Well I am fully done with school this quarter. That's right, my game is on now, and will remain on until July. And some more good news, I haven't had any "flashbacks" or "visions" whatever you want to call them in a good two days now. I am feeling pretty good about it being dealt with. So until July I will be doing nothing but relaxing and gaming, although I still have to figure out what it is I am going to do about my internship, I might have to wait until all my classes are over.

Ever had that feeling you were being ignored? Or maybe the feeling that you aren't wanted in a certain area? I have a feeling that someone isn't liking me very much right now, and got me thinking what if really do act like an a**hole sometimes. So I have come up with a solution, I will lurk around gamespot, but won't speak my mind as freely as I have before. If you speak to me then yes I will answer, but it's time for me to start acting mature enough to know when to shut up. My journal is another story, I will continue to keep up with my journal but the forums I won't post as much.

I think I found the cheap game I will be getting along with my one expensive game this week. It is called Nightshade and I had never heard of it until now. I think I will look at a few more reviews of the game rather than just picking it up at the store. I am still deciding over my expensive game pick and I think I have brought my selection down to God of War, Jade Empire, Mortal Kombat: Deception, and GTA SA. I guess I will pick when I get there.

Well I just found out about my internship. I will have to work for free! I am so irritated right now, I mean it wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't an hour drive away. At least it is at a college, meaning they may have classes up their that have to do with gaming that I might be interested in. But working for free, for a little over nine weeks, that is going to suck. And then if I don't cut it in the field then I get the shaft. I will probably still do it anyway, but first I have to go there and take a tour and see if that is where I want to work to begin with. I really hope they have a game department, that way I can take classes there. It would be like a double bonus my school is where I work so I don't have to drive so much. I guess I will find out in about three weeks.

If you have read any of my previous journal entries you know that I sometimes will post a dream I had the night before and most of the time they are extremely weird. But instead of me posting it this time I will safe everyone the discomfort of this one, because it really is creeping me out. I don't know what it is but I have the weirdest and most creepiest dreams lately, and what is even creeper than that is the simple fact that when I am playing a game or at work I will see......I am trying to word this without sounding crazy. F*** it, I see visions of those weird and creepy dreams while I am awake. They don't pop up long just for a few seconds, and it feels extremely weird. I really don't know what to do about it, or if there is anything I can do about it. I will probably just leave it be and see if it gets any worse and hopefully it will take care of itself.

In other news I found out I am making a B in PSY, which is pretty good since I completely forgot about two assignments that were due last month that I didn't do. So hopefully I will come out with a C in ENG, highly doubtful but I can dream. So now I have one last assignment due and I can't start on it until the 12th so I guess I will get my game on until then. What sucks is that it is an essay that has a time limit, so if I get writers block then I am screwed.

When I got off of work the other day I decided to do all my school work and other various things around the house first before I did anything remotely fun. Well I finished all of the things I had to do in about four hours and then I started on my gaming. I played four levels of Splinter Cell, I worked on my level in Kingdom Hearts, and I played four levels in Otogi. I can hear it now, "your still playing Kingdom Hearts?" Yeah, but only to reach level 100 and then beat it again to see if it makes any difference what level you are or not, and so far I am only 21 level away from my goal and since the game is so fun I should be there in a few days.

Next week I am thinking of getting one of a number of games. One is Advent Rising, but I think I will have to read a review or something before I decide on that one. The second is Jade Empire, but I may try to play Fable first. The third is Grand Theft Auto SA for Xbox, this one is number one right now on my mind. Number four is Mortal Kombat, but I really only like to play multi player on that one. Five is God of War, number two on my mind. I guess I will have to choose when I go to the game store. I will get one of those and of course one cheap one, I always have to get more than one game at a time.

School is almost over!!!!!! I never thought those words could be so sweet. I thought I was almost done with Psychology but I just found out that I have another test due and English of course I have one last assignment next week, a horible timed essay writng. I just hope it is something I am interested in. I can write an entire 2000 word essay on something I am interested in but can barely hit 200 words on something that bores me. I guess that is why you see some of my journal entries being so long most of the time. After this I will have three or four more classes and then I will be going for some game schoolin. I really just want to get into the game industry, I mean gaming is my passion so why shouldn't I try to merge my career goals with the one thing I love to do.

Well I just got Otogi 2 from my friend who just was over. He watched me play a little of the first one and said, "this is the kind of game I would rather watch someone play then actually play it myself". Which I can't really relate to, I mean I like looking at screen shots and game footage but I would rather play a game then watch someone play.

My friends list looks so empty so I will start sending them friend request today, lets hope the people I send them to actually excepts them. I wonder if I should send a PM before hand, rather than just sending the request. Could you help me out Dri? You know the people I will be requesting better than I do.

Ever have one of those moods where you can't do anything. Kind of like if you have something due in school and you just can't start working on it, I mean you know it is due but you just can't start doing on it. My whole week can be described as that. I need to take my car into the shop, I need to go to the bank, I have to start on a paper for school, I need to clean up the house. I just can't get motivated enough to start anything.

On another note my friends list is going to be hacked and slashed to death. There will only be one person left, until I become well known enough in the OT-2 to start sending friend request, my friend page is going to look bare. I am doing this because I have very little interaction with 99% of all my "friends" so it only seems logical to just start anew.

Well the next generation game years is about to begin and I going to celebrate by getting a big screen HDTV. So far I found one that supports all formats of resolution and is a little expensive but at least it is not the price of a plasma or LCD. Although it will look a little big in a small room, but I don't care I want my game experience to be the best that I can get. Just think of this a semi-small room with a 52' widescreen TV in it, I know it will look silly but I don't care.

i just finished Chronicles of Riddick and even though it was a little short I still found it very enjoyable. It almost ranked with my top 10 best games of all time. Well I better get going, got to go find some emo music for a friend.

This is going to sound kind of retarded but I bought another Kingdom Hearts PS2 game, well not another type of game I bought the same game. My reason you ask, because the one I had was a greatest hits and I wanted the original. You see when I went to blockbuster they had the original game for 15 dollars and I was going to buy the original anyway but didn't want to get it off of ebay or anything so I just decided to get it. Wow I am actually trying to explain the reason for buying a game twice, sad isn't it?

I have a feeling I am almost done with Chronicles of Riiddick, even though I started it yesterday. The game isn't at all bad I was surprised. The graphics are really good, the environment are a little dull but I think they are supposed to be, I mean you are in prison. The fighting system reminds me of fight club, and even though it is in first person it gives me the sense of a halo effect toward me.

I can't wait to start playing Star Ocean. I have to wait until I can get another memory card or at least get that x like thing where a cable hooks to your PS2 to your computer and it uses your hard drive as a memory card. The only thing that I will hate about the game is if it is turn based fighting. Oh, how I hate turn based fighting.

I started playing a little of Otogi and this game is going to be amazing. The graphics are spectacular and the game play, from what I have played, is very awesome. If you haven't played Otogi do me a favor and rent this. What is so funny is I was going to get the second one also, but was going to wait until it went down in price, but a long time ago I suggested the second title to my friend who bought it about a month ago and didn't say anything about it to me. While I was talking with him yesterday and he said, "if you want it I will sell it to you for 20 bucks, oh and thanks for the recommendation on the game", LOL....I really thought he would like it, but didn't know he didn't like hack and slash type games, oh well. What gets me about Otogi is the fact that it feels and acts like an action-RPG but everywhere I have looked calls is an action adventure. I tried posting something in GGD but got no response, so either people don't know what makes an action rpg or don't care enough to reply to my post. I just don't get it, you get hit points during combat and you can level up in the game, to me that qualifies as a RPG.

Yesterday was very boring day. I sat in my room all day writing papers for school, trying to get ahead of the game. I couldn't play any games, every now and then I would step into the forums here at Gamestop to do a small amount of chatting just to take a small break or two. But now I am mostly done, I have half a page to write, 2 test (one for this week and the other for next week), and I believe it to be my last paper that I have to write for English which isn't due for another two weeks. Then after that I will clean up a bit, sit in my nice comfortable chair and get my game on. I should have a whole month out of school so that will be nice, and then I will start back again but I am only taking one class, I almost wasn't going to take any classes but I was afraid I would never start back again, so I decided on one class.

I knew it, I just knew I would start seeing all these game price threads popping up all over the place. I was surprised last week because I only saw one or two, but this week I have seen close to eight or nine threads that all look the same but are different. I went into one today and I keep seeing the same post all over the place, the poster is asking what people think of the prices going up, then we have a certain group of posters that just plain out don't believe it (even though they can look at prices for next generation games on ebgames.com or gamestop.com), then there are the ones that say no way there not 10 dollars more there 30 dollars more than this generation games, oh and my personal favorite the people who think that this is only a test price to see if anyone is going to buy them at that price. I am sure this will become much worse before it gets any better.

I will be getting a new game today. I don't know what I want but I know I want something new. Something refreshing, something with a good story, something I can't beat in less than a weeks time, probably never going to happen but I can always dream. I will probably get Bujingai, or maybe Fable, I have Fable on that special xbox but I have to have the box and manual and the cd to fully enjoy my gaming experience, just the way I am, actually I bought that xbox for another special reason.
*update for this journal* Well I just got back and I got three games, well really four but one is a gift. I got Fable, Splinter Cell(it was free) and Otogi. I really wanted a hck and slash game so that is why I got Otogi plus I heard it was very fun and hard. I almost got Jade Empire but with all the games I got being around 50 dollars total and Jade Empire would have cost about that much I think I made the right decision.

I meant to update my last journal entry but I kept forgetting so here is an update for my last (see below) journal entry.
*update* I kind of forgot to mention something else about that girl in my dream. She looked like she could have been between 19 -21, she was wearing a fat leather wrist band watch and she had glasses that made her look twice as cute. It is amazing that I can still remember her even after a few days of dreaming about her. This feels like a crush, but how can you have a crush on a girl that you have never met, that I have never even had a full conversation with in reality? It just seems weird is all, to have a crush on a girl that was in my dream.

I was having such a crappy few days that I just decided to say "screw it" and took a nap. I find sometimes that if I take a small two or three hour nap that my body and mind feels a lot better. Well guess what I had a dream about another girl I don't know, but this time there was a ton of detail to the dream. So let me take you deep into my mind, scare isn't it?

My dream first starts me off in Illinois, this is where a lot of my family lives so everything is familiar. Me and my brother are apparently there for only a few days. I don't know exactly where we were staying but it was nice, looked a little like a very clean hotel. Well we go to the store to pick up supplies, even though we didn't get anything. I was walking along until I came across this girl putting up some sort of clothing items, when all of a sudden she started talking to me. I still remember what she looked like, she had short brown hair that had a little red in it. Her hair was also a little messy and spiky (indie rock style). She was dressed professional, because she was at work of course. She was a little short and a little chubby, not fat, but also not really skinny. Well even though I don't remember the conversation, I was clearly into her and the conversation. At the end of our little talk she gave me her phone number and told me to call her sometime. Well me and my brother left, my brother was mad because they didn't have what he wanted but I was very much happy because I met her. We left to go to my uncle's house because we said we would. When we got there I automatically asked to use the phone, I picked up the phone and called her, and what is so weird is the fact that I knew the number when I woke up, I guess I should have written it down, oh well. She picked up the phone and we talked a little longer, finally we had a date planned and I was on my way to happy land. I told my brother that I was taking the car, and he knew he wasn't going to stop me so he let me. I went to go pick her up to go out on a date, when I woke up.

Man, I love that dream. It had so much detail, I saw her face so clearly and I still remember what she looks like even though I had the dream about 11 hours ago.