I wake up to my sister crying. A few days ago her boyfriend (now ex) decided to choke her so she couldn't breath and bash her head off a wall, giving her a concussion, because she decided to confront him about cheating on her for the 15th time.

My grandparents have disowned me because they think 3.5 years ago I had sex with my cousin because I fell asleep on his lap...

My dog is sick and if she doesn't get better by tomorrow I need to find money to bring her to the vet because she will get easily dehydrated because she only weighs 6 lbs.

I got sent home from work today because I couldn't stop crying, about the thought of my sister being hurt. She could of died, and I wouldn't of even known. And to top it off, everyone thought I was fired as I was leaving work because I was crying and my manager brought me in the office.

What a wonderful time of year...

So a lot has been going on in my life. I haven't had much time to write a blog. After the holiday's I will update. Maybe something good will happen with one of my many boy toys.

On a second thought...what is your favorite pick up line?

So. I have finals this week. They are all ridiculous.

That stupid pansy guy, that I talked about in some previous blogs decided to start stuff with me via facebook messaging. I am so sick of little boys. I have never had so much drama with one guy. I think he likes it or something. He is more of a female then I am. I blocked him. He had some girl message me after that ( I don't know about you, but I thought 6th graders did stuff like that not 22 year olds). I blocked her. He messages me on myspace...like I can't get away. I told him "bye have a nice life" like ten times...doesn't that mean...stop talking to me?

I want to cnt pnt him! Errr

On a side note. My pooch is snuggled up next to me and is being all cute. At least she loves me =D

My life UPDATE!!!!

The guy who thought we were going out...I broke things off with. I couldn't deal with him any longer.

The guy I thought I liked, I am second guessing. Since I am looking at future plans down the road. Not sure if it would work.

I have a 28 year old guy with a 4 year old son hitting on me. Worst part, every picture he loves of me, saying I am wicked sexy in...I was like 16 in!!! What a creep!

I went on a date with a guy who told me he didn't want anything, he just wanted to get to know me better. Like he says, "he is done with relationships". Now he likes me uber bad and his personality is a spitting image of my ex's. KILL ME!

A guy I use to date who I really liked is now dating a good friend of mine, and I am jealous. It sucks. Not because he is now with her, but what makes her more special then me, sort of. Why haven't I come close to having a boyfriend in over a year? I have dated many people, but none who both mutually wanted to settle down with each other. Why is my life like this. Don't say be paitent...it has been over a year, I think I have been paitent!

Stupid men. I just want like the definition of a country boy. Can I find that in Boston...HELL NO! God hates me!

You know how parents spank and smack there kids...to knock some sense into them when they are misbeahaving. Is that ever okay to return back to the parent? If they are misbehaving? More of, they need a wake up call.

(This is legit a serious question)

I hate men.

So I saw my ex the other night. I just needed cell phone money (we are on a family plan). We ended up talking for like 2 hours. We haven't really caught up in like 2 months. Well he confesses I do effect him a lot (even with his new gf), but won't tell me how. He has been with her 2 weeks, has seen her 3 times in his life and already had sex with her and says "I love you" to her. It makes me sick actually. I am suppose to see him today, I really don't want to though. I told him he has to step up our friendship and put in effort or I am gone and done.

Also when I dropped him off home he hugged me, and whispered in my ear "I love you." ERRR why! Not cool.

And this kid I like (but not enough to want to be bf/gf with) thinks we are a couple and drives me insane. Never with any guy I have dated has caused me so much grief. I fight with him constatntly. I go to bed in a bad mood almost every night for the past 2 weeks. I try to tell him I am done, but I still want to be friends, and with him, I am not sure that is possible. Err I hate men. Stupid stupid!

So I hate Twilight. I rag on it all the time. My friend begged for me to come see New Moon tonight. I agreed since he was paying and I wasn't wasting my money. I also love Taylor (aka Jacob aka wolf) so I was like okay, fine, just don't tell a soul I went with you.

I think I went through about 16 pairs of panties, but besides that fact, I didn't see anyone I knew while I was there. The movie ended and I walk out of the theater and there is one of my ex's standing there staring at me. FML! My cover is blown!

P.S. That is 16 pairs and counting!

So there is this guy I have been seeing. He thinks we are bf/gf. I would love to know how he got this idea. I would never be in a relationship with him, I thought I made that clear. He mentioned to me last night how "I was his." I'm like...no I'm not.... He's like..."well aren't I yours", and I replied no. Is he that dense. I keep mentioning to him that we need to break things off, but he just doesn't get it. Errr Stupid boys. I am a tomboy, I need a manly man. This guy is more femine then I am...it could NEVER work out.

ARG.

More stories to come, I am just too tired to type it all up.

Hrm why do I go through dry spells with guys, and when I find one guy I kinda like, I find like 10 more who I am kinda interested in too who like me. My best friend calls me a "player", when I'm not really. I just know what I want type of deal.

I mean there is this one guy, COMPLETELY not my type. Yet there is something about him I like. I have a feeling I am going to crush his heart pretty bad because he is more feminine than I am, which isn't saying much since I am a tomboy. I just can't do it though. I hate shopping, he loves shopping. I can't deal with another shopaholic.

Then I have some long distance crushes. (I am not going to go into them right now, another blog post).

I have a crush on two younger guys then me. They are 18. I kinda feel like a phedophile. They are both uber shy and I have to make all the moves, whether it is initiating a conversation or trying to get them to hang out. So I have no idea if either of them like me that way.

I have the usually guys who have wanted me since I was like 15ish (which is like 10 people apx).

I have old flames who are trying to get back into the picture who I keep rejecting (they can't take a hint).

I just want mister right, is that so hard to ask?

Alright. My friend I have hung out with twice, decided to confess to me in my kitchen he really likes me, is really attracted to me, wants to get to know me better and wants to eventually "be with me." Would that scare you? That definitely scares me...I also told him awhile ago I like my space and don't like to see people everyday...he is trying to NOT want to see me as often and leaving it up to me to make plans, because I said this. So does this mean he would be really clingy? Even though I got out of the shower the other night and I see him in the doorway talking to my mom (which he has NEVER met). So he just randomly popped on by. I did not like that at all. I like a warning. He could of at least called before he was going to do this. Ehhh, not even sure why this bothers me.

My ex finally has a girlfriend. I have been trying to drift away from him, but he won't let me. It's stupid. He is like begging me to help him with a school project. Why can't he have someone else help him? Why me?!? ARG!

A gay guy I met the other night said he would go straight for me (that was mighty funny). It was mighty random as well.