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So about a week ago, my (ex) friend calls me up and asks me my opinion about a guy I have known for about 3 years. She started to have a crush on him.

I told her to just be careful, he gets bored easily and runs off, but to enjoy it while it lasts.

She didn't like my answer...RUNS OFF and tells him. I get a nasty message on facebook that was like a novel. I was too lazy to read it all.

I deleted both of them off facebook, and apparently I am the immature one.

Three days later (aka today) I get another messsage from the guy saying if I don't shut up he will eff up my life.

I haven't mentioned it since Sunday, when all this crap went down.

What do I do? This is crazy and stupid.

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So a guy I met 6 months ago...I finally realized I had a crush on. Everyone has been telling me since day one he wanted me (they just had no hard evidence to prove it). He was very flirtatious though. I mean, he was bored one day, asked me to give him something to do and I told him to bake me a cake..he did.

On Sunday night I got sick...I threw up for 12 hours straight. Who was there by my side...him. He said he normally would of never done that because he usually would throw up as well, but he stayed there.

So many little things he does, really points to him liking me...

I know he still loves his ex...they broke up like 4 months ago, and I know he has a crush on his ex's best friend (but she goes to school in like New Orleans).

He tried to have sex with me pretty much last night.

After I left I told him I liked him (if he couldn't tell by now), he said he has no idea and was sorry that he must of been not making this very easy on me. He figured I was being overly friendly. He also said he was confused about a lot of things right now and felt like a butt. He still wants to remain good friends though, like we always have been...

Well I have never been rejected by a not so attractive guy. Makes me feel worthless...

He has also been texting me all day, asking if I told my best friend anything (my best friend and his best friend are dating). But he was using tongue faces and everything. He also said how last night was really fun and all this crap.

Why is he doing this to me? Why can't he just leave me be?

So, I had the most effed up night of my life last night.

I met this guy at school a week ago. He asked me to come over and hang out. My thoughts...he was hot and seemed cool so I agreed.

Get to his apartment, he shows me around, and we talk for a little while. Then we decide to watch a movie. Well during the movie, he decided he wanted to give me a butt rub...well a little sketchy, but I love butt rubs so I was like okay.

At one point he pulled down my pants just enough to expose my bottom. Usually if a guy tries that, he goes to try a little something something more...well he didn't. However, he caused me a lot of pain. He decided to bite my butt very hard...and I couldn't tell you what else, but my rear now looks like it was massacred. It is no longer white, but black and blue. Also, in much pain.

And I can't bare to tell the rest of this story. I am still shocked.

I am going to be alone for Valentine's Day. That makes me sad. Stupid holiday!

Alcohol and illegal drugs…why are they so hyped up?

A drug is a drug. I know the effects of certain drugs may vary, but when it comes down to it, the drug test doesn't care if cocaine or marijuana is in your system, either drug, you fail the same way. I know people like to try and debate about marijuana being a drug. "It's an herb…" blah, blah, blah, and all that crap Why is it an illegal drug if it is "just an herb"? People who believe it really isn't a drug will most likely tell you that it causes less harmful effects then cigarettes, which may possibly be true, but doesn't mean it is better by far…does it? Have you ever looked up the actual harmful facts of marijuana, or do you just get sucked in by what everyone tells you? When it comes to drugs, everyone has their own biased opinion, pro or con. Also, people say marijuana is not an addictive substance. That is false. Long term marijuana abuse can lead to addiction. It is scientifically proven, and I have witnessed it myself with a handle of people. Don't tell me marijuana isn't an illegal drug. Would you smoke a blunt in front of a cop, or would you try and hide the evidence?

I am not sure I will ever understand the point of alcohol. From what I understand, alcohol impairs you. Alcohol impairs your vision, your judgment, everything. Why would anyone want to be impaired? Part of growing up means you finally get to make decisions by yourself, yet when you drink alcohol you let the alcohol make the choices for you. People might say, "Well if you drink responsibly, you are still capable of making your own decisions." I agree, however, why do people blame the alcohol when they cheat on their significant other, or get into a fight, or endless possible situations? They may have been drinking socially, yet still blame it for bad choices, just to get out of trouble, or ease the punishment a little. I don't know about you, but how many people in college do you know who drinks "responsibly". No one comes to mind. People drink to excess to forget about their problems. If I asked you, "Why do you drink?" How would you respond? What if I changed the question a little, "Why do you drink to excess?" In other words, "Why do you drink to get "wasted" or "drunk" or "trashed"?" If you say "to have a good time" I wouldn't believe a single word. I went to a college party this past weekend. I saw some people so drunk that they were throwing up constantly…yet still drinking more. Is it fun to throw up once? Is it fun to throw up a handful of times in the same night? From my personal experiences of being sick with a cold, I have never enjoyed throwing up. I mean unlike drugs, alcohol has an age limit, but not like anyone cares.

I love to socialize and network. Going to college parties are a great way to network. How many people at a college party are not drinking? Not many or not at all. How can you make new friends and network when people don't remember having a conversation with you or connecting with you because they were so drunk? I bet none of the people I talked to that night had been drinking for a few hours (which was all of them) would ever remember the conversations I had with them let alone me.

For all those people who drink so much they blackout. What happened if you had a one night stand? Some wouldn't care. What if you upped the stakes? What if you had a one night stand with someone other than your boyfriend/girlfriend? What if you had a one night stand and got pregnant/got someone pregnant? What if you didn't remember who your baby's daddy was nine months down the road? How do you explain that? What if you got an STD? What if you don't ever remember hooking up with someone and developed an STD? The situations are endless.

So I guess my main question here is… What is the appeal of alcohol? What is the appeal of drugs? Why does everyone make fun o f me for not doing either? I have never once told someone they couldn't drink or do drugs. If they asked I might tell them why I choose not to, but never force my views on them. So why do people try and get me to drink? Why do people think I am boring since I do neither? Why can't people just accept me for being…well…me?

Freshman year in college I distinctly remember a conversation I had with someone. They were showing me a game and said, "This game is so trippy when you are high." I told them I would never know since I don't do drugs. They replied, "You don't do drugs…do you drink?" (no) "So basically you are a loser." This came from someone's mouth that literally had about 3 friends and sat in their dorm room all day popping pills and playing games by themselves? I am still very insulted 2 years later. Is that how people view me? A loser? I don't consider myself a loser for choosing to keep my body clean. Maybe I am wrong. Who knows? Maybe I will change my mind one day, but as for now, I am pretty set in my ways, as is everybody else.

I don't have many updates with guys. I have been trying to lay low for a little while.

HOWEVER, my sister's ex...I recently found out, besides being a woman beater, and a many time cheater, he is trying to get hookers now too. On multiple occassions. FML