64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? That's like asking me if I've ever been in public

65. Do you like your life right now? Can't complain

66. How often do you talk on the phone? less than a teenaged girl does on average, more than I should :P

67. What is your favorite animal? don't really know

68. What was the most recent thing you bought? Pizza

69. Do you have good vision? It's okay

70. Can you hula hoop? Yes, but I did it so well my brother has banned me from ever hula hooping ever again

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater? Forgive, but never EVER forget

72. Do you have a job? Sorta kinda

73. Can you handle the truth? Yes, but the real question is: Can Bush?

74. What are you wearing? I SHALL NOT FUEL YOUR FANTASIES

I won't be posting another blog until the 31st/1st.

Happy Hunting ;)

Last blog was Clint Eastwood by the Gorillaz. Suz got it, which is awesome. So in honor of her, I'm be talking about mothers for a moment.

My parental unit M has lost her ever-loving mind. I love her though, but she's crazy. Here's proof:

Teri (sibling unit S): LEILANI!
Leilani: *is upstairs* WHAT?!?
Teri: SHE SAID IT!
Leilani: *gasp* *runs to the banister* I MISSED IT?!?
Teri: YES!
Leilani: SH!T! I MISSED MOM SAYING SHE WAS CRAZY?
Teri: YES!
Mom: I AM NOT CRAZY
Teri: Everything you say after your admission holds no merit. None.

Leilani: *filling out the Census* You're 47 aren't you?
Mom: shut up Leilani! The windows are open. And I'm 37
Leilani: You're 37 with a 28 year old, a 24 year old and a 19 year old. You were busy weren't you?

Auntie R: *talking about menopause* You wear it well Mary.
Mom: I know it. And my skin is glowing-
Leilani: Your skin is glowing because of the light reflecting off the sweat on your body from those heat flashes.
Mom: *throws couch cushion at me*

Leilani: You're acting up right now Mary
Mom: what did you just call me?
Teri: I believe she called you Mary, which is also your name
Breland (sibling unit B): You were acting up though
Mom: That doesn't mean she can call me that
Breland: Yes it does. We all call you that. And we call you Mary Ellen when you're being a b!tch

Leilani: Mom, mom, ma, momma, mommy, mother, momma, mommy
Mom: WHAT?!?
Leilani: I was gonna say I love you but nevermind

Mom: I love you Leilani
Leilani: that's what they all say

Mom: I need a boyfriend
Leilani: Can't we just get a dog instead?

Mom: Blue is not my color (meaning she doesn't like to repeat herself until she's blue in the face)
Leilani: You say that all the time, everyday and as much as possible

Mom: I DON'T GIVE A F*CK!
Bianca (sister in law): Oh sh!t, she dropped the F-bomb
Breland: TIME TO GO!

Mom: Can I have a kiss?
Leilani: Can you? Are you allowed?
Mom: *kisses my cheek anyway*
Leilani: Aaaaaahhhh! It burns! MAKE IT STOP!
Mom: Shut up Racole!

Leilani: *stares at the wall*
Mom: Leilani? Are you okay? Are you depressed?
Leilani: Why do I have to be depressed? I could have been thinking about how to cure cancer or to solve world hunger.
Mom: Okay, what were you thinking about?
Leilani: HOW MUCH LIFE SUCKS!!

Mom: I baked chicken
Leilani: WHAT THE HELL FOR?
Mom: I was hungry
Leilani: If you were hungry you should have told me to make it. I would have come home to cook for you. That was a waste of chicken
Mom: I know, its not as good as yours
Leilani: I know. For the student has surpassed the master. Never bake chicken ever again

Mom: *making mac and cheese* We're cooking in the kitchen to gether
Leilani: *frying pork chops* *gets burned by grease* SH!T DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT!
Mom: I'm not bad at cooking Leilani
Leilani: I just friggin burned myself
Mom: Oh *mumbles* I know I'm not a bad cook

Teri: Oh my God, Mom. Turn the Gramma off
Leilani: Please! This is not America. This is Germany, they don't like us here!
Mom: I don't care! She was being rude! That's racist!
Leilani: THIS. IS. GERMANY. NOT. AMERICA. They don't like Americans in general, we just so happen to be black.
Teri: She's gonna get us killed

UPDATED: More momma :P

Mom: My friend is coming to visit
Leilani: Friend? Now when you say friend or do you mean friend?
Mom: What's the difference?
Leilani: Well if you don't know mother...

Mom: *in Oprah voice* sex is good!
Leilani & Loki: :o

Leilani: I'm not too happy with you right now
Mom: I'm ya momma, you're supposed to love me
Leilani: Only because God said so

Leilani: Ms. Davis is ACE!
Mom: What?
Leilani: You're not ready...
*later that same day*
Mom: I told your friend Miss G that you called Ms. Davis 'ace'
Leilani: What did she say?
Mom: 'So she gets a nickname and I don't'
Leilani: She's not ready either

Mom: Your new bedtime is midnight. You need to be in bed by midnight, do you understand?
Leilani: Actually I don't. What's this new buisness? Like I had a bedtime in the first place
Mom: Don't get smart with me!
Leilani: You asked if I understood. I'm just trying to get an understanding
Mom: Don't get smart
Leilani: *mumbles* You don't want me to be smart but then when I get bad grades you expect more of me. Make some damn sense woman...
Mom: What did you just say?
Leilani: *repeats*
Mom: You need to stop being smart
Leilani: *throws hands in the air in defeat*

Mom: Get off the computer right now!
Leilani: But why?
Mom: you need real friends and to stop talking to people who are probably pedophiles
Leilani: Mom, I don't know if you know this, but after 18 I'm out of pedophile range and graduated to full on rape victim
Mom: That's not funny
Leilani: Me no laughing

*after Thanksgiving dinner*
Mom: I'M GOING TO BED! *turns out all the lights and tv*
Teri: *sitting in the dark* This is bullsh!t...
Arika (cousin): *also sitting in the dark* :lol: She does this every time we come over here
Breland: *also sitting in the dark* She just locks us in like we're not going to leave. Leilani will let us...
Leilani: *feels eyes in my direction* *sigh* Call my cell when you need me to open the door

Mom: Your friends can't come over when I'm not here. My laptop isn't working
Leilani: The nerve of my friends to break your computer and put it right back in its carrier just the way you left it *shakes fist*
Mom: Don't get smart
Leilani: :roll:

Mom: I need the other garage door opener
Leilani: I would help you out if I knew where it was
Mom: Your dad has it
Leilani: What makes you think that?
Mom: my sheets are missing
Leilani: so you think he's sneaking in here and stealing sheets with the garage door opener even though he has sheets of his own?
Mom: :|
Leilani: *mumbles* my mother is friggin insane. *out loud* Its not dad you need to interrogate, its Teri
*months later*
Mom: I think some towels are missing
Leilani: DAMN THAT MAN I CALL FATHER AND HIS NEW WIFE!
Teri: I bet they're laughing their asses off and thinking of new ways to piss you off mom
Mom: Shut up both of you
Teri: You're the one making yourself look stupid

Mom: that what we need to do! Jump up on a bar and start dancing
Leilani: You should be ashamed. You're my mother and are encouraging bad behavior. *shakes head in shame and walks away*

Mom: What is this?
Leilani: I don't know mom, but to my knowledge I would say that was a C-. But how would I know? Apparently I can only comprehend at 70% and less

Bianca: you say Breland's name so sweet and everyone elses like it tastes bad in your mouth
Mom: No I don't
Leilani: yes you do. Sometimes I don't know when you're mad at me when you call me or not
Mom: No I dont'
Breland: Don't hate on me because I am that child *strikes pose*
Mom: That's right. Dont let them hate on you baby
Leilani: That right there, that's that sh!t we're talking about.

Leilani: SH!T YEAH!
Mom: Stop cussing! *mumbles* cussing all the damn time. I'm not taking that sh! no more
Leilani: I wonder where the hell I get this nasty ass habit of swearing and sh!t, mom. Probably my dad, the minister
Mom: Shut up

As you can see, we have a lot of random moments. And I noticed that I'm kinda mean to her. Meh, oh well :lol: I also noticed that she tells me to shut up all the time. Like that's ever going to happen

So I'm not really feeling like myself. For those that wanna know, I bleed. And it sucks. I had that conversation I usually have with Self about it. For those of you who don't know, Self is the b!tch that lives in my head and shakes her head in shame at me when I screw up. She also tells me I can do better in some situations. Basically, she's my conscience with a forked tongue. I love her mean ass though. Wanna see the convo? Here it goes:

Me: I MUST BE THE DEVIL
Self: I knew it
Me: There is no reason why I can bleed for 5 days and not die
Self: I told you that you were pure evil a long time ago but do you listen?
Me: you know what? I think I hate you a bit
Self: I knew that too
Me: I hate you because you don't feel the pain and you just b!tch and b!tch without stopping.
Self: :lol: Do you want me to stop
Me: No, because I love that about you
Self: you know what I love about you 'round this time?
Me: No
Self: you make so sense and it's totally not your fault

I got issues :?

Happy Hunting ;)

Last Blog was 4 Page Letter by Aaliyah. Loki got it. And he may not guess this one :D

Soundtrack to your life:

Opening Credits: In the Waiting Line - Zero 7

Waking Up Scene: Dissolved Girl - Massive Attack

Car Driving Scene: My World - Huskey Rescue

High School Flashback Scene: We Don't Need No Education - Ramones

Nostalgic Scene: Don't You Forget About Me - Simple Minds

Bitter, Angry Scene: New Medicines -Dead Poetic

Break-up Scene: Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer (bring tissue)

Regret Scene: Bleed No More - Evanescene

Fight/Action Scene: One Thought At a Time - Massive Attack

Lawn Mowing Scene: Drive - Incubus

Sad, breakdown scene: Tomorrow - Avril Lavigne

Death Scene: System - Chester Bennington

Funeral Scene: Butterfly - Tori Amos

Mellow/Pot-smoking Scene: A Good Day - Ice Cube (explicit lyrics. I have a whole playlist dedicated to this) :lol:

Dreaming About Someone Scene: Together We Will Live Forvever - Clint Mansell

Contemplation Scene: This Can't Be Life - Jay-Z, Scarface and Biene Seigal (explicit lyrics. Good song though)

Chase Scene: Anna Molly - Incubus

Happy Love Scene: Closer - Goapele

Happy Friend Scene: Yellow Submarine - The Beatles

Closing Credits: Broken - Seether feat Amy Lee

Happy Hunting ;)

Last blog was New Light Of Tomorrow by Husky Rescue. Are we even guessing anymore?

You guys are friggin awesome! Thanks for accepting that horrible excuse for a rant on that last blog. I hung out with frined numbers one and two. No, nothing is resolved, but we had fun playing tag in the park. Yes, two 19 year olds and a 20 year old played tag. Is that a problem for anyone? HM!?!?! Didn't think so :P. Stole a quiz from the quiz whore *waves at Heather*

DO YOU SNORE?: no

LOVER OR A FIGHTER?: a lovely fighter ;)

WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?: forgetting who I am

AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?: heck yeah!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?: it's not real at all

DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?: straws, toothpicks, plastic utensils...

WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?: LMAO you tell me, you all have seen my baby picture

HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?: Who said I was single? So the real question is, how is single life for you?

WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?: grey

DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?: no, I do the unthinkable and wash myself in the shower :o

HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?: I don't get down with ropes

ANY SECRET TALENTS?: I'm sure I do seeing as how I have no idea what they are

WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?: Rome was nice :)

HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?: Yes, and then I threw up

HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?: HELL YES!!! It's frigging awesomeness! Get off the computer right now and rent it...or find it on youtube. I don't care but you guys have to see it

DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?: No. I dont care about the air I breathe or the food I eat either. Duh :roll:

HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?: 'the world may never know'

CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?: Only while drunk :lol:

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?: for two weeks an airplane was like my second home

ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?: Oh yeah, watching hairy guys with no tan walking around in speedos is the sexiest thing ever

WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?: not for entertaining purposes. Eat to live

IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?: Oh, that question is not even funny right now

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?: no, I'm not into going cross eyed trying to read what I've written

WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?: effin pollen and grass

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU": a few minutes ago :oops:

IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?: :lol::cry::lol: Hell no. But one must wonder how the hell he keeps coming out with new CDs every year

DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?: No. What for?

HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?: sometimes scrambled, sometimes over hard

ARE BLONDES DUMB?: Most of the blondes I've met have actually been quite intelligent

WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?: IN JENNE'S DAMN DRAWERS AND SHE DOESN'T EVEN WEAR THEM!! *shakes fist*

WHAT TIME IS IT?: Gametime! HOOT!

DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?: Lani, Leila, Coleone, Pyrate Qween, Black Rose blah blah blah

IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?: Does the Pope sh!t in the woods

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?: a few hours ago

DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?: showers! baths are like marinating in your own juices

IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?: Does it matter now that he's dead?

ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?: Have you ever danced with the devil in the pale moonlight? Hm? Have you?

WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?: words, chocolate, laughter, warmth, him, you

CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?: how about the peanut butter in a reeses? :D

HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?: *shudders* yes

HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?: three times

IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?: :lol: What kind of dumb ass question is this? We're gonna add this to the stupid question list

ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?: Yes. Does that turn you on? Oh baby oh baby

HAVE YOU EVER HITCH HIKED?: No. Doing stupid crap like that is how black people die in Horror films

WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?: chocolate

WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: *mumbles* last week watching The Fountain

DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?: Well, seeing as how I haven't tried to kill myself lately, I'd say I like it just fine, thank you for asking

WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?: another stupid ass question

ARE YOU PSYCHIC?: Do you bleed black blood? do ya?

HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?: Random ass book. Good, but random

DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?: Piano/keyboard

CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?: I can actually

DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?: call me crazy, but I like beds

DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?: every now and then and Its when I'm usually with Loki or alone

DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?: 'in a young girls heart' MUSIC WHORE

IS A DOG A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?: No, the remote and a woman who loves foot ball is

YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?: No, however I do believe in murder :D

CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?: Can you?

DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?: Yes she does, I let her see it so she wouldn't give me any crap about it later.

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?: Thing? Really? Thing?

DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?: do you sniff glue?

DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?: No, actually I dont

WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?: the ones during the SuperBowl. Guys are not the only people who watch TV. Although I did find that Victoria Secret commercial this year hilarious. I'll find a clip of that if I can

DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?: :lol: If I'm ever dumb enough to go in there, they'd follow me in case I tried to steal something

FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?: Um...MUSIC WHORE shall not answer such questions

I may include a poem later. Who knows. UPDATE: heres the poem

I Love You

It cut me deep.

Deeper than you can possibly imagine

You tapped into my heart

And played mind games

I thought I was close to entering your heart

But you have a barrier around it

One that I cannot conquer

Now every time I hear your name

My heart drops twice and all I feel is pain

For years I've dreamed of you and me

We were finally getting close to what I had dreamed.

But you woke me up so abruptly

That my head is still spinning

I still have feelings for you

Sadly enough, I think I probably always will

I feel as though my future relationships

Will come to an end because of you

I must come and face reality and say,

I love you.

Happy Hunting

Last blog was Lacrymosa by Evanescence. Heather got it. Sorry Lottie. Heather won my love and affection. :lol:. Let's see if you can get this one.

I was going to rant about other things but in the middle of typing, some things happened so this had been changed a bit. Sorry for the disappointment in advance.

I EFFIN HATE PEOPLE WHO DRIVE MUSTANG GTs!!! And it has nothing to with the mini killer. I hated those damn things before. They think they are God's gift to the road. I want a big truck just so I can prove them different. I wanna run them off the road the laugh like I'm insane. They effin drive like the road is theirs and everyone else should get out their cars and bow like a bunch of b!tches. They always try to race too. WTF is up with that? In a race between a 2006 Mustang and a 1994 Honda Civic, its pretty damn clear who is going to f*ckin win. FRIGGIN F*CK TARDS! And then they change lanes when THERE IS NO F*CKIN ROOM. Like we should already effin know to make room. These are the same dumb ass people WHO DON'T USE BLINKERS!!! They're the ones that started the Anti Blinker Cult. I say we find them and make them use blinkers for hours as punishment. It would be their version of hell. I like that idea.

Stupid questions are a pet peeve that everyone should share. That way, no one would ask dumb ass questions. Asking 'are you sure' once is fine. BUT AFTER THE THIRD TIME YOU SHOULD GET THE F*CKIN HINT. They are indeed sure. 'What are you thinking?' Another damn stupid question. If I wanted you to know what I was thinking, I wouldn't think it, I WOULD EFFIN TELL YOU.

And what's with this rant queen business? I don't rant that much anyway. So I'm automatically the default rant queen because I say what others are thinking? WTF guys. Who said I wanted to be the rant queen anyway? Who held the title before me? And why do we even need a rant queen? We should all rant because I know that something that pisses me off may not piss someone else off.

I NEED A FRIGGIN HUG RIGHT NOW! Serious. My RL friends are being a friggin intelligent. Friend number one thinks I should resolve my issues with friend number two, but is making sh!t worse in the end. And will swear up and down they didn't think it was a problem. I don't get it. I just don't get it. Don't put two people in a room that don't like each other and there will be no blood shed. Seriously. Let's avoid violence for once.

I don't even remember what the hell I was going to say, I'm so damn pissed off. Sorry for the let down guys. Can't think straight.

Hunting. Because Happy is overrated right now :evil: