Alright so Curtis asked me to write this in a blog. It all started out when he shown me a couple definitions he found on the site urban dictionary which totally made no sense and was funny as hell. We'd just search whatever words on there and came up with hilarious definitions. Here's a couple of examples:

Microsoft

A large terrorist organisation, hell bent on producing software that crashes and works slowly. Some of their more evil tactics over the years include waiting until just before you click the save button to make the screen go all blue for no reason, but more subtle tactics include waiting until you start to work, then annoying you with a sodding paper clip.

Josh: "I'll just get on with some work..."
Microsoft Paperclip: "Hello!"
Josh: *I'll just ignore him, and he'll go away*.... *starts to type*
Microsoft Paperclip: "Do you want to write a letter?"
Josh: "No."
Microsoft Paperclip: "Okay, do you need some help with that?"
Josh: "NO! NO! NO I DONT F*CKING WANT SOME HELP! PISS OFF!!"
*clicks on hide, paperclip dissapears*...*begins to work...*

... 2 minutes pass ...

Microsoft Paperclip: "Hello!"

Internet Explorer

One of the most amazing tools for downloading Firefox

I used Internet Explorer to download Firefox. One of the only uses of this crappy browser.

Fetus

Main entree in a delicious buffet.

That fetus was delicious, Joe.

And many more which GS probably wouldn't allow me to post. Let's first see if they let me post such a thing about Microsoft. Anyway, I ended up typing "LOL" and search for it. Here's what came out in the first place:

LOL

It's original definition was "Laughing out loud" (also written occasionally as "Lots of Laughs"), used as a brief acronym to denote great amusement in chat conversations.

Now, it is overused to the point where nobody laughs out loud when they say it. In fact, they probably don't even give a sh*t about what you just wrote. More accurately, the acronym "lol" should be redefined as "Lack of laughter."

Depending on the chatter, its definition may vary. The list of its meanings includes, but is not limited to:
1) "I have nothing worthwhile to contribute to this conversation."
2) "I'm too lazy to read what you just wrote so I'm typing something useless in hopes that you'll think I'm still paying attention."
3) "Your statement lacks even the vaguest trace of humor but I'll pretend I'm amused."
4) "This is a pointless acronym I'm sticking in my sentence just because it's become so engraved into my mind that when chatting, I MUST use the meaningless sentence-filler 'lol.'"

See: lmao, lmfao, rofl, lawl, heh, haha, lolol, and 120 for similarities.

Statement: Sorry if I'm not too cheery, my best friend just died yesterday.
Worthless Reply: lol

Statement: The golden ratio is truely an intersting aspect of not only mathematics, but art as well.
Worthless Reply: lol

Statement: ... And then he says, "Your mom goes to college!"
Worthless Reply: lol

Statement: Hey, are you doing anything tonight? You could come over to my house and play some Unreal Tournie...
Worthless Reply: lol, ok

And well any long-term internet users can tel you that this is very f*cking true. What does any of this have to do with KIK? Well Curtis just started saying KIK instead of LOL. Haha just thinking about it makes me piss my pants so hey why not PMP. LOL is just such a bad habit that we, long-term users, have. LOL for everything! Here's a part of our chat:

(1:03 AM) Curtis: IT WONT STOP
(1:03 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: lol
(1:04 AM) Curtis: kik
(1:04 AM) Curtis: kik
(1:04 AM) Curtis: kik
(1:04 AM) Curtis: okay
(1:04 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: hahaha
(1:04 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: kik
(1:04 AM) Curtis: kik
(1:04 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: kik the lol
(1:04 AM) Curtis: yes
(1:04 AM) Curtis: kik
(1:04 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: pmp
(1:04 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: pissin my pants
(1:04 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: pmp
(1:04 AM) Curtis: lolololol
(1:04 AM) Curtis: kikikikikik
(1:04 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: its to the point where
(1:05 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: when i think about a situation in my head
(1:05 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: and in my imagination people laugh
(1:05 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: people actually say "LOL LOL LOL"
(1:05 AM) Curtis: I KNOW
(1:05 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: gahahaha
(1:05 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: pmp
(1:05 AM) Curtis: i tried to say
(1:05 AM) Curtis: lol in c-lass today
(1:05 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: howd it go
(1:05 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: i did that to my ex once
(1:05 AM) Curtis: kik
(1:06 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: lol dude everytime your gon say kik now thats just gonna be too funny
(1:06 AM) Curtis: kik
(1:06 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: i see you go on gamespot
(1:06 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: KIK
(1:06 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: KIK
(1:06 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: people will be like "man..the f*ck?
(1:06 AM) Curtis: kik
(1:06 AM) Curtis: kik
(1:06 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: kik you yourself!
(1:06 AM) Curtis: lol
(1:06 AM) Curtis: kilo
(1:06 AM) -.[Fetus].-.Zero.- [[Dead]]: LOL

Well, that sure was easier to post a part of the log rather than write it down and try to explain it LOL! As you can tell, it was late, or should I say early? lol. Sorry if I make you (and I by the same occasion) look like stupid asses right now lol.

Now let me guess: You came here for Storm Feeding #3! Not for my personal life news! lol. Nah, I know alot of you will check in cause you are interested in both, even though I know ya'll truely came for SF#3. Which is why I'll bore you right away and start with the personal news. Muahahahaha!

So alot have happened: I've ended up being single, I started making music again, I am moving soon, etc. So I'll tell ya'll about that stuff in more details.

So yes, I am moving. The date I am moving is November 23rd. I'm going an hour more away from my friends, my ex, everyone. The baddest side to this in my opinion is that I will lose internet on the 19th and will get it back once there on the 26th. Dude, one WHOLE week without internet. Those who know me well knows that I am ALWAYS on internet. What the f*ck am I gonna do? I mean sh*t, I've got emblems to chase after ya know? So yeah, I won't be around on GameSpot for one whole week starting November 19th, so don't say I s*ck for not commenting or anything is in that week you make new blogs. I'll miss the internet for sure during that week. Let me up on anything that goes around that I missed starting that date. So many sites that i visit daily. The good news though is it'll be a big changement, new people, new house, new place, new everything. And the internet will be by cable which is going to be much better than what I have now.

Now on my ex-girlfriend and all..I gotta admit I'm having a VERY hard time accepting it. I've been drinking here and there. I literally can't sleep like I used to anymore. See I used to be a victim of insomnia back then, and now insomnia hit me again. It's just the fact of not being able to kiss her goodnight, hold her tight and what not before going to bed f*cks me up. If I sleep 4hours through the night it's good, but it's a very bad sleep. Be waking up here and there and even when I do sleep I wake up and my body feels like it never did sleep. I'll feel dizzy and all, much like when you can't sleep comfortably. I still try to remain strong, but it's hard accepting this when you believe she is the one. I still do believe it, the most important thing to me is that she feels good, and that she is alright, but with it I also forget myself and let my mind down. F*ck, we gotta love it, don't we? Moving away will probably help me in this process.

Music..So I've been creating alot, but the more I create beats the more I add songs to my album. In the first place back then, my album had 13 songs. Then there was this song I didn't like so it went down to 12 songs. Then I added another song so it came up to 13 again. I trashed the lyrics of the songs because they s*cked and I made that one into an instrumental song, so it remains 13. I then wrote another song, ended up at 14. And now the other night, since I use my music to express my feelings and get everything out of my mind, I was really f*cking depressed and wrote a new song and now my album has 15 tracks. It's not a bad thing though. The more songs an album has the better it is, unless it's 300 songs now that's a bit too much. I've always percevied a good album to have from 15 to 22 songs. Below 15 sounds short and above 22 most likely means 2 discs. Plus, I've always liked when artists has alot of songs on their albums cause it feels like they give us more freshness to listen to, while some artists release an album with like 10 songs, call it a full-lenght album and it last 30 minutes. That's not cool. Doesn't mean it isn't good, look at Static-X. I love Static-X, but their albums last like what..35 to 45 minutes? That's not long in my opinion and it feels short. Anyway, that's bout it.

On to Storm Feeding #3: After-Feed Dance! So I tried implementing a bit more comedy in this third installement of Storm Feeding. You don't know how eager I am to own more T's and make Feeding vids with different species. Anyway, hope you will enjoy it nonetheless.

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Thanks to anyone who took the time to read all of this and took the time to post a comment!

So I got myself a sweet new emblem for watching the BlackSite: Area 51 X360 demo live on GameSpot:

Highly ****fied.
Users who tuned in to our BlackSite: Area 51 Live Xbox 360 Demo Preview were awarded this snazzy emblem.

Nice, isn't it? Well that's basicaly my most recent news. I'm looking forward to any new emblem :] Oh and how stupid is that, GS is censoring their own Emblem's title when I try to post it. It's Highly c-l-a-s-s-ified without the - in between the letters. If I remove them it censors it. Weird.

Just as the title says: I am back with a second installement in my famous and long living Stom Feeding video sessions! Ok, long living? Maybe not since this is only the second vid. Famous/ Prolly not either, but hey, the 1st one was a pretty cool vid.

Anyway, Storm Feeding #2 is entitled "Storm Goin' Crazy" and you will soon discover why. Hope you enjoy and leave your comments! I actually find this video pretty funny lol.

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Yep. Here we go:

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I could of easily put twice and more cigs in there, but as I say in the vid description: I got sick of taking pics each and every time I'd light out a cig. Enjoy the most useless vid out there!

mm..how fun? I've been stuck at the same % for like 5 days. Sure I've been less active than I used to be, but hey, I still post alot and upload vids and comment on people's blog and everything, yet I remain stuck at the same damn % of level 26. All hail GameSpot glitches!

On top of that, I apprently have absolutly no games tracked, in my collection, in my wishlist whatsoever. Once again, All hail gameSpot glitches! lol. Man I love these, but I do hope I'll eventually go over the level 26. By the way, pretty soon I'll upload a new vid yet again.

So I was SO bored that I actually decided to make a vid of myself solving my Rubik Cube. How bad is that? Anyway, enjoy it. I'm a beginner in Rubik Cube solving and the original shooting time took aprox. 5 to 6 minutes. Magic!

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And now:

Welcome to Fetus' Random Talk #1! Why #1? cause there'll probably be more in the future, of course!

So Random Talk basicaly is what it says: random talk. I'm just going to talk, with no purpose whatsoever, just talk. Right now I'm listening to Sonic Syndicate and smoking a cig. Did I mention I invited my friend Jack over? Jack Daniels. Mm..Can't hide it, I've been tempted to drink ever since that day but hey, that's how I deal with it.

On another way, another path, I also been feeling creative as ever lately. I've finished remixing all of my songs that were already done before, created entirely new beats for 3 of my songs. Now Ima let you in on something. My beats used to be dark as f*ck! My new beats aren't though. One actually sounds really sad, but beautiful. I like to call it the "beautifully sad beat". True story. One of my other is kinda funny sounding, although the lyrics aren't but that's allright considering the point of my entire album. Another song, I went and did a great beat for it, but the beat is so amazing that the lyrics were trash compred to it. So I ended up puting the lyrics aside and keeping as an instrumental track for the album. Hey, how bad is it when a beat makes you trash lyrics? It means it's one hell of a beat.

I'm also preparing a new video for ya'll! Yep, it's a video about my ashtray. Yes! My ashtray! Thing is I have a specific way of disposing my smoked cigs in my ashtray, and then thought it'd be cool to have an animated GIF of my ashtray getting filled up on it's own. So I elaborated the process, emptied out my ashtray and everytime I light out a cig and dispose of it, I take a picture of the ashtray. I'll make a video with it instead of an animated GIF because..well because. Right now there are 7 cigarettes in my ashtray, I usually can compact about..40-50 cigs in there. We'll see once I'm done with the vid, might take 2 or 3 days, depending on how much I smoke, although lately I smoke alot. Especially when drinkin with my buddy Jack Daniels, or when taking my morning coffee and when making beats.

Really, random talk ends here, I don't really know what else to say. I'm out! Peace.

So why am I writting a blog? I don't know. That's the main point of the blog. I don't know why I'm writting it. Guess I'm bored? Yeah it's true that I don't really have anything to do ever since stuff happened with my now ex-girlfriend. I could play games, don't feel like it. All I've been doing mostly is mindlessly make more music, sometimes kick some Megaman and then wonder what the f*ck to do. I just been with a girl for such a long time that I've lost the habit of being mostly by myself. I used to be by myself all the time actually, other than hanging out with my girlfriend I'd be alone most of the time. Loner blood runs through my veins. When I think bout it, I'd always be doing music, playing music, singing, rappin, doin' stuff that always had to do with music. Probably why I started making beats again and why I finally decided to make a art cover for the last album me and my friend put out together. Took me half a year to finally make a damn art cover. Yep, every songs were done since that time, all that was missing was the damn booklet and what not. How lazy was I? Or rather busy? Why? "why" is the whole blog. Questions. Why questions? Because I ask myself many, always have and always will, much like anybody else. We always have unanswered questions. Be it why we live, why we are the way we are, why the stars are there or why do I write about stabbing people and about spirits haunting me to death until I burn everything including myself to ashes, why do I like these movies? or that music? or that person? why must topic titltes must contain so many characters? There's only one end to this:

Why

that sure was a fun blog to write although I had no idea where I was going, and still don't have any idea why.

So to get things off my mind, I decided to write ya'll a little song. For anyone wanting to give it a listen, the song is called Empty and it's by one of my favorites out there: Twiztid.

If you think you can get to me
My mind's a door open, walk right through
I'm deranged that's how it has to be
I never said I was anything like you

You bring me down
Let me out
You bring me down
Let me out

Sit down beside my ignorance
Nobody loves me like you do
Sick and tired of all the hypocrites
Maybe cause I'm not like you

You bring me down
Let me out
You bring me down
Let me out

Making judgements just to satisfy
I got you different right here
You can see all the pain in my eyes
Overflowing with tears

You bring me down
Let me out
You bring me down
Let me out

My mind is twisted with these thoughts of you
I just can't be alone
A constant blister when I talk to you
Wish you would leave me alone

You bring me down
Let me out
You bring me down
Let me out

Smoking cigarette, passing the time
Somehow I'm lonely again
No one knows how I'm feeling deep inside
Maybe if I had a friend

You bring me down
Let me out
You bring me down
Let me out

Kept in cages almost all my life
I'm just the shell of a man
Broken hearted from the sacrifice
I'm doing all that I can

You bring me down
Let me out
You bring me down
Let me out

***UPDATE*** As if things weren't bad enough already, this night towards midnight I go to the toilets and what do I know? Can't pee yet again. A man who can't take a piss at night is a sad man for he already knows it's going to be a bad night. So afterwards its a dropplet droppin pee time that started for every 2 hours I'd spend 30 minutes on the seat in the toilets. Results: This morning I woke at 6am instead of the regular 7:30am for work, peeing became a tad bit easier: instead of dropplets it was a thin, small continued pee, still hard to do but is a sign of improvement. What I've realised: last time it happened, it happened right after I had a Monster energy drink. This night, it happened right after I had a Monster energy drink. Is that sh*t toxic or something? Anyway, that's bout it. To top it off, my tarantula Storm woke me up. Yep, a tarantula woke me up. How? Ya know, they actually make sounds sometimes..I mean they don't scream or screech, but when she comes out of her burrow and stuff like that she makes noises from breaking the web and moving dirt around. Wooo :/ Oh yeah and also my body aches all over and my throat is f*ckin killin me when I cough and I don't know why. I guess somewhere sometime I got a cold or something. Or maybe it's all the vomit that got stuck in my throat the other night.

So to make a long story short, I'm single. Yep. There are reasons for me and my girlfriend (now ex-girlfriend) to have ceased the relation and I understand them entirely, but I won't explain it here cause I don't feel like it. It happened wednesday night. So yeah..I find it rather..hard. To me, she is still the one you know, but only time will tell if she is. For now, I just deal with it, try to get over it without being too stupid unlike last night where I got drunk as F*CK. Let me explain this: Thing is, knowing how was a drug addict, I would always push my pain and sorrow away with drugs and alcohol. Now, since I have quit smoking marijuana and I hardly ever drink, it was hard to bear a weight such as this sadness on my shoulders and I ended up getting drunk yesterday. Hella drunk. I got sick all over the place. Anyway, this morning I feel really bad, my head is still spinnin and I feel like I'm going to throw up every now and then, it kinda sucks but I guess I aerned what I deserve for trying to hide the pain and forget it. Everyone knows how it is hard to part ways with a loved one, but I can tell this is probably my first true lucid experience of it.

Oh and don't worry too much, I'm not going insane either. I'll do fine, just need some time. Now I'll go to the toilets.