Hey all.

Tomorrow I won't be on much, because I'm going to see my friends Hanna and Erika's confirmation. I myself never even thought about doing it, because I don't believe in god. They say it's because they're not sure of their stands in the question of god, but I can see through their little scam! :P My friends are materialists and want presents.:lol: I just find it unbelievably funny that they will stand there in the church, face to face with "god", and blaspheme; a biblical death sin. :lol:

I am an atheist, although as I told Feather, I sometimes wish I did believe in something. But I just can't, religion goes against everything I stand for! I sometimes feel like religion is for people who can't handle the truth. The truth is that you are just a person. One single person in the gigantic universe! That's it, no more. To believe in something divine and greater than us, is a comfort trough hard times. To believe that something or someone is there for you, to save you in hard situations. I just can't see it... How about you? You believe in a god?

I don't know how long I'll be gone tomorrow; I've never been to something similar.:D

On Monday I'm going to my mother. I don't have my own computer there, so I won't be on as much as I usually am. I'm staying there for two weeks, so I'll miss you a terrible amount!:( I hate it, but that's life. My mum is almost as much of a computer wh*re as me and my sis also want it from time to time. But a bit when I get home from school and ten-ish at night I usually find some time!:D ... Not so much to feel good about, but still.:( ... I'll miss you so much! *hugs* Ashamhala! :cry:

I really want to write a blog. But the thing is, I have nothing to write about! So I have actually no idea what this blog will be about.:P I'll just see what happens...

I can start off by saying that tomorrow I'm having a math test, algebra. I am actually excited, Feather you know what I mean!;) I hope I'll do well.:D

Oh, and I could now explain the grading system in Sweden. I've heard it's quite different from other countries. We have 4 levels: IG, G, VG and MVG. G stands for "godkänt" which means "passed". G is actually not a bad grade; about 80% of all the students will in every subject get a G in the end. Most people only have the grade G, in all subjects. IG means that you don't pass it. VG and MVG however, are much harder to get than G. Even if you study really hard, you can't count on getting one. Some people have never gotten anything higher than G, it's not because they don't study. It's because they just can't get it! Because to get graded with a VG or a MVG you have to do more than just remember facts, you have to be able to reflect and come up with creative solutions. For example: I studied economics a while ago. On the test we had questions like "describe what recession means". This is a G question. If you want a higher grade, a VG or MVG, you answered questions like" Imagine you are the president in a country. The country needs help, it is in deep recession. People are moving away and many are forced to quit their jobs, the stock markets are dropping and businesses are shutting down. What do you do? Make a political plan to change the fate of your country!" I mean, this is not the easiest thing to do! I don't even have the right to vote, and they expect me to be able to run a whole countries economy! If your answer on this question was really good, you got rewarded with a MVG and if it was ok you got a VG. It's of course not a guarantee to get a higher grade; most who tried it got a G either way. Sometimes the teachers hand out + and -, but it doesn't really matter. On their paper they can't write + or -, so it's only for us to know a little more exactly how it went.

You bored? :lol: I wouldn't be surprised! :P

And also short, I watched House last Tuesday. It was the episode "Insensitive". And yes, Sweden is actually that far behind... It's the episode with the CIPA patient; in the end it turns out she's got a tapeworm. After this episode I looked up the worm she had, the "Diphyllobothrium latum". I find it so cool that his worm is the longest tapeworm that effect humans. I am very afraid when it comes to bugs and stuff, but if there are any bugs or creeps that scare me, it's worms. Since I was little I have been afraid of catching parasites like these. Ugh! I get shivers down my spine just thinking about it! But, that's not all. I am so fascinated about insects, worms and spiders. I can't help it! I once saw a larva in my house, I freaked out and would jump over that spot for about 2 months before I could even touch it, but still I looked it up. To know what species it was! Anyway, what I wanted to say was, ISN'T IT GROSS! Fascinating animal, though.

On a less boring or creepy note, Feather is detoxing and experiencing withdrawal symptoms, now is the time to tease her. I have already gotten her a quiz, but you should do it too! Then it'll be harder to resist! :lol:

And today I got the grades back at the movie we did (I didn't tell you about that, did I? Meh..). And I got a MVG! Woop woop! A - though, but it's still a MVG! I got so happy, because I felt it went badly... But you never know!:D

Leila, the franjanjan weapon is a ... Maxandrine! I came up with the name when I was eating a tangerine. There's something wrong with my jaw so each time I open and closes it, it clicks, and because I know that jaw in Latin is celled "maxilla" I came up with the Maxandrine! Random? :P Here is what a Maxandrine looks like:

I know it looks like a toy lion, but it's a really good defence weapon. Because it looks so innocent, you can take it with you wherever you want! It's the great camouflage...

It's really dangerous; this is what happens if you let your kid play with it "Because it's just a toy lion".

Not such a good move. Stupid move my friend, stupid move...

Pfft, nothing to blog about... I have to learn how to write shorter blogs! :P Comment me 'till I have the tapeworm out of my mind! *hugs*

I know I wasn't supposed to write a blog, but you know what? I'm going to rant, so you don't have to comment! :P I just want to jot it down. Here are all the "FRICKS!" in my life. :P

1. I hate one of my teachers at the moment. I hate her because I like her, and she goes and gets herself pregnant! I'm really happy for her because she really deserves it, and she would be great mum. But, the thing is, she just got back from FRIKKIN maternity leave! She was gone from the school a year, a FRIKKIN year! And I was so happy when she was coming back! And the moment she comes back, she's FRIKKIN leaving! And here comes the FRIKKIN irony, she's my science teacher. Don't you think we're having FRIKKIN sex ed! She stands there, talking about FRIKKIN safe sex and FRIKKIN condoms! :evil:
2. Today it's Monday. Usually it's, "Yay! Monday, CSI day!" Today it's" I FRIKKIN hate you for ruining this to me, day!" I had been FRIKKIN looking forward to this, since it was the only good FRIKKIN thing happening today, and then they FRIKKIN cancel it! But on the brighter note, the "Sarah O'Conner chronicles" premiers today, I might watch it.:D I have heard a lot of good things about it!
3. When I went to school this morning I was happy because I though it was next week. Next week we'll be watching a movie the whole day, but then I FRIKKIN get there and, no! Of course it's the wrong FRIKKIN week! I come to school, and yeah. We're having this huge writing test, which I obviously forgot about because I FRIKKIN mixed together the FRIKKIN weeks!
4. I FRIKKIN hate being a teenager! This morning I woke up with the world's largest FRIKKIN zit in my FRIKKIN face! It was so big, I didn't know if the zit sat on the face or the face was stuck to it!
5. Continuing the: I hate being a FRIKKIN teenager. All the guys are so FRIKKIN immature, my little brother behaves better! Just the first FRIKKIN hour, I got hit in the face, 2 FRIKKIN times! Grow FRIKKIN up!
6. And here comes the grand FRIKKIN finale! I'm not the only one feeling like a FRIKKIN piece of sh!t! Everyone does! So no one cares if I FRIKKIN starts to cry because of my FRIKKIN pregnant teacher, or me missing FRIKKIN CSI, or me not being prepared to do the FRIKKIN writing test, or my FRIKKIN zit, and of course no one cares about me getting FRIKKIN palmed! I just have to FRIKKIN deal with it by myself!

*some serious ogre stomping ensues*

*Calms down* I don't mean to sound like a whiner, but now it feels a lot better now! :lol: It did the trick! :P

And I promised to mention Feather, so here it goes: I have come to the conclusion that she is not the only on that giggles uncontrollably. So do I, like my mother after a glass of wine... And Leila: The franjanjan weapon's going to get done to the next blog!:P

I FRIKKIN ashmahala ya'll! You make me feel a lot better! And tooo baad for those of you who didn't comment on my last blog! Here comes the OGRE! *STOMP* *children crying, sissy girls screaming and men running for their lives* Ahhhh!:P :lol: Oh, and say hello to the new random box thingy description! *HUGS*

... And WTF is this?! Why can't the title of the blog be capitalized?! *stomps*

The time has come for me to post the blog I've been talking so much about! If you have the patients to read the whole wall of letters you'll be rewarded with a picture of me! :shock:

The topic of tonight's blog will be the following: Me! :shock: I am going to try to conquer my fear of opening up to people! So comment a lot and help me to do it, ok? J I'll just write stuff about myself and if you feel like I missed something, you ask it in your comments, ok?:D So, what other way is better to start of with than my family! The reason why I'm bringing them up is because; even though I sometimes hate them, and wish they would just disappear. I, unbelievably enough, love them.:? "Why?" You might ask after reading this, well... Then you are not alone! :P

As I said in my first blog, my parents are divorced. So, I live half of the time at my mum's house, and the rest of the time at my dad's. My mum and dad are like night and day, that's probably why it didn't work out between them. My mum works as a psychologist and my dad does whatever he wants to do for the moment... I am serious. Just the last 3 years he has worked as: A computer technician, carpenter, chef (both vegetarian and usual), crisis consult, and as an extra "dad" to troubled kids! My mum is the organized one, and my dad is the storm:P My little brother is 7 years old. He is absolutely lovely! I know people say that 7 isn't such a cute age, but he is fabulous! I love his tiny little hugs when I get home from school! We have a lot of fun together, and I have a really good time when I play with him. (And before everyone starts mocking me, it's really fun! If you combine my obsessive randomness and juvenile tendencies with my brother's rather odd fascination for gory video-games, you get some weird stuff! Believe me!) And then I have a sister. 12 she is. I don't get along with her as good as I do with my brother, but we have fun sometimes. I tease her about being obsessed about WoW and she teases me about being obsessed (or highly dedicated, Boo ;))with TV:P She would flip if she knew I was on here!:lol: the teasing would never stop!

And here is the ME section! Seriously, what do you want to know? I am a girl who lives in Sweden. I love TV (duh!) and that's how I found this site, looking for info. I have mentioned quite a lot in my previous blogs and I will tell you some random stuff in the tag section. As I've told you, I have a fear of opening up to people... That's the whole reason I'm doing this blog. My friends, who don't really know me, know me better than my parents. Before, I often felt alone, like there was no one else like me. But a lot of these feelings are gone now. You all on this lovely site are so much like me! It's amazing! I think it is because it's not hard to find this site, if you are looking for it. If all you do on the internet is do what we do, then sooner or later you will com across this site. But if you do whatever "normal" people do, then it's almost impossible! Every one of you has similar interests like me and everybody else on this site. That's why I think we get along so great. We are all a little weird, random and geeky. But we are not ashamed of it! It's who we are! People like you should be revered! Hugs to everyone! Wow, that went of topic! Back to meee!:P I am a loner, and a looney for that matter! :lol:

So, to sum things up. I am a geek like you, get over it.:lol: I don't know how I come across in here, but I swear, it's definitely different than in real life. Maybe I'm not that bad at opening up in here!

Are you wondering what I look like yet? I won't torture you anymore! So, here it is, the moment you all been waiting for!... No one probably even cares.:lol: But It's a big deal to me, and that's why I have been pulling a Barney: building up suspense. I have no idea WTF I'm doing with my neck, my hair is wet and I'm wearing my pyjamas:P But it was the only one I had on my computer at the moment... My friend took it when she was sleeping over, I wasn't ready! :lol: Beware, cover your eyes people!

Ellen , is that you? Yup, so that's what I look like... Good luck on that poster of yours, Feather! :lol: You'll fail with me sitting there.:P

And I have 2 announcements to make! I don't know if you can call them announcements, but meh, whatever! First up, I was talking to Charlie and we had a discussion about how some users have things that they always do. Charlie gave the examples of Tonik, who'd "Grr" and Boo who have her Foot-Tapper. I said I wanted to have something that was my thing, so I came up with: *stomps around like an ogre*. Click on this: Warcraft ogre, like him, plus some jumping and screaming!:lol: You better get used to me stomping around... I have a hard time letting things go.:P

And the second one, I wanted to make up words like everybody else, so I promised Leila that I'd do it to this blog! So here, I proudly present: Ashmahala!

Adj: To love someone. ie: I ashmahala you! Translation: "I love you!" It can also be used as a noun ie: Ashmahala! Translation: sorta like "hugs and kisses". That you can put in you newmeanings, Jen! You're welcome:P *bows*

And Feather, Lil and Leila tagged me! :evil: :P just kidding, you nut heads! But, I'm only going to do 7! Haha, you can't make me do more! *sticks out tongue*

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your spring. Post these instructions in your LJ/ Blog along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

•1. I'm yours - Jason Mraz: Lovely!! (Feather, I knew you'd like it!;))

•2. ZZYZX RD - Stone sour

•3. Suddenly I see - KT Tunstall: Because it's so happy, I need it...

•4. 9 crimes - Damien Rice

•5. Better in time - Leona Lewis

•6. The bad touch - Bloodhound gang: Because I love sexual innuendos:P...

•7. Hot blooded - Foreigner: It's a good song, and what's even better; it reminds me of Bones!

And *stomps around like an ogre* Weights, Lil and Leila, you tagged me too! But Kiki and Lilly did it in an unfair way! :lol: 15 random things about me:

•1. I have a slight case of OCD and therefore am organized and obsessive. I wash my hands countless times each day; it's my way of dealing with anxiety.

•2. I have sort of a compulsion to always carry my things in plastic bags... I don't own a purse or handbag because I know I wouldn't use it, I carry it in my plastic bags instead.:oops: :lol: Only certain types of bags qualifies for my use. :P Please don't go, it's not as creepy as it sounds! :lol:

•3. Most of the time I have a pretty good memory. I remember how the apartment I moved from when I was 2 looked like.

•4. I didn't learn how to walk until I was like over 15 months old. By that time, I had however already learnt to speak fluently.

•5. The first book I read on my own was "the return of the king" the last LOTR book.

•6. I have been watching CSI since I was 9. My parents forbade me to do it, but when I got my first TV I could do it without them knowing it. Hey, I was a curious girl!

•7. I have now converted my dad to watch it, though.:P

•8. My first TV love was David Duchovny:lol: yumm:P

•9. I lose a gross amount of hair everyday, I swear I'll be bold by the time I hit 20!

•10. I am deadly afraid of dancing in public, and feet too! I am a paranoid person.

•11. I have never dyed my hair.

•12. I don't wear make-up, ever. I'm quoting myself "I don't want to be a slave under a multibillion company that's taking advantage of teenage girls insecurities"

•13. And if the above isn't enough to convince you that I am, in fact, weird then maybe my last 2 blogs can change your mind!:P Because I am, and I'm darn proud of it!

•14. I have a hard time listening to instructions. I do as I please, which often results in my grades being lower than I deserve.

•15. I hate McDonalds!

And I'm not going to tag anyone, because it's a cruel business only resulting in hurt limbs and precious time going to waste.:P But congratulations Kiki, Lilly and Leila, you sucked me into it!:lol:

And I have to mention 2 people. First Charlie, who turns 16 today... It coincided with my blog:P So, happy birthday Charlie! Hope you have a great time!!! *Hugs*

And to Lillypie who is having a hard time right now. Huuge Hugs, hon!

And to everyone who is reading, I frikkin ashmahala you guys!*Ashmahalas everyone!* If you don't like this blog and don't comment I'll stomp!! :P I am only joking because I don't have to go to anger management cla-sses! ... But it was really hard bolding all the I, me and myselfs! :P Now, it will probably be a while before I'll blog again, because I have run out of idea's:lol: *huggles*

This will be a short one before the big bombshell tomorrow! :shock: God, I'm turning into Feather, blogging everyday!... Well, after the one tomorrow you'll have to wait awhile for the next one. But I just realized that I had forgotten something really important! Can you guess? The title of the blog is a hint! It's a holiday that happens on May 25th... Still can't figure it out? It's *drum roll* Towel day! I can so imagine your faces right now! :lol: It's celebrated in the honour of Douglas Adams "A Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy" The ones who have read it understands the meaning of towels! :lol: But for the ones who hasn't...

(Directly taken from the book) "A towel, it says, is about the most massively useful thing an interstellar hitch hiker can have. Partly it has great practical value - you can wrap it around you for warmth as you bound across the cold moons of Jaglan Beta; you can lie on it on the brilliant marble-sanded beaches of Santraginus V, inhaling the heady sea vapours; you can sleep under it beneath the stars which shine so redly on the desert world of Kakrafoon; use it to sail a mini raft down the slow heavy river Moth; wet it for use in hand-to-hand-combat; wrap it round your head to ward off noxious fumes or to avoid the gaze of the Ravenous Bugblatter Beast of Traal (a mindboggingly stupid animal, it assumes that if you can't see it, it can't see you - daft as a bush, but very, very ravenous); you can wave your towel in emergencies as a distress signal, and of course dry yourself off with it if it still seems to be clean enough.

More importantly, a towel has immense psychological value. For some reason, if a strag (strag: non-hitch hiker) discovers that a hitch hiker has his towel with him, he will automatically assume that he is also in possession of a toothbrush, face flannel, soap, tin of biscuits, flask, compass, map, ball of string, gnat spray, wet weather gear, space suit etc., etc. Furthermore, the strag will then happily lend the hitch hiker any of these or a dozen other items that the hitch hiker might accidentally have "lost". What the strag will think is that any man who can hitch the length and breadth of the galaxy, rough it, slum it, struggle against terrible odds, win through, and still knows where his towel is clearly a man to be reckoned with."

That's about as geeky I can be... But stay tune for more of Ellen's blog! Tomorrow! :shock: Now you're all hyped and think it's going to be great and all... Just don't get disappointed!:P

Today I'm going for random. I don't feel like doing something nice or deep right now... That will be the topic of the next blog I think. So that leaves obscure and bizarre. And just like that, I have a topic!

If you're not confused, prepare yourself, because you will be! I have not let my random skills show through and expose their real face yet... Until right now!

Once upon a time there was an Ellen. She was an ordinary girl. She had an ordinary life, with ordinary friends and an (almost) ordinary family. This is the story of an ordinary day, in her ordinary life.

Ellen lived on an ordinary street.

Ellen and her ordinary family had an ordinary car with an ordinary license plate.

Like all the other ordinary girls in Ellen's school, Ellen liked carrots and bread. Ellen liked carrots and bread in a very ordinary way...

One ordinary day, Ellen and her ordinary family wanted to visit an ordinary tunnel. They decided to go in their ordinary car with the ordinary license plate.

After a while Ellen's ordinary little brother got hungry, so Ellen and her ordinary family had to eat. They went to an ordinary street.

On the ordinary street was an ordinary chinese restaurant. The ordinary chinese restaurant had a very ordinary name.

When they were done, and Ellen's ordinary brother was full, they continued their ordinary journey.

Ellen's ordinary dad, who was driving very ordinarily, suddenly started to laugh very ordinarily. He ordinarily pointed into the rear-view window.

A lot of ordinary laughter ensued.

After another ordinary while they were finally there. The ordinary family went into the ordinary tunnel to look at it; they looked at it in very ordinary way of course...

Like all the ordinary people in the world, Ellen was stupid. So Ellen listened to the ordinary commercial in the tunnel.

Ellen jumped, and hurt herself. She ordinarily shouted:

Everything worked out in the end, it ordinarily does. Ellen was happy, like all the other ordinary people who are too dumb to notice all the ordinary crap that's happening... But as most ordinary Shakespeare stories end, "All is well that ends well".

The (ordinary) end!

Now you might ask why I did this story... Yeah, it's because I am:

... Well almost, I am Miss Geek! *huge hugs to everyone who comment me ordinarily random:lol:* Guud baj!:P

Tomorrow I won't be on much, it's Walpurgis Night. It's a night, that is very big in Sweden and we light this huge bonfire! Everyone gathers around it to watch when they light it up. The children throw small, stone marbles in because they want to hear them "poff".

At the bonfire you can find a choir singing, lotteries, cotton candy and lots of people! About twelve we head back home and eat. We eat very festive food like: baguettes, grapes, lobsters, pears and other yummy things! :D

Walpurgis Night celebrates that spring has come. Everyone is happy, because the winter is unbelievably long in Sweden! But the best part of Walpurgis Night is to meet all your friends at the bonfire!

*hugs* I'll se you all on Thursday!:D

I need some serious cheering up. I have a ton of things I have to get done, but no time to do it. I feel like I working my butt of for nothing; it never ends! Just when I think I can to go home and actually take it easy, I get new homeworks and essays to write. Summerbrake feel so far away it even makes me feel more sad. I have a lot of things to do, but the thing that's making me the most uncomfortable, is that I will be holding a speach on Monday. Not a little one, but infront of my entire grade, and that's over a hundred people! I am actually nervous, and I am never nervous! I am going to pass out on the stage! :lol:

All the homeworks wouldn't be so bad if I could have my sleep. The last few months I have been having trouble falling asleep. I takes over 2 hours, and sometimes even more!:cry: It's really wearing me out.

So, now you understand the blood, sweat and the tears. But, you're probably still wondering about the remaining part of the title, don't you?.:P Well, I thought I would try to cheer myself up and post this funny, freaky and weird commercial airing in Sweden at the moment. Kavli Commercial.

I also found this. This caused a whole wave of attention, and even made the girl in the video famous! Look here, It's subtitled in English so everyone understands. :)

I hope you don't have as much to do as I do, bacause I am not enjoying it! :evil:

Many hugs! I need them:)

I didn't think I would be blogging for a while, but I just felt that I had to do this for the sake of venting. The recent events got me thinking, and frankly, I am angry! You know that 10-year old kidnapped girl I told you about in my last blog? The police found her body yesterday - thrown on a distant street, dumped like a piece of garbage. No one should have their life taken away like it never meant anything. This girl was someone's daughter, friend and c-lassmate. They will never se her again. They will never have the chance to tell her they love her again. They didn't have time to say goodbye.

I don't know what kind of a person she was when she was alive, and I have even less knowledge about what kind of person she would have become when she got older. But I do know one thing, and that is that she was just a scared little girl. No one had the right to do this to her! It's a tragedy to lose someone and death is something that we never truly will be fine with, but it's something so horrible about a child dying. I don't know if it's the innocence or just the fact that they miss out on life itself, but it's something that burdens and make me terribly sad.

I am only 5 years older than her and I have almost done nothing that I want to achieve in my life. She will never have the chance to get a proper education, even less a job. She will never fall in love and never experience her first kiss. Think about all the things she will never do, feel or think. How can you do this to a human being? I don't understand.

You don't need to comment, I just had to get this out in the air. I don't know what to believe anymore...